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CTB Fella

CTB Fella

Experienced
Dec 15, 2022
268
Me: The only time I feel joy is when I overdose.

It has become an addiction.

I literally have absolutely no interest in life, or existing in this world at all.
 
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cutejellybean

cutejellybean

My CTB date is June 20, 2023
Apr 13, 2023
22
The only thing that brings me joy are my pets.
I feel bad for wanting to CTB because I don't want to leave my pets alone. Especially my cat because I know that my family members will take care of my other pets, but they don't like her.
I don't know if my family will take care of my cat when I die. She's really close to me, and she follows me everywhere. I know she will be really lonely when I CTB. She's the only thing keeping me here. She's 10 years old now and gets sick a lot though.
 
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BringMeToLife

BringMeToLife

I'm stuck in here
Apr 13, 2023
219
My little sweet baby - my hammy
 
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Anonymus

Enlightened
May 6, 2022
1,355
When I imagine things like I'm a small furry bug with big eyes running through the undergrowth in the middle of the mountain and I reach a clear area where a stream runs through and I jump into the clear water where the reflections of an April sunlight play shadows and fireworks with the surrounding nature.

Apart from these rare things, there is nothing to match that feeling of freedom and joy.

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Quan m'imagino coses com que sóc un petita bestiola peluda amb uns ulls ben grossos corretejant pel sotabosc enmig de la muntanya i arribo a un zona clara per on passa un rierol i em llenço dins l'aigua transparent on els reflexos d'una llum de sol d'Abril juguen a fer ombres i focs d'artifici amb la natura del voltant.

Fora d'aquestes coses rares, no hi ha pas res que iguali aquesta sensació de llibertat i goig.
 
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Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,832
Getting drunk, but sometimes it isn't very enjoyable when the next morning comes. I just love doing it in the moment.
 
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tams

tams

Member
Mar 27, 2023
62
Her, and she has no idea.
 
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WaitingToGo

WaitingToGo

Experienced
Feb 18, 2023
233
Just my two cats, especially Stan in the avatar. He's such a friend nothing else gives any joy
 
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Parnate

Mage
Dec 16, 2021
509
Listening to My favourite songs at night or watching my favourite movies at night.
Also eating.
 
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BroodingBleu

BroodingBleu

MtF
Feb 16, 2023
92
Tbh, getting high is the only thing that keeps me grounded. Its the only way to experience emotions anymore since being medicated.
 
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depressedlover

In Transit waiting for the bus
Apr 12, 2023
178
Dreaming about my dead fiancé,it always feels real,like we are together and he is still alive.Whenever i wake up after dreaming of him…that's the only time my mood lightens.It might seems crazy but i'm currently living in the past where he still lives and in the spirit's world where i always talk to him and he also sends me signs.Until i join him that's how i escape my loneliness and sadness.
 
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axxxu

axxxu

Member
Apr 8, 2023
69
Poetry.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,847
There is no such thing as happiness in this world, I believe it to be a delusion. Life certainly is only suffering and there is no benefit to existing here in this world, life is a cruel mistake which only death can offer relief from. I would only feel relieved if I had a method as peaceful as Nembutal where I could pass away into an eternal sleep.
 
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Eschaton

Member
Apr 16, 2023
32
Sleep
 
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Valky

Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
Broooo, animals. I hecking love dogs so much, simply seeing one makes my day. I love my pets man, they bring me joy everyday
 
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RedDoor

RedDoor

Tired... just Tired
Apr 13, 2023
61
Gaming, but of course im terrible. So yea not that much
 
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Mäximum

Mäximum

All the effort for nothing...
Apr 5, 2023
208
My girlfriend
 
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Meretricious

Meretricious

ERRONEOUS ENTRY.
Apr 2, 2023
46
My favorite show: South Park. My favorite band, Queen. And prehistoric life (I'm a junior paleontologist at heart); dinosaurs are my jam.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,931
No, nothing gives me joy anymore--Get brief lifts from food, nothing else
 
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BroodingBleu

BroodingBleu

MtF
Feb 16, 2023
92
What do you get high on?
Mostly prescription opioids with large amounts of marijuana or psilocybin. I wanted to try other things but don't have access to it.
 
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lumibee

lumibee

bubble buddy
Apr 14, 2023
305
My comfort show and food <3
 
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Szinuus

Szinuus

I see the bus...I can almost see it
Aug 19, 2022
211
Movie star planet - Im almost 23 and still play it because I have no idea for killing the time with anything else...
 
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lumibee

lumibee

bubble buddy
Apr 14, 2023
305
Movie star planet - Im almost 23 and still play it because I have no idea for killing the time with anything else...
I touched it again the other day ! The nostalgia from the game really hit me
 
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SilentSadness

SilentSadness

Person
Feb 28, 2023
1,529
Some things bring me temporary relief, comfort, or escapism, but nothing brings me joy. There could never be a break from this horrendous reality so great that I would consider it joy, after all this world ruins everything it touches.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,427
Rainbows 🌈
 
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justastranger

justastranger

Member
Apr 14, 2023
48
SH, it's so strange but when i see the blood it's relieving. Only temporarily though ig. It makes me feel horrible but in that moment I'm doing it it helps me so much
 
Actovania

Actovania

the same
Mar 30, 2023
86
I like playing games and stuff but that doesn't bring me much joy, I guess it would be watching anime (Nichijou), that's the only thing that makes me happy anymore, and I'm fine with it no matter how many times I rewatch the same clips. Fantasizing about living a completely different life can also make me feel better sometimes, as long as I forget reality.
 
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Pidgeons_Sparrows

Pidgeons_Sparrows

-flying rat
Apr 16, 2023
625
Cats, videogames
Thats it
I wish I could just lay in a sea of purring cattos
Maybe then id be happy lol
 
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