Discussion Can you imagine yourself living another year ?

[Buddha.chris]

For me everything is a blur and I'm just as lost as ever in all honesty I can feel my time coming not a feeling more like a educated prediction based my situation. I'm interested you don't have to get specific just wondering how many of you guys Envision living another year here on earth ?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

It would be extremely unfortunate if I did.

 

[AresCohere]

Even as my life deteriorates, I might be able to make it another year or two. Hell, I probably will because my stupid SI is too strong and at this point I just deserve the suffering.

 

[Little_Suzy]

These kind of inquiries are very intrusive, and they should be banned.

To me, it conveys the message that individuals should ctb as soon as possible, if not immediately.

Just like we can't predict when we'll die of natural causes, no one can predict when they'll ctb.

Stop asking strangers when they are going to ctb or if they "can imagine themselves living another year." It's none of your business!

Ctb is a personal preference, not a competition amongst SaSu members.

 

[StolenLife]

Yes, I can't ctb until I finish Uni.

 

[Buddha.chris]

These kind of inquiries are very intrusive, and they should be banned.

To me, it conveys the message that individuals should ctb as soon as possible, if not immediately.

Just like we can't predict when we'll die of natural causes, no one can predict when they'll ctb.

Stop asking strangers when they are going to ctb or if they "can imagine themselves living another year." It's none of your business!

Ctb is a personal preference, not a competition amongst SaSu members.

Before I left the forum back in 2021 I don't remember their being so many alt accounts on SS no disrespect but your statement sounds pro life no one on this forum has ever called it a competition only pro lifers say that this question has been asked before and it's not invasive at all. I clearly stated you don't have to Be specific.

 

[Rational man]

Two Years ago, i didnt think i would be here today. I didnt think my physical body could withstand further pain and torture of physical illness. So maybe i will be here or maybe not.

 

[Buddha.chris]

Two Years ago, i didnt think i would be here today. I didnt think my physical body could withstand further pain and torture of physical illness. So maybe i will be here or maybe not.

I can understand mental pain and suffering but physical pain on top of mental illness must be 100 times harder I hope you find peace and heal slowly from your wounds I watched a person I love dearly now at the time I didn't love them but she passed away from ataxia back in 2021 so I know how hard physical pain can be on a person I send you my well wishes

 

[CentreMid]

Hoping I don't.

 

[charlotte_]

As unfortunate as it sounds, probably yes. I'm dead as hell inside but I can't see myself being anywhere near physically dead, as I have no access to good methods and too scared to do it

 

[Zelda-frog]

I hope I don't but I told my boyfriend I'm willing to give moving out soon with him a chance to see if it changes things with me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

It feels likely. I'm waiting for my Dad to go first and while he's getting old, his health is fairly good. Not of course that I wish it wasn't. Still, sometimes- very selfishly- I wonder how long I'm going to have to hang on for- and, how I'm going to do it.

 

[Rational man]

I can understand mental pain and suffering but physical pain on top of mental illness must be 100 times harder I hope you find peace and heal slowly from your wounds I watched a person I love dearly now at the time I didn't love them but she passed away from ataxia back in 2021 so I know how hard physical pain can be on a person I send you my well wishes

Thanks for your thoughts. Ive also seen good sudden deaths and also bad deaths. My Mother died a long torturous death from Lymphoma, surrounded by her own stink and filth. I learnt from this and my promise to self is to avoid such awfulness. We wouldn't let our beloved pets die.horrifying deaths and yet im traumatised by my Mother's death. When my spirit is ready i will gladly let go of my body. Take care.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's impossible to predict the future but I think I will still be trapped here, I don't want to think about enduring existence for yet another year but I guess that if one doesn't ctb they have no choice but to be a prisoner to existence. And the fact is that not everyone has the privledge of being able to free themselves reliably in a fairly straightforward way, such a thing is only reserved for the truly fortunate. It's tragic how we cannot just choose to fall asleep forever, as humans we deserve the option to permanently solve all problems and free ourselves from all future harms and suffering.

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I'm too much of a coward to actually go through with a CTB attempt, so I'll most likely be alive for another year unless I die through some incident as my health leaves much to be desired. (I'm on the road to developing high blood pressure and, most likely, diabetes. Sorry if that's TMI.)

Knowing all of this, my vision of my future is very bleak and depressing. Would you truly consider it being alive when you're just going through the motions and doing what you're told to do while slowly rotting on the inside?

 

[SilentSadness]

I will almost certainly still be trapped here, and I can definitely imagine all the suffering I'm to experience. It will be a horrific and undeserved process. I wish I could die, but this world is far too cruel for that.

 

[kaytor]

Yea but it's in my imagination, if I do manage to keep living I know it will be awful, maybe even worse. But I can Dream

 

[FrostedHoax]

No, I can't imagine myself still kicking another full year later. At this point, I've become so far gone that there's no way I make it that long. Hell, I already have my method so there's a pretty good chance that I'll be gone from this world within the next month or so.

 

[catagmatic]

I waiver back and forth. My situation is tenable (good job, great partner, physical health, etc) but I am having a hard time seeing this all through as overwhelmingly I feel as if though this is just the way I am wired. Rationally I look at my life and think there's a lot that I could work with and progress beyond this but at the same time I feel anhedonic and unable to enjoy anything short of sleeping. I feel like I'm operating on autopilot and I just want to disengage the whole thing already.

All in all another year like this sounds nauseating.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Absolutely not.
I would rather eat my own shit than last another year.

 

[mlcs]

The sad thing is that most of us that voted 'no' will live for more than another year. And we all individually hope we will be the ones to manage to escape.

 

[12_Years_Late]

It will be less than a week left for me now.

 

[helicoptero]

I can't even imagine living a couple months more, so a year just sounds impossible to me. Idk what I'm going to do, but I have to leave soon. I can feel my time here is over.

 

[chloramine]

I can envision it, but not as something I want. I envision it and feel dread of having to live every day between now and then. And likely ending up in the same place in the end.

 

[BetterInTheory]

I actually plan on living another year. Giving myself a buffer period to see if things settle down. And if not, at least I'll have more time to mentally prepare myself for what's to come

 

[UKscotty]

I hope not and I feel sorry for anyone else who is.

My problem is I am too much of a coward to CTB, even though every part of me knows it's the right thing to do.

Hopefully I will grow and pair and get it done ASAP.