Can you cry?

[dysfunctional]

I used to be able to cry when I was sad or get choked up at an emotional moment, etc. When this depression hit me, it's been by far the worst time in my life, but I haven't cried once. I'd like to! My emotions really flattened out to a low level. Can you still cry?

 

[DeletedUser4739]

I used to be able to cry when I was sad or get choked up at an emotional moment, etc. When this depression hit me, it's been by far the worst time in my life, but I haven't cried once. I'd like to! My emotions really flattened out to a low level. Can you still cry?

Years ago, I had never had a hard time shedding tears, whether they be happy or sad. However, as my mental illness progresses, the crying has changed as well. I have periods where sad tears drain out of my eyes, and other times where I'm flat like you said. I'm nearly numb at that stage. I find the flatness tends to occur in the deeper states of depression for me.

 

[worldexploder]

Only when I'm drunk. I use to cry myself to sleep every night. I want to cry but the tears just don't come any more.

 

[Deutschv2]

occasionally but medicine help to numb it so it's not often thankfully

 

[Dani Paradox]

Sometimes I want to cry so badly, and I just can't. It won't come out. I just feel frozen and numb. Other times I totally explode and scream/cry/wail into my pillow for 30 minutes... It comes and goes...

 

[optimumorange]

Sometimes I want to cry so badly, and I just can't. It won't come out. I just feel frozen and numb. Other times I totally explode and scream/cry/wail into my pillow for 30 minutes... It comes and goes...

i've become so numb it's hard to cry i wish i could cry more often i would probably feel better releasing all of that built up in me

 

[Prime]

Yes, since mid 2017, I am finding it in myself that I have lost the ability to shed tears. I have always found it difficult to shed tears, maybe its my disorder or something but now I have lost that ability almost completely. If I am super sad then sometimes tears come to the eyes and that only at night but no, they don't roll down.

 

[TooLate2582]

Funerals and at the Grand Canyon

 

[Dani Paradox]

i've become so numb it's hard to cry i wish i could cry more often i would probably feel better releasing all of that built up in me

It helps soo much. Try screaming into a pillow. Sometimes when I can't cry, if I start screaming into a pillow it kind of triggers it, and then it all just comes out

 

[Fcancer]

I can't cry since transplant, I have cronic dry eye now and my eyes don't produce tears anymore.

 

[Dani Paradox]

I can't cry since transplant, I have cronic dry eye now and my eyes don't produce tears anymore.

:( So if you cry nothing comes out??

 

[optimumorange]

It helps soo much. Try screaming into a pillow. Sometimes when I can't cry, if I start screaming into a pillow it kind of triggers it, and then it all just comes out

i wish i could PM you i haven't been on the forums long enough to

 

[Fcancer]

:( So if you cry nothing comes out??

I'm not sure, i'm emotionally a robot I don't really cry anyway. But I did try a couple a couple times recently, for the sheer fact I know it releases stress to cry. But my eyes are just 24/7 bone dry, so yea no luck.

 

[Dani Paradox]

I'm not sure, i'm emotionally a robot I don't really cry anyway. But I did try a couple a couple times recently, for the sheer fact I know it releases stress to cry. But my eyes are just 24/7 bone dry, so yea no luck.

That sounds horrible :(

 

[Dani Paradox]

i wish i could PM you i haven't been on the forums long enough to

Feel free to message me when you are able. I'm always here for anyone who wants to talk :)

 

[DeletedUser4739]

occasionally but medicine help to numb it so it's not often thankfully

Meds to treat the mania, definitely make me numb. I remember joining this site with full blown crazy energy. Now I'm all medicated and that's gone now. It's replaced with an odd nothingness.

 

[hunter_lewis]

I cry all the time when I feel bad. Even on the bus or in public. It's embarrassing

 

[DeletedUser4739]

I cry all the time when I feel bad. Even on the bus or in public. It's embarrassing

I know the feeling. We can't be the only two people who frequently cry in public...and aren't toddlers ;-)

 

[Help_Me]

Easily. My psychologist told me this happens cause I used to restrain myself a lot in my early childhood, and that was my mistake. It turned out that everything is reversed now and I can shed my tears even with no reason.

 

[starcrossedfate]

Right now, not anymore. I'm virtually catatonic at this point.

 

[WaitingForTheBus]

Yeah, every god damn day lately, uncontrollably like a child at times. The meds aren't numbing it this time, normally they do.

 

[Lra888]

I can no longer cry. I believe this is because I am so low that crying is out of reach emotionally. I can't even feel the beauty of something to feel it's loss, or feel emotional connection with someone or something to cry over it - even myself. I no longer desire to be around people or persue any type of emotional connections in life so I can't cry for them.

I used to think this was because of the medication I was taking—SSRI's don't allow me to feel deep emotion either way neither sad nor happy—but I've since stopped taking them and I still have the inability to cry.

 

[Roph]

I cry more often than I'd like to.

 

[Aity4883]

You only feel numb because the damage is too big.

Your soul is being eaten alive inside you. But you shut out the truth.

Just like how when your body is damaged enough by the fire it doesn't hurt anymore.

 

[project77]

Cannot cry when Im despressive. Often when I begin to get better it begins with crying.
I often cry after the a few good moments, experiences I have from to time to time, like talking to someone who understands me or looking at/ walking thru nature and listing to music. Especially now that autumn begins. So as I stand looking at seasons I wonder how many years I have left and feels like a great burden is lifted from me and I start crying.

 

[Just A NPC]

It's been a very very rare thing for me to be able to cry for at least the past 10 years. Even when I have nothing but sadness inside and feel like I want to some weird shit kicks in. Like I become numb and fuzzy in my head before swallowing it and then I go on like every day.

I remember not even being able to cry at my grandpas funeral. The urge was there but....even years later the tears still didn't come. I think it's become a defensive mechanism, but I do wish I could cry. I think I'd feel a lot better after.

 

[Artear]

In the past i barely ever cried, but now the tears just come out all the time. I cry myself to sleep most nights. I'm just so tired

 

[dysfunctional]

You only feel numb because the damage is too big.

Your soul is being eaten alive inside you. But you shut out the truth.

Just like how when your body is damaged enough by the fire it doesn't hurt anymore.

Horrifying but true.

 

[Kooz]

Most of the time I'm able to hide most of my emotions. Just act stonefaced. When I cry though, I ball.

Then I get angry that I'm actually crying and then I'll cry even more because of that.

 

[Fucking loving it]

Years ago, I had never had a hard time shedding tears, whether they be happy or sad. However, as my mental illness progresses, the crying has changed as well. I have periods where sad tears drain out of my eyes, and other times where I'm flat like you said. I'm nearly numb at that stage. I find the flatness tends to occur in the deeper states of depression for me.

THIS. .... ^^^^^