Can someone pretend to care about me

[sohopelessandempty]

I know my bf cares, I just have a shitty family and one family member(obviously not giving more description out of fear someone somehow ties this post back to me irl) basically was being a bitch and she literally just judges me all the time for anything ever, like fuck off who cares and I asked her why she even cares and she said she doesn't care and said in her bitchy way "what makes you think people care about you?"
I shouldn't care but my brain is wired badly so can someone read this and pretend they care? I don't care if this is seen as attention seeking this is like my safe place and you guys are the only ones who'd understand. Like whenever these small things happen then I have to waste my time being suicidal and scrolling this forum again instead of just going to bed

 

[sleeplessboyinbed]

Im sorry she said that to you :⁠'⁠(. She is definitely not correct and was just trying to make you feel bad. People care about you, i just met you but i already worry about you and i hope everything will be okay for you! Don't let her win, she doesn't even deserve your time

 

[sohopelessandempty]

Im sorry she said that to you :⁠'⁠(. She is definitely not correct and was just trying to make you feel bad. People care about you, i just met you but i already worry about you and i hope everything will be okay for you! Don't let her win, she doesn't even deserve your time

Thank you this makes me feel a lot better, I am scared of giving details but realistically who irl could possibly find my account unless they are on here too? So I will tell you that her being able to make me more suicidal makes me feel pathetic and humiliated because she's younger than me. And because everyone likes her more, even my parents. She has said to my face she's better than me and blah blah blah and also that I should be shot(the context behind this is bc I got into the car "late" for school, I'm a senior so still an adult dw). I could go on a rant about that, basically my family is strict and strange and have this weird rule about getting to school 10 mins early or you're late, I'd understand all the shit I get if I ever actually made someone late but I never have. We are literally always on time. But regardless, saying someone should be shot over this is INSANE, it's like my family wants me to do it. They like pushing you to suicidality and then judging and shaming you for it

 

[sleeplessboyinbed]

Thank you this makes me feel a lot better, I am scared of giving details but realistically who irl could possibly find my account unless they are on here too? So I will tell you that her being able to make me more suicidal makes me feel pathetic and humiliated because she's younger than me too.

It's not pathetic to feel hurt when somebody tries to hurt you, even if they're younger or anything else. She should know better than say things like that to you!

 

[sohopelessandempty]

It's not pathetic to feel hurt when somebody tries to hurt you, even if they're younger or anything else. She should know better than say things like that to you!

Why are people on this website more compassionate than normal people who literally give this place such a bad rep on the news claiming it encourages suicide? Ironically normal people tend to be the ones who pushed us to even come here.

 

[sleeplessboyinbed]

Thank you this makes me feel a lot better, I am scared of giving details but realistically who irl could possibly find my account unless they are on here too? So I will tell you that her being able to make me more suicidal makes me feel pathetic and humiliated because she's younger than me. And because everyone likes her more, even my parents. She has said to my face she's better than me and blah blah blah and also that I should be shot(the context behind this is bc I got into the car "late" for school, I'm a senior so still an adult dw). I could go on a rant about that, basically my family is strict and strange and have this weird rule about getting to school 10 mins early or you're late, I'd understand all the shit I get if I ever actually made someone late but I never have. We are literally always on time. But regardless, saying someone should be shot over this is INSANE, it's like my family wants me to do it. They like pushing you to suicidality and then judging and shaming you for it

She is a terrible human being, im so sorry you have to through all of this :⁠'⁠(. Is there a way for you to at least limit contact with them?

 

[sohopelessandempty]

She is a terrible human being, im so sorry you have to through all of this :⁠'⁠(. Is there a way for you to at least limit contact with them?

We live together. I also think she's a terrible person but for some reason I feel bad for even talking about her and bad about agreeing with you, maybe because others like her so this opinion feels wrong? Like we are outliers? Also, if I could limit contact with her, I would've done so already. She is so annoying. The other reason I feel bad is bc we are cool sometimes.

 

[sleeplessboyinbed]

Why are people on this website more compassionate than normal people who literally give this place such a bad rep on the news claiming it encourages suicide? Ironically normal people tend to be the ones who pushed us to even come here.

Yes, i agree. I have received more support from this place, that is supposed to "encourage suicide" according to some people, than the ones that are "supposed" to help. Suicidality (is that a word?) is seriously stigmatized and we can only get support from one another

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Thank you this makes me feel a lot better, I am scared of giving details but realistically who irl could possibly find my account unless they are on here too? So I will tell you that her being able to make me more suicidal makes me feel pathetic and humiliated because she's younger than me. And because everyone likes her more, even my parents. She has said to my face she's better than me and blah blah blah and also that I should be shot(the context behind this is bc I got into the car "late" for school, I'm a senior so still an adult dw). I could go on a rant about that, basically my family is strict and strange and have this weird rule about getting to school 10 mins early or you're late, I'd understand all the shit I get if I ever actually made someone late but I never have. We are literally always on time. But regardless, saying someone should be shot over this is INSANE, it's like my family wants me to do it. They like pushing you to suicidality and then judging and shaming you for it

That's such a horrible thing for her to say to you, that you should be shot, like wtf? Nah, in my opinion, you should be the one with the gun in your hand, aiming at her instead. What a bitch.

 

[sohopelessandempty]

That's such a horrible thing for her to say to you, that you should be shot, like wtf? Nah, in my opinion, you should be the one with the gun in your hand, aiming at her instead. What a bitch.

SHE DRIVES ME INSANE OMG nobody understands there is something about ur sibling being a bitch vs parents being bitches that is hard to explain but it almost feels worse because like come on man really? Parents being that way at times is almost expected, it's like common. But for your own sibling to do it? Idk

Yes, i agree. I have received more support from this place, that is supposed to "encourage suicide" according to some people, than the ones that are "supposed" to help. Suicidality (is that a word?) is seriously stigmatized and we can only get support from one another

It is a word, and you're right. People judge anyone that comes here but if you tell anyone irl they usually judge and/or lock you up. And they wonder why people come to a suicide forum instead.

 

[sleeplessboyinbed]

We live together. I also think she's a terrible person but for some reason I feel bad for even talking about her and bad about agreeing with you, maybe because others like her so this opinion feels wrong? Like we are outliers? Also, if I could limit contact with her, I would've done so already. She is so annoying. The other reason I feel bad is bc we are cool sometimes.

Sometimes we are in a place where everyone is accepting something that isn't correct, making us feel like we're the ones who are crazy. It's like when you walk in a room full of flat earthers, the fact that they agree with each other doesn't make them correct. You are an outlier in this room, but you aren't wrong for that, you're just in the wrong room.
"Cool sometimes" means nothing when she said such things to you. I wish you the strongest nerves to deal with her! And i hope sometime in the future you can stop talking to her

 

[Lost in a Dream]

SHE DRIVES ME INSANE OMG nobody understands there is something about ur sibling being a bitch vs parents being bitches that is hard to explain but it almost feels worse because like come on man really? Parents being that way at times is almost expected, it's like common. But for your own sibling to do it? Idk

Maybe it sounds messed up but I almost wish I could kill her for you. I'm not a hitman or anything like that, but if I was, just from what you've described about her, I would do it for free.

 

[sohopelessandempty]

Sometimes we are in a place where everyone is accepting something that isn't correct, making us feel like we're the ones who are crazy. It's like when you walk in a room full of flat earthers, the fact that they agree with each other doesn't make them correct. You are an outlier in this room, but you aren't wrong for that, you're just in the wrong room.
"Cool sometimes" means nothing when she said such things to you. I wish you the strongest nerves to deal with her! And i hope sometime in the future you can stop talking to her

Thank you. I'm just tired of her bullshit, I wish she'd just leave me alone. If she truly didn't care about me, I don't even mind. As long as it's the type where she leaves me alone. I don't understand people who think not caring is constantly bothering and judging someone. Not caring is just leaving them alone. I told her this but she claims that's untrue and that judging doesn't mean someone cares. But why would you judge if you don't care? Wouldn't you just move on? Mind you her judging me today was over eating chips at 2am like it's not that deep fuck off

Maybe it sounds messed up but I almost wish I could kill her for you. I'm not a hitman or anything like that, but if I was, just from what you've described about her, I would do it for free.

I'm not gonna agree with this for several reasons, she's still my sister after all and also if I agreed then I'd just be like her. I'd be a hypocrite. Also she's a minor so idk I feel like a lot of her actions can be let go vs if she was an adult. Hopefully she grows out of being a bitch. I get where you're coming from though.

 

[sleeplessboyinbed]

Thank you. I'm just tired of her bullshit, I wish she'd just leave me alone. If she truly didn't care about me, I don't even mind. As long as it's the type where she leaves me alone. I don't understand people who think not caring is constantly bothering and judging someone. Not caring is just leaving them alone. I told her this but she claims that's untrue and that judging doesn't mean someone cares. But why would you judge if you don't care? Wouldn't you just move on? Mind you her judging me today was over eating chips at 2am like it's not that deep fuck off

I'm not gonna agree with this for several reasons, she's still my sister after all and also if I agreed then I'd just be like her. I'd be a hypocrite. Also she's a minor so idk I feel like a lot of her actions can be let go vs if she was an adult. Hopefully she grows out of being a bitch. I get where you're coming from though.

That's a tough situation :⁠-⁠[. Maybe you could try like mental exercises (?) in moments when she's trying to hurt you. Like repeat in your head "she's just a stupid kid who doesn't have anything better to do than to bother me" or something like that.
I think kids need be held accountable for saying hurtful things. It's just basic human empathy, which everyone should know

 

[sohopelessandempty]

That's a tough situation :⁠-⁠[. Maybe you could try like mental exercises (?) in moments when she's trying to hurt you. Like repeat in your head "she's just a stupid kid who doesn't have anything better to do than to bother me" or something like that.
I think kids need be held accountable for saying hurtful things. It's just basic human empathy, which everyone should know

She's not like a little girl I feel like she's old enough to know better, she's two years younger than me and I wasn't such a bitch at her age