Can Music Hurt You...It Sure Did ME!

[fred farkle]

My first descent into suicidal hell was during the long,slow death of my mother. I was fucked up. My father had died of cancer previously. i didnt realize how badly I had been hurt.
Long (!) story short,as my mom was dying I became kind of obsessed with a girl at my shit job. I had these fantasies of her meeting my mom and me marrying the girl and us being happy. it was obv a reaction to my mothers fatal disease, obstructive pulmonary shit. It got all fucked up and made me crazy.
Music just seemed to bore into my mind and fuck with my emotions. one song in particular was by,yes,the cure, "just like heaven."
my brother had bought the cure album years before and i never gave a shit. i just sort of discovered it later,around 1995.
the song just seemed to sort of entrance me and well,remember Greek myhology, Orpheus could play the harp and charm the rocks!? Well these songs drove me the other way,eliciting such greif and misery.
Other cure songs were "pictures of you" and "letter to elise" . Something about the songs,the melody,the chords,something just sent me into darkness.
Goddamn roger smith!
Strangely,the cure song "high" struck me as beautiful and gave me happiness!!
There was an Irish trad song my mom liked,called "Carrickfergus". I had a version by Van Morrison. one night soon after she died, this song found me sitting in a parking lot literally crying my eyes out. thank god there was no one around.
Do not wish to bore you anymore so i will close. music can be powerful stuff. it drove me crazy.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

So yeah my Mum's DNA gave me the Doors, the Beatles, Bowie and the Clash. My Dad the Smiths, Oasis, the Libertines and the 1975.

Bastards, the pair of them.

 

[gus.nixon]

Have you heard the album "Pornography" by The Cure? It's my absolute favorite one by them. Earlier album but hauntingly beautiful.

 

[fred farkle]

yeah,"hauntingly." sometimes,thats not so good.

 

[gus.nixon]

I'm a music guy so you can trust me. also check out bands like Joy Division and Siouxsie and the Banshees

 

[motel rooms]

Profoundly sad songs help me feel less alone. As the guy in my avatar put it, "We're all together in this snake pit of souls." Also, as someone who finds it very difficult to cry, I like it when a song hurts me so much that tears start forming in my eyes. It's cathartic

 

[gus.nixon]

and you never bore anyone when it comes to music. It's one of the things that connects us. Here's my favorite Cure song ever:



It was never released properly on an album but it should have been. I still get shivers listening to it

 

[motel rooms]

and you never bore anyone when it comes to music. It's one of the things that connects us. Here's my favorite Cure song ever:

It's gorgeous. Thanks, Mr. Baudelaire! I believe you're one of R. Smith's favorite poets

 

[gus.nixon]

 

[Tree frog]

I hear you fred farkle. I think when your in an intense grief/bereavment moment things like music can be too intense to listen too for some people. It's almost like twisting the knife. I find with a bit of distance and time then music can be really helpful and healing. But maybe not in the immediate aftermath.
I love music and i play instruments etc it's a huge part of my life, but also very powerful and i really understand what your saying. I know others who are the same, it's not crazy my friend, just human. You are likely a sensitive soul.

 

[gus.nixon]

Here's a Siouxsie and the Banshees song you might enjoy:


Ok last one. This video is a real treat and the song is so rad too:

 

[Tree frog]

Cannibal Corpse just dropped this:

Ah the serenity :)

 

[gus.nixon]

hahaha