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Blue Ocean

Student
Jan 26, 2025
194
before I ctb, I want to get high so I get rid of the survival instinct
 
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SchrodingerIsDed

SchrodingerIsDed

Arcanist
Feb 17, 2025
415
before I ctb, I want to get high so I get rid of the survival instinct
Yes. Most certainly. 100%. 1,000% even. Probably the easiest thing to test for ever.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
674
Yeah, they can do the same blood and urine tests they do with living people. I'm not sure if they would always run drug tests, but it wouldn't surprise me if they do.

Why would it matter? Even if weed isn't legal where you are, they aren't going to charge a corpse with possession.

Are you experienced with weed? If you don't do it regularly it could amplify anxiety and SI by 10x.
 
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LeatherRectangle

LeatherRectangle

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May 13, 2023
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Yes. I wouldn't think too much about it, the people close you will be much more occupied by your death. If anything, it might give them a sense of comfort. They'll think that if not for the weed you'd still be alive and feel less guilty about missing the signs that you were suicidal.
 
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Blue Ocean

Student
Jan 26, 2025
194
Yes. Most certainly. 100%. 1,000% even. Probably the easiest thing to test

Yes. Most certainly. 100%. 1,000% even. Probably the easiest thing to test for ever.
Even edibles?
Yeah, they can do the same blood and urine tests they do with living people. I'm not sure if they would always run drug tests, but it wouldn't surprise me if they do.

Why would it matter? Even if weed isn't legal where you are, they aren't going to charge a corpse with possession.

Are you experienced with weed? If you don't do it regularly it could amplify anxiety and SI by 10x.
I am not experienced
 
astr4

astr4

memento mori
Mar 27, 2019
692
yes even edibles. and you will likely be anxious your first time getting high.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
910
Absolutely! They can even see what your last meal was. They will definitely run every test on you to figure out your cause of death.
One more thing to add. There is no such thing as a natural death, no matter what age you are. The coroner has the duty to say why you died. I'm not sure if everyone knows this but if you are found deceased in a home, that home becomes a crime scene immediately!
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
674
I've been a stoner for decades and weed can still make me anxious after taking a break from it. It can make you question every life decision you've ever made, and reexamine every word you said to anyone until you convince yourself you're a complete idiot and everybody knows it. That could be the worst possible state of mind if you're about to CTB.

After you've done it a few times the anxiety goes away and it's more calming instead. That's when it might be good for SI.

You should look for an indica or indica-hybrid strain for a calming effect. Sativa can be energizing and can increase anxiety, probably not what you want in this case.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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I remember the first time I smoked pot. I was in high school and I had been riding my dirtbike with some friends. We went back to his house after and were hanging out in his garage. One of the other guys pulled out a baggy of dope and rolled a joint. They started smoking it and passing it around. The guy passing it to me asked if I wanted to hit it. In a moment of intense peer pressure, I took the joint and hit it, and a couple other times after that. My friend's house wasn't anywhere near mine and I had to ride my dirtbike over to his house by riding on railroad tracks. Never having smoked pot before, I remember feeling really tense, anxious, and, well, freaking high, and on my ride back home, I repeatedly fell off my dirtbike onto the railroad tracks at least 5, maybe more, times. Actually, it was more like falling "over" repeatedly, like I couldn't keep my balance. When I got home, I remember going into the house, saying a couple words to my dad without actually looking at him, and going right to bed. Keep in mind this was in the 1980s and pot was very much illegal, especially for a minor. I quit smoking pot (and drinking too) in my mid-twenties, nearly 35 years ago, and haven't touched anything since.
 
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