Discussion Can anyone relate to having bipolar?

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I have recreated this thread to foster discussion for users who can relate to having bi-polar disorder.

This thread is not 'Hey we're bipolar, Ask us anything.'
This thread is a safe place for people who suffer from bi-polar disorder.

This thread is for people who can relate to having bipolar disorder. If you cannot relate to having bipolar disorder, please do not post in this thread.

I will be actively monitoring this thread.

Carry on.

 

[Nik]

Diagnosed bipolar. No medication as the side effects are generally horrendous. I've suffered a lot with police intervention in the past to the point that I'm now practically a recluse. Feeling like a goddess was great when I first erupted, now it scares the crap out of me.

 

[Sharethepain]

I feel like even the highs are a curse. It just shows us what life could be if we were normal, it shows us the colours, the happiness, and then snatches it away a hour later, throwing us into this pit of despair once again. There is never a middle ground, either we feel absolutely awful, or really good. I have become so numb to everything as a form of defense mechanism that I dont even know If I feel anything anymore. The only positive thing about this is the depth of our emotions, and our love.
Truly, no one loves so deeply as people with BPD. The special people to us are showered with so much affection that anyone would envy, but in the end, sometimes, even that is not enough to make them stay, because we carry more darkness than light in our fragmented minds. We are haunted daily with visions of the perfect world, one that we can never have, as we always fall back into the darkness once our brighter moments are gone.
And the longer it goes on, the less people will be there to pull us back up. It really is a curse, to us, and everyone around us. I really wish I could control my emotions, because only then I could be with my ex. Her absence is literally killing me every day, the depths of sadness we experience are the true expression of hell.

 

[Mfuardo]

I know exactly how you feel.

 

[Fucking loving it]

I feel like even the highs are a curse. It just shows us what life could be if we were normal, it shows us the colours, the happiness, and then snatches it away a hour later, throwing us into this pit of despair once again. There is never a middle ground, either we feel absolutely awful, or really good. I have become so numb to everything as a form of defense mechanism that I dont even know If I feel anything anymore. The only positive thing about this is the depth of our emotions, and our love.
Truly, no one loves so deeply as people with BPD. The special people to us are showered with so much affection that anyone would envy, but in the end, sometimes, even that is not enough to make them stay, because we carry more darkness than light in our fragmented minds. We are haunted daily with visions of the perfect world, one that we can never have, as we always fall back into the darkness once our brighter moments are gone.
And the longer it goes on, the less people will be there to pull us back up. It really is a curse, to us, and everyone around us. I really wish I could control my emotions, because only then I could be with my ex. Her absence is literally killing me every day, the depths of sadness we experience are the true expression of hell.

Fuck yeah. I know this well.

 

[Tyuiop]

I've been diagnosed bipolar and i have got my disability because of it. I'm currently on abilify and paroxetine, anyone else taken abilify? My doctor seems to think i have schizophrenia because of a psychotic episode i had. But i only had the episode once. I went off my meds for almost a year and i didn't have another episode. But sadly i never had any highs either, i'm just depressed all the time, sometimes more, sometimes less.

 

[jlshghr]

I have bipolar type 2 so I'm not fully manic but hypomanic. I love being hypomanic - I'm more creative, happier, and overall on top of the world. However, it always ends in a horribly bad depressive episode. Therefore, it sometimes feels like a curse too. I try to enjoy the good phases though instead of hating them. If anyone has any questions about the disorder, please ask me!
I take Seroquel, Abilify, and Aurorix.