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Forum is back up on your anniversary. I'm now going to try to sleep even though I can't. The cats want breakfast and I'm up.
 
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Still trying. ;)
Night 10 insomnia. We are past the point of being exhausted which is a good thing.

2 month anniversary eve of your CTB. We haven't forgot, and we are getting ready for your party tomorrow. I bought popcorn!
Wish you have a nice party! :heart:
 
CyanideSoup

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Good morning Stan, I hope you're enjoying yourself. I need to pull myself out of bed and make a cheesecake for your party today but I'm sick, so if you could give me a kick that would be great. We all miss you and are thinking of you today :)
 
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I'll raise a glass here to absent friends. Cheers.
 
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Day 11 no sleep. Had to call the doctor, because my oxygen dropped, pain and lightheaded and dizziness.

Nothing can be done. More of a complaining. It would be so easy to CTB. So very easy. Instead I called the doctor.

You told me it isn't my time and ordered me not to follow you. I always listened to you. Not stopping now.

Odd this happened on your 2 month anniversary. I really don't need to be tested. I don't like the pain.

I miss you. Trying the best I can without you... but nobody is you. Nobody will ever be you.... but I am trying.

Look after @MysticPerception and Azzy who should be in the hospital and send them on back when they are ready.

@Raven Moon @Carina @Morphinekiss @L0ne1ygh0st @Quarky00 @Brick In The Wall @BlueWidow could use some of your strength right now too. :heart:
 
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Day 11 no sleep. Had to call the doctor, because my oxygen dropped, pain and lightheaded and dizziness.

Nothing can be done. More of a complaining. It would be so easy to CTB. So very easy. Instead I called the doctor.

You told me it isn't my time and ordered me not to follow you. I always listened to you. Not stopping now.

Odd this happened on your 2 month anniversary. I really don't need to be tested. I don't like the pain.

I miss you. Trying the best I can without you... but nobody is you. Nobody will ever be you.... but I am trying.

Look after @MysticPerception and Azzy who should be in the hospital and send them on back when they are ready.

@Raven Moon @Carina @Morphinekiss @L0ne1ygh0st @Quarky00 @Brick In The Wall @BlueWidow could use some of your strength right now too. :heart:
I'm sorry you're in rough shape today Jean. I saw your post about your doctor. You have a very cool and understanding doctor! Definitely try to hang onto him as that's rare.
 
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Jean4

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I'm sorry you're in rough shape today Jean. I saw your post about your doctor. You have a very cool and understanding doctor! Definitely try to hang onto him as that's rare.
Stan's keeping an eye on you. I know you are going through a rough patch. :wink:
 
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Jean4

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I was ok. It's starting to hurt now.
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For what it's worth, Stan will always be the pioneer when it comes to the SN method. He has a big heart to even want to deal with some of the frustrating questions that other users pose his way. I made an account after Stan has left but doesn't mean I don't see his impact, because I do.
 
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Just trying to keep you close to the top of the page today. :heart:
 
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Jean4

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7:30 pm two months ago. I was still in shock. Knowing you were gone, but having a small sliver of hope.

I remember sitting by my computer. It was the time you always called. Nothing. Honestly. At 7:45 I called you. Knowing you wouldn't answer.... but that small sliver of hope.

Two months later. That small sliver of hope remains. It's the only way I keep going like you wanted me to.

I also continue to call you... at 7:30.
 
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I can bump you & get 1 more post closer to 2,000 and Pink! Thanks Stan & watch out for the Red Baron!
 
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It's your boy Milo :heart:
 
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This is all to heartbreaking. Jean4 i doubt we have ever talked before. I would just like to wish you peace, sleep and happiness. You are already very aware of what life brings us, so i will not bore you with those things.

p.s. I suck at public speaking so pardon my short ramblings
 
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Well... it's midnight on the east coast now... so 2/9/2020....
 
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I hope @Jean4 is finally able to sleep. :heart:
 
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Jean4

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I just had a work related death. I'm not quite sure how I am feeling about it honestly. I can say, death's from here mean more to me.

I am still trying to find out how he died. My guess is either suicide or heart attack due to his age.

I guess it came out of nowhere and I am still in shock.

Now, I have to go take care of everyone and everything. Time to put on my mask.
 
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I just had a work related death. I'm not quite sure how I am feeling about it honestly. I can say, death's from here mean more to me.

I am still trying to find out how he died. My guess is either suicide or heart attack due to his age.

I guess it came out of nowhere and I am still in shock.

Now, I have to go take care of everyone and everything. Time to put on my mask.
You get closer to people here than people at work--instant openness. Kind of unique in a way.

Month keeps on ticking away.
 
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Jean4

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Thank you for the half hour sleep. I am thankful. But it bounced me into a depression. So can you bounce me the other way or take some of the depressing thoughts out of my head?
 
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one4all

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Feb 3, 2020
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Thank you for the half hour sleep. I am thankful. But it bounced me into a depression. So can you bounce me the other way or take some of the depressing thoughts out of my head?
What types of music do you like?
 
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