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S u i c i d e

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Jun 20, 2023
66
I'm going to kill myself on July 10th.
Actually, I wanted to wait until September 9th but it can't wait any longer I have to do this.
I just don't want to feel anything or be hurt.
Today I lost a very important person in my life so I'm leaving.
On Monday, I'm going to take 500 sleeping pills and cut the veins in both arms with a razor blade.
I have chosen these methods for myself and no one can stop me from doing so.
I'm sorry.
 
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wristcutangel

wristcutangel

What value is there to a life that wants to end?
Jul 5, 2023
167
cutting is unreliable and unnecessarily painful, i can't change your mind but please do avoid being reckless. especially if you just lost someone only today, you may be more impulsive.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,245
I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. Impulsive decisions are never a good idea to CTB. Your chosen method is not only very painful it also has a low success rate but anyway it's up to you. I hope you can find peace!
 
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Sweet Tart

Sweet Tart

Mage
May 10, 2023
526
I'm sorry you are in so much pain and that you lost someone important to you. You are welcome to vent if you need to.
 
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deomlez

Not english native speaker. Ctb is my life.
May 19, 2023
339
Enjoy these 2 days left as you may feel light now your decision is taken. Have a good trip.
 
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azo

azo

Wizard
Jun 20, 2023
665
Please look for a better method. You don't deserve for your last moments to be filled with pain, and cutting has a low success rate. I don't know what sleeping pills you've got but I imagine they're possibly not strong enough for this, especially if they're OTC. But I wish you peace, OP, and like others have said, you're welcome to vent here.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,250
That method doesn't really sound reliable to me but of course it's up to the individual deciding what to attempt, I wish you the best and I hope you eventually find the freedom you search for from all the suffering, existence is just too cruel.
 
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Crono

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Jun 1, 2023
314
Cutting doesn't work, a person can even have their entire arm cut off with a machete and have a good chance of surviving.
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
365
i wish you freedom from all pain no matter the size.
 
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Victim.Of.Life

My bus is waiting
Jun 27, 2023
51
Im a dumbass when it comes to ODing on pills.
But how much pills can someone possibly swallow without vomiting?
500 Sounds like a lot.

Anyway, I wish you the best. Whatever path you choose to take, I hope you succeed.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Best wishes for your best result.
 
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MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
I hope you find peace
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,510
I agree with the others that your method is not the best way by any means, as ODing and cutting are by no means a sure thing. But I respect the decision you've made for yourself, and hope all goes as planned for you. I wish for you the peace you deserve.
 
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Stormy Raine

Stormy Raine

Quietly counting down the days, hours, minutes..
Apr 7, 2023
372
This post bring me to tears and I personally understand how it feels when life brings you to this point! I won't tell you don't do it, but I am here for you until you decide to transition. These last days should be your best days as you will be leaving soon. Please feel free to share whatever you want with us, we all are here and empathize with you. Your method is your method, either it will work or it won't, who knows? Whatever you decide I truly wish you the best my friend!
 
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Elle

Elle

Specialist
Jul 9, 2023
339
Are you still here, ml?
 
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Eternal🌈Rainbow

Eternal🌈Rainbow

♡ ✨ ♡ 🌸 ♡ 💖 ♡ 🌈 ♡
Apr 2, 2022
240
I'm so sorry. I hope wherever you are, you're in peace and free from all pain 🤍 :heart::heart::heart:
 
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Jule_from_Germany

Jule_from_Germany

Soon, my soul will fly away. I love you all
Jun 8, 2023
225
Are you still with us? We wrote for a while but I haven't heard from you again
 
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S u i c i d e

Member
Jun 20, 2023
66
I'm still here but only until August or September.
 
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deomlez

Not english native speaker. Ctb is my life.
May 19, 2023
339
We are here to help you cope with this additionnal time.
 
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TheDyingSolarSystem

TheDyingSolarSystem

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Jul 11, 2023
15
I'm going to kill myself on July 10th.
Actually, I wanted to wait until September 9th but it can't wait any longer I have to do this.
I just don't want to feel anything or be hurt.
Today I lost a very important person in my life so I'm leaving.
On Monday, I'm going to take 500 sleeping pills and cut the veins in both arms with a razor blade.
I have chosen these methods for myself and no one can stop me from doing so.
I'm sorry.
I wish you a safe and peaceful transition to the afterlife, I hope it went well.
 
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