bye everyone

[hikikomori]

thanks u guys 4 everything

edit I am a failure

 

[Empty RN]

Hope wherever you're going you find relief

 

[jaemus12]

May I ask if you're taking a break from SS or ctb?

Whichever path you choose, good luck and goodbye. Although short, I had lots of fun playing Cards Agaisnt Humanity with you. We may not have talked a lot but I've seen you around. You're a gem.

Good luck and fare thee well hikikomori

 

[Miss clefable]

Hugs lil sis I love you

 

[Retched]

Hope you find your peace.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Peace to you *hugs you warmly though a bit sadly* <3

 

[hikikomori]

sorey everyone for being a dram queen thanks for the wishes but I Just woke up fucking alive. yet again I'm a proven to be a looser I'm going to go on a break for a bit sorry for being alive

 

[Maravillosa]

Oh @hikikomori <<<hugs>>> it is not your fault

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

sorey everyone for being a dram queen thanks for the wishes but I Just woke up fucking alive. yet again I'm a proven to be a looser I'm going to go on a break for a bit sorry for being alive

Oh no quite the contrary, though I'm not supposed to say, I know, I'm glad you're still with us, but at the same time, i don't even have the courage to attempt ctb so you're much braver than me <3

 

[worldexploder]

sorey everyone for being a dram queen thanks for the wishes but I Just woke up fucking alive. yet again I'm a proven to be a looser I'm going to go on a break for a bit sorry for being alive

I'm sorry. What method did u try if you don't mind me Asking? And your not a looser.

 

[tevati]

How long are hiki?

 

[Pineapplecrown]

Love u

 

[TiredHorse]

sorey everyone for being a dram queen thanks for the wishes but I Just woke up fucking alive. yet again I'm a proven to be a looser I'm going to go on a break for a bit sorry for being alive

You're not a loser, Hikikomori. This isn't easy. If it were, there wouldn't be enough of us left to have this forum.

Be kind to yourself, if you possibly can. Missing the bus is brutal, but there will be other busses coming, and in the meantime, there's good conversation here at the bus stop.

 

[Roph]

You're not a loser. Suicide can be difficult.

 

[TAW122]

Sorry to hear about that and I hope you are able to catch the future bus down the road. Whatever you choose later on, I wish you peace.

 

[Lra888]

Always good seeing you on here. I'm sorry things didn't work out as you wanted.

I hope you find peace whether by ctb or by having your pain go away significantly in this life.

 

[Trashcan]

Godspeed

 

[hikikomori]

thanks for all the well wishes you guys love you too @Miss clefable <3
I guess I should explain what what happened, I don't want to take up a new thread Cuz thatll make me more of a drama queen.
basically I was feeling really low (and still not sad... fuck) I was going to take a break from here for a bitt. then something I read triggered me (whiney lil baby ammiright) and I was just done i couldn't stand being alone
so I found an old disposable razer in the trash took out one of the blades with a pair of pliers made a warm bath got in and slit my wrist sadly used razer blades aren't the best for deep cuts. I think I got in less than 2 mm suffice it to say no veins were nicked so no lasting dammage. any way the bath wa warm and I was sleepy so I ether passed out or fell asleep. I woke up and saw I had stopped bleeding. and just couldn't be here for a while so I went on my break but I miss the box nd stuff so. I'm back i guess

 

[Miss clefable]

thanks for all the well wishes you guys love you too @Miss clefable <3
I guess I should explain what what happened, I don't want to take up a new thread Cuz thatll make me more of a drama queen.
basically I was feeling really low (and still not sad... fuck) I was going to take a break from here for a bitt. then something I read triggered me (whiney lil baby ammiright) and I was just done i couldn't stand being alone
so I found an old disposable razer in the trash took out one of the blades with a pair of pliers made a warm bath got in and slit my wrist sadly used razer blades aren't the best for deep cuts. I think I got in less than 2 mm suffice it to say no veins were nicked so no lasting dammage. any way the bath wa warm and I was sleepy so I ether passed out or fell asleep. I woke up and saw I had stopped bleeding. and just couldn't be here for a while so I went on my break but I miss the box nd stuff so. I'm back i guess

Love you <3

 

[TiredHorse]

My first attempt at ctb, when I was 15, was very similar to yours: didn't cut deep enough. I can still remember sitting in the nice warm shower watching my blood spiralling down the drain, thinking, "fuck. This hurts, but it doesn't seem to be doing anything."

Don't beat yourself up, Hikikomori. You're not a drama queen, nor a whiny baby. You're in the same pain all of us here know all too well, with just the same survival instincts that make it so damned difficult to ctb. Take a deep breath, and try to be kind to yourself.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Yeah, cutting wrists suck. Don't feel bad about it, we all understand. At least there was no damage, and you weren't found out. That's all that matters.

 

[Empty Smile]

Don't be so hard on yourself. You aren't the first, and you won't be the last to fail at the suicide game. This is the hardest game to win. With life, you're just struggling to get to the finish line.

 

[jolongone]

Oh no quite the contrary, though I'm not supposed to say, I know, I'm glad you're still with us, but at the same time, i don't even have the courage to attempt ctb so you're much braver than me <3

I will never understand when people say suicide is a cowards way out yet it takes a very brave person to do it