Buying times

[rachybee]

I managed to work out with clues the site to get SN. I'm so happy about this btw.

However - it m unsure when to buy? I have this as my method as what I want to use due to failed attempts - this is my out and I 100% want this. However my timescale isn't this week.

I'm conscious that these places are being shut down and I'd hate to miss out on this because I didn't need it immediately (within the next month tho). So do I get it like now incase they're shut down or do I wait when I can also afford it more and risk it being closed.

Again I want to ctb. I'm tired. My life I hate and it is over. There are just loose ends to tie up and also the money side of things - I want to leave my family cash behind to pay for my funeral.

I'm just really scared that if I wait I will miss my chance. And I can't source it anywhere else (previous attempt to buy ended up police at my home).

I'm just wondering what would someone else in my situation do. I'm not asking for a 'would you kill yourself in x time etc' I'm just curious with regards to the risk of somewhere being shut down but not In total financial situation to buy

 

[Forever Sleep]

Personally, I bought SN from IC a couple of years ago. Mainly because it was obvious that more and more attention was around SN in the UK and I predicted that it would become harder to get.

I guess there's various concerns. It has an expiry date. People seem to think it would still be ok after this- if stored correctly though. Also, I guess you have to consider whether you are an impulsive person and whether you might be tempted to take it impulsively. Both- whether the idea of committing impulsively troubles you or whether you might just use it suddenly impulsively. A few members seem to have done that and it sometimes fails when a proper protocol isn't followed.

I'm not aware of welfare checks related to current suppliers. I'm not sure I'd even considered the possibility of a welfare check when I bought mine but, several months later, it was becoming obvious I would likely get one (and I did.) Not such a massive issue because I live alone but, I suppose it is a possibility. At any point really. Mine came months later. So, not trying to frighten you but, I think it's best to consider everything.

I personally feel relieved to at least have something available if things become too much.