buying my sn today or tomorrow . waiting for it to arrive on the 23rd (EDIT: BOUGHT!!!)

[bluegodism]

no survival instinct. no fear. just a little anxiety and a great calm.

probably my next post will be my goodbye thread. i'll tell you a little about how i plan to do this:

8 hour food fast, probably the same amount of hours for water since i drink very little water on a daily basis. take metoclopramide 30 minutes before sn. no benzos, no painkillers. personal reasons.

i'm going to take it in an area of my house where there is a place with a tap to vomit and clean if it happens. i'll wait there for 5 minutes. if i vomit somewhere else my family will probably wake up and it will be a failed attempt. i'm going to lie down on the bed (i'm going to sleep in a separate room from my grandmother with the excuse that my mattress is bads since today), put my playlist with just 2 songs (past lives and somewhere only we know) and sleep forever.

i really hope it works!

 

[logi3535]

hope it works too! best of luck in all of your attempts, in life or in death
that does sound quite relaxing though, listening to two favorite songs and just peacefully slipping into death, not caring about what tomorrow brings, i hope it all works out for you in the end, i look forward to your goodbye thread!

 

[bluegodism]

hope it works too! best of luck in all of your attempts, in life or in death
that does sound quite relaxing though, listening to two favorite songs and just peacefully slipping into death, not caring about what tomorrow brings, i hope it all works out for you in the end, i look forward to your goodbye thread!

it must be really good, i'm looking forward to my goodbye thread too

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck in your plans, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[straydog]

Please try to test before attempting, both for your own safety and as a reference for anyone who may order from the same source in the future. Wishing you all the best!

 

[fire12362]

I recommend renting a hotel or motel for a night to stay in. It's not worth it if you get caught... Also someone might happen to wake up and look for you and end up taking you to the hospital.