Buying firearm tmrw. ctbing in the rain on a building ledge.

[Dragonetti]

It's a weird but blissful thought. The idea of sitting in the rain with the city in the background. Wireless headphones on listening to Rachmaninovs piano concerto 2 one final time. Gun pointed inside my mouth towards the stem. The moment the final chord played I let the trigger fly. If the bullet doesn't do the job at least the shot plus the fall from the ledge would be more than enough damage before any medical aid could respond in such bad weather situations late at night.

It brings me such calmness imagining it even through my crippling anxiety and pain.

 

[SamK]

Hugs Dragonetti I don't know what to say but , we are here for you. Non judgemental. All in the same boat. I'm sorry it's gotten to this point.

 

[Sayo]

Thank you for sharing -- it is a lovely thing to imagine, the rain and the city below. I've never heard the music you mentioned, but I'll give it a listen. I hope you find continued relief either way. <3

 

[Dragonetti]

Thank you for sharing -- it is a lovely thing to imagine, the rain and the city below. I've never heard the music you mentioned, but I'll give it a listen. I hope you find continued relief either way. <3

Rachmaninov piano concerto no.2

The utmost beautiful piece of music ever. I really hope you enjoy it.

 

[Sayo]

Rachmaninov piano concerto no.2

The utmost beautiful piece of music ever. I really hope you enjoy it.

Just finished listening to it, I think it's a very good choice (even not knowing what it means specifically to you). I hope you hear every chord so fully tomorrow.

It's got such incredible emotional range, uses both quietness and loudness so powerfully. Listening to it made me feel full for a while.

 

[Slacker]

Hopeless romantic...