abruptum
Lost
- Jan 10, 2021
- 167
i can't help but enjoy the feeling of being burnt, the pain in the moment the numbing of the skin the sharp needle feeling that goes through that burnt skin for the next while and then the underlying dull pain that stays after
i know i shouldn't be doing it rationally but it's a good punishment to teach myself i need to act better and get my shit together
i'm here on a world that doesn't have anything to offer or benefit me and nothing ever works out at all
i'm just not meant to be here and there's more evidence that shows me that than keeps me staying and yet i haven't been able to ctb
maybe burning myself i can teach myself a lesson, it tells me i have to do something productive here to please others, or off myself and get the pleasantries over with
i know i shouldn't be doing it rationally but it's a good punishment to teach myself i need to act better and get my shit together
i'm here on a world that doesn't have anything to offer or benefit me and nothing ever works out at all
i'm just not meant to be here and there's more evidence that shows me that than keeps me staying and yet i haven't been able to ctb
maybe burning myself i can teach myself a lesson, it tells me i have to do something productive here to please others, or off myself and get the pleasantries over with