Help Building an exit plan

[SufferingDev]

Life is going really hard and I feel like it is going to collapse soon - it is not 100% sure but if...

...I do not want to deal with this anymore, I know I will probably get over this but I do not want to - I want to have an exit plan just in case.

What I mean by exit plan is not really about the CTB method - I would probably choose the SN to do it - but I am more concerned about my SI - I am afraid to die even though I want to. Once I decide I need to take this path I need to make myself really not see any solution.

I need to loose my job, friends, money, property - I need to somehow get myself into a really bad situation without an exit - I even think of doing a crime (idk what would it be), so I could be sentenced that way I would guard down my SI and end myself. I just need to do it fast, I know one day would not be enough but waiting months for that is also not an option.

 

[BlissfulEnigma]

hey bud, you should do whatever you feel is right deep down. Commiting a crime is just delaying that process, but of course it's your choice ultimately. Have a great rest of your day.

 

[SufferingDev]

I mean - I am not a person who would like to hurt anyone, rather the opposite - but if I get sentenced for example idk 5 years in prison - I will have no "exit options" - I can CTB right after the court case - it cannot be to severe tho because I need to be able to "get to prison on my own" (of course I would CTB right away)

 

[InevitableDeath]

Naw man, never let them see it coming. Too obvs. You gotta be all as normal and then BANG!! RIGHT IN THE KISSER!!

Obviously none of the above is encouraging anyone to have their own mind and bodily autonomy and yada yada yada

 

[SufferingDev]

Naw man, never let them see it coming. Too obvs. You gotta be all as normal and then BANG!! RIGHT IN THE KISSER!!

Obviously none of the above is encouraging anyone to have their own mind and bodily autonomy and yada yada yada

Yea I do know that many people do recommend this but I know I will not be able to CTB if I have anything left.

Job and money should be easy however I do not know how can I loose friends - not much of them but I have to play it like they really will hate me and they will not suspect I am doing it to CTB

 

[InevitableDeath]

Easy to lose friends. Just tell them your depressed - you'll get free drinks for a week or so. But then.... KEEP TELLING THEM YOU'RE DEPRESSED. Then they'll all fuck you off within a month.

You do leave yourself open to them snitching on you then though, to salve their guilt at being careless pieces of shit

I may be projecting here. You do you.

 

[SufferingDev]

Easy to lose friends. Just tell them your depressed - you'll get free drinks for a week or so. But then.... KEEP TELLING THEM YOU'RE DEPRESSED. Then they'll all fuck you off within a month.

You do leave yourself open to them snitching on you then though, to salve their guilt at being careless pieces of shit

I may be projecting here. You do you.

It may not be that easy - I want to loose my friends so they don't care about me - because they do care now, a lot - they know I am depressed - that's the problem - I need to make them hate me but without them realising why I am doing it - because if they find out, they will surely keep helping me.