Bucketlist?

[poisonedminds]

My mom told me to write and complete a bucketlist before ctb. Anyone want to share their bucketlist? I'm curious

here's mine so far:

- go on a last good hike or camping trip
- get a tattoo of my bunny, drawn by my mom
- smoke dmt with my mom
- write ACAB on a cop car in red spray paint

 

[S like Siren]

I don't have a bucketlist,i just would llike to die right now!!!But i think i'd like to eat a slice of pizza with wrustels and chips and a sacher cake befor ctb...your bunny is so cute:-)

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I actually made a bucket list around 9 years ago and I think I've completed most things on it already though.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

I would love to see suicide and psychedelics be socially acceptable before I die, but that's just a pipedream.

 

[DarkNearDeath]

your mom is in on it for your planned ctb?

 

[poisonedminds]

your mom is in on it for your planned ctb?

Yes. I'd rather her know beforehand and get used to the thought of losing me. I'd never tell her specifics (dates or whatever) as to not get her in trouble after i cbt, but at least she knows it's a very real option for me. She tries very hard to convince me not to do it, but ultimately, she seems to understand that she can't keep me from cbt if that's really what I want. Shes an amazing person.

 

[BlankUser]

I don't really have a bucketlist, but one thing I'd like to do is to get back in shape and fit in my old clothes. I need to drop 2 sizes. I'm working on it, but it's hard.

 

[WornOutLife]

-Be fit again
-Master my japanese
-Visit Japan
-Maybe love again
-Have some crazy rave nights once this goddamn pandemic is over
-Buy the PS5 and enjoy some new videogames

And that's it, I think.

 

[FuneralCry]

Am I the only one who doesn't really have the energy or interest in life so a bucket list isn't really a thing? I guess depression/anhedonia have taken over, and if I had so many things I wanted to do, maybe I wouldn't want to leave life.
However at a push: maybe just do some small things like spend time around cows (I do really love cows) and maybe visit some cemeteries I guess.

 

[RedHarlequin]

Deep brain stimulation, I'm not even doing it for myself but for my mom and partner. Other than that I don't really have energy for anything else.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

none of this will happen but..
1. see sister act on broadway
2. go to a rave (not my scene but it would be fun to experience once)
3. try fried ice cream
4. see blondie in concert

 

[ArawenSilvenstar]

Such a short time to accomplish these but..
1. Watch Monty Python and the Quest for the Holy Grail
2. Confess my love to my roommate
3.Go on a hike
4.Make one last piece of art

 

[hahabye]

Am I the only one who doesn't really have the energy or interest in life so a bucket list isn't really a thing? I guess depression/anhedonia have taken over, and if I had so many things I wanted to do, maybe I wouldn't want to leave life.
However at a push: maybe just do some small things like spend time around cows (I do really love cows) and maybe visit some cemeteries I guess.

You're not alone... 1.5 years ago, when started planning my suicide, I did have a bucket list. Now, looking back, I see that it was because I was not ready to go yet.

Now I don't have the energy or will to do much of anything anymore. And I feel ready.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I don't have time or money to finish what I would like to do before CTB however this is on my list:

1. Disneyland/Get pictures with Marvel characters
2. Visit New York one last time/get my favorite pizza
3. Get a all red ink back tattoo of carnations(fav flower)
4. Cut my hair shoulder length
5. See my ex(not really bucketlisty but still)
6. Renovate a van into a cool lil home and travel the states

 

[a.h]

Am I the only one who doesn't really have the energy or interest in life so a bucket list isn't really a thing? I guess depression/anhedonia have taken over, and if I had so many things I wanted to do, maybe I wouldn't want to leave life.
However at a push: maybe just do some small things like spend time around cows (I do really love cows) and maybe visit some cemeteries I guess.

My list is just to clean the house and storage little bit (I lowered my expectations) and empty devices and dumb them. I try my best to find strength to do them.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

1, Acquire a brand new TV (42-45in)
2,Put on more upper body muscle.
3, Stop smoking.
4,Drive up north and see the farm l grew up in once more.
5,Find someone willing to take on the responsibility for scattering my ashes with the ashes of my 2 dog's at the same location!

 

[lanax09]

I have a few things I'd love to do like try drugs, commit a fairly serious crime, go to macedonia (where my mum is from) one more time, and certain coding feats, but I just don't have the time before I ctb, so I live out my last days eating mcdonalds, listening to music, playing minecraft and going on SS

 

[ArawenSilvenstar]

I have a few things I'd love to do like try drugs, commit a fairly serious crime, go to macedonia (where my mum is from) one more time, and certain coding feats, but I just don't have the time before I ctb, so I live out my last days eating mcdonalds, listening to music, playing minecraft and going on SS

If you are gonna try drugs, I IV Meth and mix in some heroin cause itll be a little overwhelming your first time. But if imma go out may as well go out with a massive rush. Just cant stay alive after that cause addiction is a bitch. Its the best feeling in the world.

 

[Rockman]

I dont think i complete the list but:
- got a tattoo
- buy a good cowboy hat
- buy a chopper motor
- take as much drugs as i can
Ideal way to ctb if it was certain death it could be high speed ride on motor with tattoo & hat on high from strong psychedelics :)

 

[PDAnnie2610]

bucket list mostly achieved. Those that ain't are probably not doable.

 

[ClownMe]

Probably just to have sex, I cant really think of anything else I havent experienced that I really want to do.

 

[aWishNotTrue]

Fuck living, gonna die and nothing ain't gonna stop me! (Personally I find:) the bucket list is just a method of procrastination and if I'm going to end my life, I can't let anything block my mental