brain fog vent

[qwert3948]

i believe i'm just going through brainfog, but i haven't really felt like myself in a few months.
i went through a month that was extremely stressing n got close to cbt, but then one day i just woke up and i was numb. i don't really know if this was truly an emotional response to protect myself from stress, or it was due to my physical habits (result of eating habits, exercise, i was taking lithium randomly sometimes, etc) or just a random shit that happens (i know a lot of people w brainfog just happened randomly, tho i'm not even 100% sure it is brainfog)

at first i was fine with it, i just felt chill and was able to care less about the emotional stress. i thought of it as if i had gotten a lobotomy in my sleep, i was sorta braindead. at this first i was just taking life as if i was 'bored'

after some time i realize i had extreme difficulty studying because i literally felt like i had a fog in my head, i can't feel energetic or excited about things at all - i started dropping all the hobbies i had because of this (i was extremely obssesed with those beforehand), as well as i couldn't stick back to them even if i tried.
it's like when you're so sleepy you can't think straight anymore, but i'm not sleepy or tired, it's how i normally am 24/7 now
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i've tried literally inducing anxiety so I could at least feel some sort of adrenaline in me, but i'm just really dead inside.

i'm near becoming desperate, i need to keep life going but i feel so fucking dead inside i can't do shit anymore.
at first it was nice because i became protected from my problems, but now it's literally the problem - struggle with school makes me really fucking desperate and i'm becoming suicidal again

this is probably the dumbest shit ever considering everyone on the forum, but yeah.

 

[donttrip_taterchip]

It's not dumb, i think the fact you WANT to feel something says a lot about you. Idk what your previous hobbies were. But if you're looking for adrenaline, maybe take up extreme mountain biking. Or go rock climbing. It's so much easier said than done, cause when you're numb nothing you do is for pleasure. It's all just one long, monotonous never ending nightmare. But keep writing on here or in a journal. I find that writing can sometimes lead me to an explanation of the feeling i can't explain.
I'm sorry you're going through this. I know it's hard

 

[qwert3948]

It's not dumb, i think the fact you WANT to feel something says a lot about you. Idk what your previous hobbies were. But if you're looking for adrenaline, maybe take up extreme mountain biking. Or go rock climbing. It's so much easier said than done, cause when you're numb nothing you do is for pleasure. It's all just one long, monotonous never ending nightmare. But keep writing on here or in a journal. I find that writing can sometimes lead me to an explanation of the feeling i can't explain.
I'm sorry you're going through this. I know it's hard

sadly i don't have access to those sort of sports right now, but i'm still looking into how i can force adrenaline into myself in a slightly less shitty form than inducing anxiety. ty for the support :)

 

[skylarwhiteyo104781]

it's like when you're so sleepy you can't think straight anymore, but i'm not sleepy or tired, it's how i normally am 24/7 now
.

felt this. think i have chronic fatigue or something because i've messed up my sleep schedule so bad and i get either 2 hours of sleep or 14.

sadly i don't have access to those sort of sports right now, but i'm still looking into how i can force adrenaline into myself in a slightly less shitty form than inducing anxiety. ty for the support :)

try working out if that's something you're down to do. watch a movie or listen to good music while you do and get your heart pumping.

cold showers for 15+ seconds get your blood pumping like crazy. search up gary breaks and he lists a lot of the benefits.

something that has been helping me if shifting my diet to a lot of whole foods rather than processed stuff - just naturally makes you feel a lot more refreshed and energized.

lots of water obviously, and caffeine in moderation if you want.

in general, try to stay on your feet and not sitting down because your brain isn't working at its full potential when your lying down. even if it's just going on walks or something simple try to get out of the house and spend time with yourself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings certainly are valid and it must be hard to deal with going through that, it sounds awful. But anyway I wish you the best, there certainly is too much suffering in existing.