hungryhamster
Member
- Oct 16, 2024
- 9
navigating having suicidal thoughts and urges while having bpd is so difficult and confusing. one minute ill feel like its the end for me and get close to attempting or self harming in some way, and then a few minutes later feel completely fine.
sometimes it makes me feel like a fraud like im not actually suicidal, and the rapid move swings can be pretty jarring.
af the moment i feel pretty neutral and numb but a couple minutes ago i felt like taking action (not in ctb way) and getting back at people who had hurt me, now i can't even believe i was thinking of doing said things.
anyone else on this site also have bpd and have similar experiences? or even completely different ones; i just find comfort in knowing im possibly not alone in this.
sometimes it makes me feel like a fraud like im not actually suicidal, and the rapid move swings can be pretty jarring.
af the moment i feel pretty neutral and numb but a couple minutes ago i felt like taking action (not in ctb way) and getting back at people who had hurt me, now i can't even believe i was thinking of doing said things.
anyone else on this site also have bpd and have similar experiences? or even completely different ones; i just find comfort in knowing im possibly not alone in this.