Border here! Feeling grateful for the creation of this thread even if the first intend was to include only bipolar disorder. Thank you for the inclusion ('til a borderpd megathread is created hah). I know bipolar and borderline are not the same thing, but I think we can relate a lot in some aspects. I'm willing to meet some people who deal with the same struggles i do, to feel more understood, idk... Anyways... (gonna start talking a bit abt myself bc it seems I never get tired of doing this, but I do get tired of listenning myself doing it lmao) I was diagnosed when I was 16-17... after multiple suicide attempts in a roll...It was the worst times of my life, during my final year of highschool (so far... I'm only 21). But since then, I've been going to therapy and seeing a psychiatrist who started my medication. First of all, they put me on topiramate, as a mood stabilizer, cuz I've always been super impulsive and had drinking problems, etc. AND had problems controlling my anger (still do tbh)... I've been through some ups and plenty of downs, and changing and adapting my meds till get to a combination that could make me function like an ok human being. This only happened recently. After 4 years of struggling and FUVCK im not even close to be good or cured or not thinking abt suicide everyday but hell yea I can say very proudly that thanks to my priviledge of access to a great psychologist and great doctors, now I stopped drinking (sometimes I do have some relapses but Im able to get over'em and try again the next morning), avoid doing drugs and sometimes, feel glad I'm alive (or laugh at my misery instead of just falling apart like I used to)...
I do it, of course at the cost of taking 200mg , 200mg lamotrigine, 300mg bupoprione and 15mg paroxetine a day... but i dont feel drugged... i feel fine
I guess I shared all that stuff not just bc Im an oversharer and kinda egocentrist but also bc I want to say: there may be hope. If you have some access to a treatment, just try it, go with it... it might take long... but eventually, it can work.
things may not get perfect... but they can stop being as bad as they are