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[EternalShore]

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I hope all 3 of you can get "untrapped"! ^_^ Teehee~ It's kinda silly how we're all having connections in the counting game! :3
I don't really feel "trapped" myself~ Unless you mean that I am unable to exit the world in which case, yes, I do feel trapped~ :( Altho, I'd rather things get better, but when's the last time that happened? >_< last Christmas I guess but other than that! rofl~

388 - awe, that's comforting in a sad way, trapped buddies.

And @EternalShore Oh yea sure I can try to talk about it, next number xD

oki! ^_^ xD

 

[Namelesa]

386 <3

 

[GlassMoon]

388 387 (sorry page flip got me again) Cool new profile pic, @darkest !

 

[Namelesa]

386

 

[darkest]

387 - a maze thag loops while at it bro, to me it's a cycle, just looks different from time to time.
I look back at older messages and older yk stuff and it's always been the same but more drastic the older I am, same bullshit, people never change and I never learn, I trust way too deep and get fucked over time and time again and it's not like anything really changes, just the scenario is different, bigger, a more coherent act, a ridiculous script and yet I fail to understand that it doesn't get any better; the "better" it gets, the worse it gets.

 

[Namelesa]

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[GlassMoon]

@Namelesa simply looks over our mistakes and continues playing the game with the right numbers :-) 387

 

[darkest]

388 - woops, went on a big rant there, mb.
Also yea I changed the profile picture! Took me a bit to figure that one out xD

 

[EternalShore]

386 It happened once where there were a bunch of people who put the same number, but she knew which gender we were, so we could continue like that in spite of it! xD

 

[Namelesa]

390 - a maze thag loops while at it bro, to me it's a cycle, just looks different from time to time.
I look back at older messages and older yk stuff and it's always been the same but more drastic the older I am, same bullshit, people never change and I never learn, I trust way too deep and get fucked over time and time again and it's not like anything really changes, just the scenario is different, bigger, a more coherent act, a ridiculous script and yet I fail to understand that it doesn't get any better; the "better" it gets, the worse it gets.

386 Yeah :< I will say the same thing has happened to me, Whenever I try to feel better through work or a new friend, something will make me worse again whether that be fear of abandonment, burnout, exhaustion or someone actually leaves me. I don't know how to get out of this pit and everytime I try to climb it I fall down.

 

[EternalShore]

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I look back at older messages and older yk stuff and it's always been the same but more drastic the older I am, same bullshit, people never change and I never learn, I trust way too deep and get fucked over time and time again and it's not like anything really changes, just the scenario is different, bigger, a more coherent act, a ridiculous script and yet I fail to understand that it doesn't get any better; the "better" it gets, the worse it gets.

I'm really sorry to hear about that, darkest~ :( I hope the cycle of pain and betrayal of others stops one day for both of us. :( how can "better" be worse tho? Isn't it just plain worse regardless of what others may think~ "like hypothetically, I have a job now, but I don't like it, and I don't get anything else I actually want, so I don't care for the stable source of income"

 

[GlassMoon]

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[Namelesa]

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[darkest]

386 - yea exactly! And the pit is only getting deeper.

Also, a note worth mentioning, gotta love how my mother "motivates" me by saying that there's so much worse I'm yet to meet in life lol, thanks mum, now I know I'm making the right decision of CTB early!

 

[ma0]

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[Namelesa]

386 your mum is stupid, that would give me of a reason to die early so I don't have to experience that more painful future

 

[darkest]

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[Namelesa]

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[ma0]

386 - yea exactly! And the pit is only getting deeper.

Also, a note worth mentioning, gotta love how my mother "motivates" me by saying that there's so much worse I'm yet to meet in life lol, thanks mum, now I know I'm making the right decision of CTB early!

387 - If you know that life for someone is going to be unpleasant and tell that to your child, why have a child?

 

[Namelesa]

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[EternalShore]

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Also, a note worth mentioning, gotta love how my mother "motivates" me by saying that there's so much worse I'm yet to meet in life lol, thanks mum, now I know I'm making the right decision of CTB early!

xDDD yeahhh~ Wish I could/would do that myself~ :( My dad told me a while ago that he should stop complaining about stuff to us and tell us how to get started, and it's like~ well, this way, I get to see how bad things really will be~ ofc, I hate hearing all the time about everything indicates that everything will be terrible, but it's just like uggggh~ What is there to look forward to then? like kids, then retirement (with free and early back pain! :D), but I'd rather not have retirement without kids whose grandkids I can spend all my free time being with and raising, and I'm no closer to that, so it's aaaaaaaa~ >_<

 

[Namelesa]

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[darkest]

385 - I know, right?? She for the life of her can't bring comfort. All she knows is either try to solve everything and pretend she knows everything ever or as I call it "motivate" me, stuff like what I mentioned about and the classic stuff, like telling me that all those mental issues are because I'm a spoiled kid and if I were abused like she was I wouldn't be hurting myself, and implying that she should abuse me so that I have a reason to be mentally ill! As If I wasn't already!!!! Fucking fuuuuun!!!!! I genuinely smile ear to ear every time I think of how she'll react when she finds my body, and she'll be the first one to do so!

 

[Namelesa]

384 bad biological parents are the worst people to exist

 

[darkest]

385

xDDD yeahhh~ Wish I could/would do that myself~ :( My dad told me a while ago that he should stop complaining about stuff to us and tell us how to get started, and it's like~ well, this way, I get to see how bad things really will be~ ofc, I hate hearing all the time about everything indicates that everything will be terrible, but it's just like uggggh~ What is there to look forward to then? like kids, then retirement (with free and early back pain! :D), but I'd rather not have retirement without kids whose grandkids I can spend all my free time being with and raising, and I'm no closer to that, so it's aaaaaaaa~ >_<

385 - awe, sorry to hear that you're told the same stuff, I get you it sucks, especially that you do want to keep going but struggle with finding something to look forward to as you said, hope you find that something <3

 

[Namelesa]

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[EternalShore]

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387 - If you know that life for someone is going to be unpleasant and tell that to your child, why have a child?

hehe~ I've thought about telling kids that their futures will be unpleasant too that I talked to before! :) Although I didn't tell him that, I remember thinking about doing so in reference to talking to some 2nd grader who was upset that he didn't get to go to school a year earlier than he did~ But I guess the better statement is: "Enjoy your childhood as much as you can! :)"
ofc, I don't even get to talk to kids like that anymore because I could be a "pedo"~ another reason why I want my own ig! xD

387 - I know, right?? She for the life of her can't bring comfort. All she knows is either try to solve everything and pretend she knows everything ever or as I call it "motivate" me, stuff like what I mentioned about and the classic stuff, like telling me that all those mental issues are because I'm a spoiled kid and if I were abused like she was I wouldn't be hurting myself, and implying that she should abuse me so that I have a reason to be mentally ill! As If I wasn't already!!!! Fucking fuuuuun!!!!! I genuinely smile ear to ear every time I think of how she'll react when she finds my body, and she'll be the first one to do so!

I'm sorry~ I wish she were better able~ >_< You can really only rely on SS people for that! xDDD oh, yeah, same~ :( My dad says that I'm spoiled and so when everything is being swept out from under me, and everyone else gets to have fun and stuff while I'm left miserable and alone, it's just because I feel entitled due to having a good childhood or whatever~ :/ I'm sorry tho~ :/ Threatening to abuse someone to give them a "reason" to be mentally ill is terrifying and evil! >_< how dare she say such rude words! >:( I completely agree with you on that!
pls just make sure not to sewer slide to spite her tho~ I understand that things may suck for you, but doing it to spite your mom (especially since she didn't abuse you) is just~ >_<
and thank you for your nice comments back to me too! :3 I hope I'm able to as well~ >_<

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Well, this thread took a turn
It's like our own private venting thread
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[EternalShore]

Well, this thread took a turn
It's like our own private venting thread
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blame me and darkest, nya! >:3

 

[Namelesa]

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