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[boddibo]

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I'd say on the game section we're pretty chill about it
Don't know about elsewhere. Been a while since I have interacted with people outside the game section.

 

[Niron1492]

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Oh i meant in general,well im mostly on offtopic as i obv am in pain and still search but i dont feel mature enough to respond in the other discussions mostly (hope that didnt come out as mean,i just dont know how to respond or talk about it).
It is weird that this is my first forum though but meh,i love it and will stay on it until i can determine,if i still postpone i hope i still am stable enough to talk here since people are nice

 

[boddibo]

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I get it. I don't interact with posts outside here because I don't know how to respond (and English isn't my first language so it doesn't help my confidence.) Sometimes I just feel like my comment wouldn't add anything to the conversation.

@Eriktf posts don't but the reactions are absolutely still added to the reaction score

 

[Niron1492]

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Same with the english thing,well i struggle on both ends since i dont know how to speak my language that well(im chronically online since primary school) but i dont think the comments should add anything,i'd actually say that even the most "meaningless" one still adds something,plus it feels nice as a community to have more responses at a post.
I think its weird to say family but this forum feels more bonded rather than discord servers for example.

 

[boddibo]

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yeah I get what you're saying,
but if I had to interact I think it'd be more on the Recovery side than the Suicide side (I don't like to feed my own depression with stranger's own burdens, as selifsh it might sound). But I think it's even harder to post on Recovery than Suicide. Maybe I'm just not made to interact with ppl lol

 

[Niron1492]

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I understand,it does feel bad when someone suffers and idk it just feels like guilt,i mostly lurk there and read.I had tears recently since i saw a post about 2 years ago about someone taking their own life.
I dont really talk to people,well at all,but its easiest on forums since you are anonymous and you can chime in at anytime.

I honestly probably wouldnt put a post since im not a poet and i feel scared to share my thoughts,i always imagined i'd just CTB at random since i did try that recently(a year ago maybe?2 times in the summer and once more severe in december) but it just got me hospitalized so meh

 

[boddibo]

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i used to read alot when i first joined here, it made me really depressed even more
i get that people have nihilistic views, it did really worsen my own state of mind (i'm not blaming those people of course, they are suffering)
so i decided to let go of the suicide section, if I have to die some day, I will, I got what I need to CTB thanks to SaSu
now I just chill on the game section while trying to get my life on tracks

 

[Eriktf]

@Eriktf posts don't but the reactions are absolutely still added to the reaction score

my reaction score did not change when i liked yours now.
edit: misinformation

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[boddibo]

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my reaction score did not change when i liked yours now.

that's because it's when you get a reaction not when you give one :)

 

[Niron1492]

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Hmm i guess i see your point,i always been nihillistic so maybe thats why i dont feel changed at much,i also tried SH since 7 and more activately CTB 2 years ago(well not active enough,but still some attempts that were just weak since they barely had any effect on me).And yeah,im still searching,i saw some users that were here for years so i dont know,i will see what my future holds since i dont want to end up homeless,especially with the meds i need.
Also welcome Erik lol,lets get this win faster :D

 

[Eriktf]

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that's because it's when you get a reaction not when you give one :)

thats right my bad never cared about it to enough to check what it actual was..

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[boddibo]

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don't get me wrong, I can be nihilistic too when I spirale down really hard
I'm just pretty inconsistent in life as I always have been
planned to CTB when I first joined, and when I got SN I told myself 'let's see if you can get back on tracks before ending it all' and well i'm still here for now
doesn't mean I won't CTB ever, just not now

 

[Eriktf]

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[boddibo]

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[Niron1492]

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I guess,i dont know really know what to do since i have mixed thoughts,also im gonna listen to some music since my mind is tired from writing paragraphs so i hope its okay if i just reply with numbers :>

 

[Namelesa]

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[boddibo]

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dw dw

 

[Eriktf]

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[Namelesa]

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[Niron1492]

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[Eriktf]

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[Niron1492]

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[boddibo]

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[Niron1492]

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[boddibo]

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[Eriktf]

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[boddibo]

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[Niron1492]

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[boddibo]

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[Eriktf]

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