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[Namelesa]

388

 

[APeacefulPlace]

389

 

[Namelesa]

388

 

[APeacefulPlace]

389

 

[ijustwishtodie]

390

well I hope you can get to sleep soon so you can skip more of your life and so experience less of the pain and fear you feel

also btw boys won twice in a row yesterday

388

Or maybe you're just saying that to eliminate the competition gasp. Okay, not really. Though, for perhaps the first time in my life, I don't actually mind being awake. Of course I'd still rather sleep for as long as possible because the more sleep I get, the better but damn my mind feels so much relaxed and clear. I genuinely feel so happy with myself because I'm strong enough to have pushed through so many obstacles with regarding to ctb and I'm almost at the finish line. Unfortunately I have to wait for a few more days but my time is getting really close now and I am at peace and happiness because of it. Though sadly this feeling is most likely going to be transient and I'll be filled with panic and dread again soon enough

 

[Namelesa]

389

 

[ijustwishtodie]

390. Do all of you just alternate between two numbers indefinitely lol?

 

[Namelesa]

390

Or maybe you're just saying that to eliminate the competition gasp. Okay, not really. Though, for perhaps the first time in my life, I don't actually mind being awake. Of course I'd still rather sleep for as long as possible because the more sleep I get, the better but damn my mind feels so much relaxed and clear. I genuinely feel so happy with myself because I'm strong enough to have pushed through so many obstacles with regarding to ctb and I'm almost at the finish line. Unfortunately I have to wait for a few more days but my time is getting really close now and I am at peace and happiness because of it. Though sadly this feeling is most likely going to be transient and I'll be filled with panic and dread again soon enough

I am glad you are happy for this short time. If we can be happier before an opportunity to ctb might else well be to make life a bit easier until then. I am really glad you have found a way out despite your parents' restrictions. Try to remind yourself you are okay for the sake of lessening SI and fear of an attempt failing as you are not attempting at the moment so nothing can go wrong in terms of suiciding now.

389

390. Do all of you just alternate between two numbers indefinitely lol?

also sometimes yes hehe

 

[ijustwishtodie]

390

I am glad you are happy for this short time. If we can be happier before an opportunity to ctb might else well be to make life a bit easier until then. I am really glad you have found a way out despite your parents' restrictions. Try to remind yourself you are okay for the sake of lessening SI and fear of an attempt failing as you are not attempting at the moment so nothing can go wrong in terms of suiciding now.

389

also sometimes yes hehe

I think that I am okay albeit I was immensely terrified in the morning to see a police car parked on my street. I should be okay. At this point, I'm not trying to think about the consequences of failing an attempt but rather me succeeding. If I keep on ruminating on the idea of failing the attempt, I'd never push myself to attempt and then I'd be back to square one where I'm completely trapped again. Having a way out of here means that I actually have to use it. I just need to be strong for a few days more and then I'll never have to be strong ever again

 

[Namelesa]

389

 

[ijustwishtodie]

390

 

[Namelesa]

389

 

[ijustwishtodie]

390. Space is so beautiful. There's no bloodshed, no war, no poverty, no struggle, no hardships, no pain, no suffering, no tears, no loneliness, no fear, no anxiety, no bullying, no starvation, no thrist etc out there. It truly is so peaceful because there's nothing bad happening out there in space

 

[Namelesa]

389 just wondering do you want me to do anything in particular for you @ijustwishtodie before you ctb? I am just saying cus you have been really great to interact with and I find you to be the most logical person here and I just thought is there anything you want to make this life easier until you ctb?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

390

389 just wondering do you want me to do anything in particular for you @ijustwishtodie before you ctb? I am just saying cus you have been really great to interact with and I find you to be the most logical person here and I just thought is there anything you want to make this life easier until you ctb?

Keep on adding +1000 to the current score so that the boys win every single time

In all seriousness though, nah, you don't need to do anything in particular. You've honestly been so amazing already. There are some days where I'm on this site and I hate being here because I'll occasionally see people being unnecessarily rude to others or giving sentiments which I personally think is too pro life (or just sentiments that I came to this site to avoid, not to hear even more) but then I see people like you and it makes me glad to say that I'm a member of this site. It really does. On days where I wish that I could disconnect from this community entirely, I get reminded that there are nice and kind people here like you and a few other members too that makes me proud to be "ijustwishtodie"

 

[Namelesa]

390

Keep on adding +1000 to the current score so that the boys win every single time

In all seriousness though, nah, you don't need to do anything in particular. You've honestly been so amazing already. There are some days where I'm on this site and I hate being here because I'll occasionally see people being unnecessarily rude to others or giving sentiments which I personally think is too pro life (or just sentiments that I came to this site to avoid, not to hear even more) but then I see people like you and it makes me glad to say that I'm a member of this site. It really does. On days where I wish that I could disconnect from this community entirely, I get reminded that there are nice and kind people here like you and a few other members too that makes me proud to be "ijustwishtodie"

a lot of the things you say makes me feel seen and heard especially with the thread I made about complaining about parents trapping me. And with other things I totally respect your opinion with. I like that you and some other people here can see ctb and death as something that isn't bad for the person that it is happening to. Life being beautiful shouldn't be considered as the true correct fact about existence and its okay for others to not like it at all and want a way out of it as soon as possible or not wanted to do it at all. No one should be forced into anything and that includes life itself. Thank you for your time here ijustwishtodie and I hope you get to escape your pain soon.

389

 

[whitetaildeer]

390

deer has (finally) arrived. and hello ijustwishtodie! always a refresher to see perspectives like yours on this site

Life being beautiful shouldn't be considered as the true correct fact about existence and its okay for others to not like it at all and want a way out of it as soon as possible or not wanted to do it at all.

"life is beautiful" drives me up the fucking WALL. you could tell a pro-lifer in excruciating detail everything you've ever gone through, and they will still spit this nonsense at you.

 

[Namelesa]

389

 

[ijustwishtodie]

a lot of the things you say makes me feel seen and heard especially with the thread I made about complaining about parents trapping me. And with other things I totally respect your opinion with. I like that you and some other people here can see ctb and death as something that isn't bad for the person that it is happening to. Life being beautiful shouldn't be considered as the true correct fact about existence and its okay for others to not like it at all and want a way out of it as soon as possible or not wanted to do it at all. No one should be forced into anything and that includes life itself. Thank you for your time here ijustwishtodie and I hope you get to escape your pain soon.

389

Yessssssssss!!!! Omg it truly is so relieving to find somebody who actually gets it. I consider the fact that "death isn't a harm to the being who is dead" as an objective fact assuming that death is just permanent non existence as it's impossible for somebody to be harmed if there is no "them" since they were never born or their brain was switched off. It's so baffling to me when I see people act like death is the worst harm that could ever happen to a person. Because of this one notion, they made euthanasia illegal. I wish that people could just acknowledge death for what it is. They themselves don't have to die if they don't want to but ugh I wish they at least acknowledged its nature.

390

 

[Namelesa]

389

 

[whitetaildeer]

390

i'm in the weird boat where i don't think death itself is tragic, but the circumstances that lead someone to choose to ctb are

 

[ijustwishtodie]

390

deer has (finally) arrived. and hello ijustwishtodie! always a refresher to see perspectives like yours on this site

Thank you

"life is beautiful" drives me up the fucking WALL. you could tell a pro-lifer in excruciating detail everything you've ever gone through, and they will still spit this nonsense at you.

This!! My sister went through a lot of immense pain whilst she was alive with one of her pains being from multiple sclerosis. She suffered a lot as a result from it and the only responses that she got from my mum is to "just be positive!!!!!" and "life is beautiful!!!!!". It's just- fuck, you won't ever be able to reason with these people. It's just futile

391

 

[Namelesa]

390?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

391. I did say before that I don't mind staying awake but I still do wish that I could fall asleep already. I'm surprised that I managed to stay awake for so long lol

 

[Namelesa]

390

i'm in the weird boat where i don't think death itself is tragic, but the circumstances that lead someone to choose to ctb are

definitely the suffering someone goes through to want to ctb is tragic but the suicide itself isn't.

390

 

[ijustwishtodie]

391. I don't think that suicide would be as tragic if euthanasia was legalised tbh. That way, some people can manage their suffering better as they know that they have a peaceful way out if everything goes to shit

 

[Namelesa]

390

 

[ijustwishtodie]

391

 

[Namelesa]

391. I did say before that I don't mind staying awake but I still do wish that I could fall asleep already. I'm surprised that I managed to stay awake for so long lol

I wish I could sleep already too, I purposely want to try to sleep for 12 hours a day so I don't have to deal with life as much

390

 

[whitetaildeer]

391

This!! My sister went through a lot of immense pain whilst she was alive with one of her pains being from multiple sclerosis. She suffered a lot as a result from it and the only responses that she got from my mum is to "just be positive!!!!!" and "life is beautiful!!!!!". It's just- fuck, you won't ever be able to reason with these people. It's just futile

good lord that's just insanity. "just be positive" while in a constant state of agony? what the hell is that going to fix? they're never able to give real solutions. pro-lifers don't care about fixing the actual problems that could push someone to ctb and their treatment of assisted suicide is proof. because if you care that much, you'd want to fix what makes someone want to ctb in the first place.