Bottomless Pit of Hopelessness.

[WallowingWillow]

the pain of being alive and conscious is starting to really overwhelm me. I want to just run away and hide from myself, but I am trapped. The only option is death, but I don't know if I'll ever be able to do it. I am absolutely beyond miserable I don't even know what words to use to describe it. I want nothing more than to cease to exist and for everyone to forget about me. Going into the holidays feeling like this is the most dreadful thing I can imagine.

 

[F@#$]

I feel the same way. Except I've isolated myself to the point nobody expects any sort of holiday cheer from me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also find it so painful to exist as well, I also just wish to cease existing and never suffer again, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[CTB Dream]

This v awfl life me know how rly awfl no hpe no any rly trap me no want stay this wrld all pain sffr no stop prblm no mthd no any me no resn stay me no resn do any

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

To try and build up the courage to do it, I am constantly reminding myself that I will have to eventually face death one day regardless, whether I'm ready for it or not.

 

[katara]

Your profile pic caught my attention. Not sure if that's you or not, but i really love that pink color.
I can relate to what you said about the holidays, I only ever see my mom who i live with. But its always been a lonely time for me. I don't want to be miserable but its hard when i know what im lacking in life and knowing i mostly likely will never get it bc nobody wants to date a loser like me. Ahh, idk what to say. Just thought i'd post a reply, wish i had something more to add. If you are still around for Christmas feel free to message me. I'm not on all the time but I'm already thinking of something i have to do to ignore the holiday times because they literally make me feel so awful :(