itsbigbraintime
SN Wizard
- Feb 14, 2020
- 75
I have no idea how to describe this feeling. It's like I'm doing okay, I'm incredibly bored, and yet I'm completely hopeless and depressed. So maybe that's not okay? I have no idea. Some days I'll be planning out my future like I'm thinking of sticking around, and other times, I'll start planning out my death. There's been a few times lately that I've almost ctb impulsively, and I think to myself "That wouldn't really be so bad." I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. I'd like to give up, every day is completely exhausting and I find no point in anything. But then I become hyperfixated on something for a while, and I keep going. I'm basically one major inconvenience away from ending it. What do you guys do when you get like this?