Bitter life produce bitter people?

[Efilismislife]

I read some people posting about their bitter opinion toward this world and some people are againts them

It makes me think maybe their bitterness towards the world was the result of what they see/their lives experience and people who hasnt been there, unable to see it

i was once an innocent, positive, loving person. but being tortured by my own family since childhood till my whole lives changed me completely, im betrayed and i lost all my trust and hopes

I cant relate with how most normal people feel towards their dear ones(be it family, friends, lover, etc). Because i dont even have anyone. even my own family abused me. Lost hope to humanity.

When i watch movie or see other people show affection, sadness or whatever towards their dear ones, It feels weird to me instead.

i still know whats right and whats wrong, rationale and i have empathy sympathies but sometimes i feel numb, feelings&emotions are such a nuisances and i hardly feel connection towards people.
i only have myself.

of course i couldnt tell this to other normies around me and i have to pretend being normal
sometimes im so sick and fed up with it

Its not like i chose to be like this

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful what you have had to endure. I'm sorry that you have suffered so unbearably in life. Some people are just so cruel. I do think that many people are able to be positive about life only because they have not experienced the horrors of this world themselves. To me, life is so depressing and unfair, and it is sad how so much pain exists.

 

[indica]

reminds me of "hurt people hurt people." i hope you find a genuine friend soon

 

[Worndown]

Stepping outside your unpleasant norm and breaking that cycle is how you escape. It is not easy to do.

 

[Efilismislife]

Stepping outside your unpleasant norm and breaking that cycle is how you escape. It is not easy to do.

Unfortunately the only escape seem to be ctb. And even that is hard to achieve peacefully as i struggling with the plan

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I feel you on the jealousy and bitter part. I do not know of a way to make it better, though :(

 

[Efilismislife]

I feel you on the jealousy and bitter part. I do not know of a way to make it better, though :(

Yeah i think eventually after so long i finally adapt to numb my emotions n dont want to care anymore n live like a zombie but sometimes i break down

Reminds of the other thread about copium

its better if i can be like robot and hack my own emotions

Btw thats everglow n twice on your profile right?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Yeah i think eventually after so long i finally adapt to numb my emotions n dont want to care anymore n live like a zombie but sometimes i break down

Reminds of the other thread about copium

its better if i can be like robot and hack my own emotions

Btw thats everglow n twice on your profile right?

Yiren from everglow in my pfp and Twice's fancy on my profile banner :)

 

[Efilismislife]

Yiren from everglow in my pfp and Twice's fancy on my profile banner :)

I thought its aisha though
i like some of their songs especially first

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I thought its aisha though
i like some of their songs

I guess i get them mixed up in this particular song (la di da).

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Yeah i feel this tbh. When i have bad days because i feel bad of how i look i get quite bitter and unlikeable.

 

[Efilismislife]

I guess i get them mixed up in this particular song (la di da).

Oh i like that one too
But first got the cool vibe and mv

 

[hopelessdreams]

i relate to your words. the problem with this is that so many things can trigger ur. id just be talking to a friend, and when they have a warped opinion on say depression (other then mine) I get so triggered I just want to tell them to shut the fuck up and leave. I don't even bother to give them my opinion, because people will never change their minds about something. I hide my bitterness and anger, and change the subject or remove myself from the situation (depersonalization, don't recommend it).

 

[Efilismislife]

youre right i can relate to that.
to me its like a glass of water and over the time its filling up and explode when it cant contain anymore.

Sometimes i feel like cursed dont belong anywhere but i guess its because its very hard to find similar minded people like me around,
cause for me to do that i have to search&be very active socially and also i have a weird lifes experience unlike most other normies so its hard for me to fit in, other than pretending to follow the 'mainstream'

i relate to your words. the problem with this is that so many things can trigger ur. id just be talking to a friend, and when they have a warped opinion on say depression (other then mine) I get so triggered I just want to tell them to shut the fuck up and leave. I don't even bother to give them my opinion, because people will never change their minds about something. I hide my bitterness and anger, and change the subject or remove myself from the situation (depersonalization, don't recommend it).

 

[novem]

I read some people posting about their bitter opinion toward this world and some people are againts them

It makes me think maybe their bitterness towards the world was the result of what they see/their lives experience and people who hasnt been there, unable to see it

i was once an innocent, positive, loving person. but being tortured by my own family since childhood till my whole lives changed me completely, im betrayed and i lost all my trust and hopes

I cant relate with how most normal people feel towards their dear ones(be it family, friends, lover, etc). Because i dont even have anyone. even my own family abused me. Lost hope to humanity.

When i watch movie or see other people show affection, sadness or whatever towards their dear ones, It feels weird to me instead.

i still know whats right and whats wrong, rationale and i have empathy sympathies but sometimes i feel numb, feelings&emotions are such a nuisances and i hardly feel connection towards people.
i only have myself.

of course i couldnt tell this to other normies around me and i have to pretend being normal
sometimes im so sick and fed up with it

Its not like i chose to be like this

our emotions are just our judgement of our reality.
cant give you a quote but this is accurate.
so yes, bitter life is a entails of bitter judgement.
----
peace!

 

[Efilismislife]

our emotions are just our judgement of our reality.
cant give you a quote but this is accurate.
so yes, bitter life is a entails of bitter judgement.
----
peace!

It also seems similar to trauma, distrustful/ pessimistic, vs optimism and the opposite

A result of excessive bad experiences/failures/ betrayals, etc tend to produce more critical, skeptical, etc behavior from adapting to those experiences

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Oh i like that one too
But first got the cool vibe and mv

I really like adios and pirate, also.

Don't know why I did not get the notification for this post lol

 

[Messgram]

I think this is obvious, because we are shaped by our environment and state of mind. But even if my life became perfect, I would never change my negative view of the world, as I have been to hell and I know what it is like.

Those who have never really suffered like many here on the forum, tend to have a blindly optimistic view of the world, because they have the slightest idea of how bad suffering can get.

 

[hopelessdreams]

youre right i can relate to that.
to me its like a glass of water and over the time its filling up and explode when it cant contain anymore.

Sometimes i feel like cursed dont belong anywhere but i guess its because its very hard to find similar minded people like me around,
cause for me to do that i have to search&be very active socially and also i have a weird lifes experience unlike most other normies so its hard for me to fit in, other than pretending to follow the 'mainstream'

your analogy of a glass of water perfectly describes it, you can deal with people to a certain point.

i also relate to not finding like minded people. usually, when i try to talk to people about deep shit, they either say something stupid like "depression is just your mindset", or dismiss the subject completely. they're not worth the bother.

 

[Efilismislife]

But even if my life became perfect, I would never change my negative view of the world, as I have been to hell and I know what it is like.

Those who have never really suffered like many here on the forum, tend to have a blindly optimistic view of the world, because they have the slightest idea of how bad suffering can get.

Me too you describe what i think too

Although sometimes i wonder it seems living would be easier to be like that, maybe if i didnt experience all of these sh** ill be the same as the optimistic people

your analogy of a glass of water perfectly describes it, you can deal with people to a certain point.

i also relate to not finding like minded people. usually, when i try to talk to people about deep shit, they either say something stupid like "depression is just your mindset", or dismiss the subject completely. they're not worth the bother.

glad some people understand
I heard that too. "Happiness&sadness depends only on mindset"

But theres a cause to everything, right....
one cant just laugh/cry out of nowhere unless she/he has gone mental. Which means theres still a reason behind it

I really like adios and pirate, also.

Don't know why I did not get the notification for this post lol

yea those are good too, to me adios&dundun similar, my fav part when the reff kicks in, it blasts off like BOOM!

music is my escapism