Linty Leans
all pronouns
- Feb 12, 2023
- 11
it's gonna be my birthday soon. i don't wanna throw a party because i don't deserve a day to celebrate myself but i also don't wanna concern my friends and make them worry about me. the whole thing just seems so daunting especially when i know that i wanna ctb. literally the only thing stopping me from trying to hang myself is that i can't handle the headaches that come before passing out. i'm too much of a coward to tell my friends and i'm too weak to just get the job done. i don't see myself living a functional life in which i'm a positive presence for those around me. i rlly wanna ctb before my birthday but i have no idea how to get around my mental weakness. it's like i don't even have to energy to ctb cause i'm too bogged down feeling sorry for myself in bed. anyways, how's y'all's weeks? :)