
Thesunwillrise
Member
- May 30, 2019
- 10
So i am suffering from bipolair for many many years but was diagnosed 2 years ago.
as long as i remember i have always seen the world black and white, not much joy so to speak, sometimes there were colours... i was put on antidepressants used many different ones but could never quite get the results from them started cutting witch for me made it easier.
now im on lithium and some other medicine they make my highs and lows less severe however i still feel the need to suicide everytime
i does not go out of my head, sometimes its not so much in my head but then a week later it is there again.
every now and then when im up i dont think about it to much but when im down i dont want anything but die.
this up and down is what killing me and i wonder how other people like me cope with this?
its my first post ever here about this so please be kind.
as long as i remember i have always seen the world black and white, not much joy so to speak, sometimes there were colours... i was put on antidepressants used many different ones but could never quite get the results from them started cutting witch for me made it easier.
now im on lithium and some other medicine they make my highs and lows less severe however i still feel the need to suicide everytime
i does not go out of my head, sometimes its not so much in my head but then a week later it is there again.
every now and then when im up i dont think about it to much but when im down i dont want anything but die.
this up and down is what killing me and i wonder how other people like me cope with this?
its my first post ever here about this so please be kind.