Being worthlless.

[ineed2die]

I do not want any positivity in this thread If you do not relate to what I am about to say, please choose another thread to comment in.

I do not consider myself to be worth anything. I don't care about my health, happiness or continued existence.

Does anyone else feel the same way? IF so, how do you pass your time

Thanks.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

Planning my suicide, preparing everything to make it easier for those around me, and spend the last few moments I can with the ones I care about.

When it gets really bad I rot in bed, If I have energy I tunnel it to those things

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I suffer from major depression and spend most of my time in bed as I have no will to live. I cry a lot and try to come up with a peaceful way to end it but I now know from being on here there is no easy way out.

 

[Crow_88]

Aye. I spend most of my time scared of how others see me since I'm so pathetic and made so many terrible mistakes.

 

[floop]

same here, i pass my time by fantasizing about death and planning how i will ctb, bed rotting, and listening to music

 

[DefyGravity]

I do not consider myself to be worth anything. I don't care about my health, happiness or continued existence.

I can totally relate. At the same time there are people here who are dependent on me. I keep myself busy helping them, while quietly planning my exit.

 

[Manfrotto99]

There are certain things that society values and places worth on. If we find ourselves not having any of those attributes or worse yet, failing to aspire to any of those things, then I think it's natural to feel worth less and ashamed. I find my self to be the most pathetic person I've ever known, because I've failed at everything and have nothing to show for my efforts in life. I can't wait to be dead but fear it too and am just hanging on until my next big blow when my SI weakens enough for me to ctb.

I still go to the gym and push my self to lift weights. It's the only time I don't think of getting out of here, but im 'm not sure how long I can keep it up

 

[Nadienobody]

I almost haven't left my room in the last 10 years, I feel like the most worthless person ever. I distract myself with music, video games and thinking about suicide.

 

[tiredash]

I feel worthless because of 2 separate reasons... My grandparents were very hard working, they only worked all day, did pretty much nothing else, and that philosofy sadly was glued to me... So when im not working into anything its because im a failure, which is always...

The second reason is because i feel very lonely and no woman in my 35 years in this world even wanted me... So im worthless for that too...