I used to be fit, work demanding hours and mostly be normal despite some mental health and insomnia issues. Then when I developed a chronic pain disorder, overnight, I lost the ability to do most things I love .unfortunately I was already married to a real go-getter of a spouse. They can sleep at the drop of a dime and goes running for miles every day. Honestly, watching them get up refreshed everyday, work 12 hours then go for a run, all while grabbing life by the horns and giving it all they got makes me boil with rage inside every day. I wish I wasn't married because I can't handle the jealously watching my old self prance around without a care in the world. I should be happy for them, but it just makes me sick. They are a great and kind person, but I want to be alone or with someone who understands