being left again

[louboutinsuicide]

full circle baby. got two options become the villain in yet another persons story, the crazy girlfriend story at the dinner table, or falter rise prosper. except every time this has happened in the past nothing has changed. nothing has changed since last time except the fact that i'm sober. i still haven't figured out how to make money without selling myself which is what he's leaving me for. that i sold myself during a period of no contact / no relationship.

fuck i tried so hard to get back with him and he backlashed with threats of killing me. begged him for money before i went out and did anything. it wasn't even penetrative. i've had 3 abortions in my life and they've all been his and in the span of 4 months. i tell the story and everyone tells me im better off alone. couldn't talk about men. couldn't go out.

gonna get evicted soon and end up on my own yet again. i don't know how to survive in this world i do not.

 

[angelhopes]

Im sorry to hear that OP I hope you find your peace in the future :(

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

a lot of the abusive behavior is cuz most guys cant handle a girl like this

So dont depend on them for money.

And stop whoring yourself out, that isnt good for you psychologically in the long term.

Gotta stop that even if you gotta go hungry and sew clothes in a factory

Should probly find a shelter if evicted or speak to a social worker about your options if you arent there yet

 

[Yuja]

sorry to hear your story... it really is the worst to imagine what people say or think about you. I would say that you should try to not pay any attention to what other say but I also struggle with that so I'm not the one that should be giving such advice haha...

And about what happened between you and your partner, I know it hurts so much right now but trust me when I say that it is for the best. If you've had 4 abortions that means there were 2 opportunities to do better. 2 chances to at LEAST wear protection or something else to prevent that from happening. That is not only your fault but clearly your partners as well since you BOTH are responsible for practicing safe sex. I'm not saying this to shame you in any way but more so as evidence that he is not the right guy for you....

I hope you don't have to resort to selling your body for money but having to live on the streets sounds awful as well.. an all around awful situation...

I'm so sorry for everything you've gone through :( nobody deserves what's happened to you