Being here is comforting, just knowing this forum exists.

[rebelsue]

I for sure will ctb someday, probably in the near future. My SN and anti-nausea meds were found and confiscated so I lost that option. I have read the hanging guides and there's some really good advice there. I am comforted so much just by knowing there's at least one place on Earth that understands what wanting to die means, what it is like, and a place where I can read seriously about methods. A place where people seriously discuss this topic and give it the attention it deserves. Every person should have the right to choose when they go if they want to. It's the ultimate bodily autonomy. Few people truly understand how painful it is to be trapped in this mind prison and finding no way out after so many attempts. My mind is not my own anymore. It has betrayed me. This is only my second time posting but I read the posts on here often because knowing that there really is a way out brings me calmness. Knowing that I don't have to suffer like this forever. Knowing that when it gets to be too much, truly too much (and I'm getting close to that if I'm not already there), there is hope for freedom. That peace can exist. Thank you for being the only honest people on the planet.

 

[smile mask]

I understand what you are talking about, whenever I try to talk seriously with someone about this, I only get bad answers, they think that everything I feel is a stage, or that I just I'm joking

 

[rebelsue]

I understand what you are talking about, whenever I try to talk seriously with someone about this, I only get bad answers, they think that everything I feel is a stage, or that I just I'm joking

Same here. People usually say positive things like how it gets better and recovery just takes a lot of work. I know recovery takes a lot of work. It's all I've been doing for decades. Working at recovery. I've spent so much time on recovery that I never learned how to do basic things like earn money and take care of myself and have a relationship with another person. Now I need to recover from that, too. It's fucking shit.

Whenever I want to talk to someone about a person's right to die, they just call the cops or my therapist and get me punished. I'm punished for wanting something very normal and natural -- to escape horrific internal pain.

 

[whereispeace]

It is comforting. Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, and no one else understands the extreme pain I'm in. This place reminds me that that is not the case.

 

[Moby]

It's so nice knowing there's a place like this. Even if I don't CTB, it's good to have the knowledge on how to do it as safe as possible and connections with people whose lives also ended up here.

 

[rebelsue]

It's so nice knowing there's a place like this. Even if I don't CTB, it's good to have the knowledge on how to do it as safe as possible and connections with people whose lives also ended up here.

Yes! I truly appreciate that I can be like "I want to die" and nobody freaks out and calls the cops. They just listen and they don't forget that I'm an autonomous human being who can make my own choices.