Story been in a coma for a year and a half

[depressed&numbed]

so about a year and three quarters ago i {partially} committed suicide and i have been in a coma for over a year and a half or so {rough estimate} and now im 20 struggling i just found out im trans and i couldn't be worse off mentally so expect another attempt from me any who turns out you`re partially awake but cant walk move talk or anything while in a coma i now have pretty bad brain damage and during my coma i heard a lot of hateful mean things also i had a very long time to think and now im even more depressed than before the coma also i also have to deal with occasional seizures any who and also my parents are now abusive to me when im near them and my family generally hates me

 

[Raven2]

Oh I'm sorry for what you have been through. What was your method that put you in a coma?

 

[SVEN]

Gosh, what a bummer, m8.

 

[depressed&numbed]

the method was the night-night method i used gorilla tape and two foam cubes
my brain was without circulation and oxygen for more than 4 hhours
at least thats what the docter said
they said that its a miracle that im even alive
i considere it to be a curse

 

[Forever Sleep]

This sounds awful. I'm so sorry. I guess I've always been curious really. I hope you don't mind me asking- what was it like being in a comma? Do you have any memories? Do you dream? I guess your sense of time gets all messed up. I'm sorry you've woken up to more problems.

 

[Otaku]

Thank you for writing your story. Were you ever aware you were in coma, before you woke up?

 

[Whatever♡]

Damn.how is this possible, doesn't the brain die after 10min of blood circulation cut,now I'm afraid to try partial hanging, there's no "second chance"for me if this is unreliable,no sn,I'll be left a living vegetable forever,I can't live with the aftermath of ctb with family.
So basically the "method" that some people wrote about here wasn't safe,gosh,but how did the night night fail,hell, how did it even work
I guess there was enough pressure to cute oxygen partially.how much time it took you to pass out out after using the tape

 

[Praestat_Mori]

What you have to go through is awful. I'm sorry. Thanks for sharing your story with us.

Damn.how is this possible, doesn't the brain die after 10min of blood circulation cut

Obviously blood circulation wasn't cut 100% but what it proves is that our brain can keep the most basic functions up with just a little bit of oxygen and blood flow. Our bodies are so much stronger than we can imagine.

 

[Whatever♡]

What you have to go through is awful. I'm sorry. Thanks for sharing your story with us.


Obviously blood circulation wasn't cut 100% but what it proves is that our brain can keep the most basic functions up with just a little bit of oxygen and blood flow. Our bodies are so much stronger than we can imagine.

Then how people who hang themselves even partially die within half an hour or is all of that not true

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Then how people who hang themselves even partially die within half an hour or is all of that not true

I'm not a medical professional but OP said they used foam cubes and duct tape. I would assume it wasn't tight enough - enough to pass out - but not enough to die quickly. It would have probably worked with a tourniquet but imo using duct tape increases the chances to fail when it is not tight enough.

Imo it's very difficult to tape anything tight around your neck with your own hands.

With full suspension the total body weight will compress the arteries and veins.

 

[fleetingnight]

I'm so sorry, that sounds terrible

I hope this community is able to give you at least a little comfort for the time being, and I hope you find peace in the future, whenever you're ready.

 

[Whatever♡]

I'm not a medical professional but OP said they used foam cubes and duct tape. I would assume it wasn't tight enough - enough to pass out - but not enough to die quickly. It would have probably worked with a tourniquet but imo using duct tape increases the chances to fail when it is not tight enough.

Imo it's very difficult to tape anything tight around your neck with your own hands.

With full suspension the total body weight will compress the arteries and veins.

Thank you for explaining to me,I'm a little slow.
What do you think about partial suspension,I'm afraid to fk up.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

What do you think about partial suspension,I'm afraid to fk up.

This is my personal opinion. Partial is effective but has a high failure rate and it's difficult to perform partial correctly, needs a lot of practice. I would always consider full suspension bc once the chair is kicked away there's no way back.

 

[LifeIsBS]

being revived after you gather enough courage to ctb.. and then getting hate afterwards for the same reason. it's so fucked up man. wish you the best man, for whatever you do next.

 

[Whatever♡]

This is my personal opinion. Partial is effective but has a high failure rate and it's difficult to perform partial correctly, needs a lot of practice. I would always consider full suspension bc once the chair is kicked away there's no way back.

Why do you think it has high failure rate,is it because the difficulty to surpass si ,or it's ineffective in compressing the veins,or because as you said difficulty to perform correctly -what do you mean by that- you mean you can end up brain damaged without death.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Why do you think it has high failure rate,is it because the difficulty to surpass si ,or it's ineffective in compressing the veins,or because as you said difficulty to perform correctly -what do you mean by that- you mean you can end up brain damaged without death.

SI. I also heard from people who failed many times.

 

[Whatever♡]

SI. I also heard from people who failed many times.

I can bear with si cause life is more painful,but not anything else

 

[willitpass]

Damn.how is this possible, doesn't the brain die after 10min of blood circulation cut,now I'm afraid to try partial hanging, there's no "second chance"for me if this is unreliable,no sn,I'll be left a living vegetable forever,I can't live with the aftermath of ctb with family.
So basically the "method" that some people wrote about here wasn't safe,gosh,but how did the night night fail,hell, how did it even work
I guess there was enough pressure to cute oxygen partially.how much time it took you to pass out out after using the tape

The night night method is not regarded as one of the best. It has a high failure rate, and while I don't think there's many statistics, I think most who do it and fail are lucky enough to not have any damage. As someone already said, this person would have still had to have some blood flow to the brain, it is impossible to go four hours with no blood flow and live, however it would have been insufficient. This is a risk you take with any method, some more than others, but things can go horribly wrong any time you are trying to take your own life. CTB is quite literally playing with death and you have to acknowledge what you are getting yourself into.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so dreadful and horrible what you are going through, but anyway I wish you the best, it certainly is such a cruel existence where people suffer so much.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You mean you attempted to kill yourself, failed, ended up in a coma for a 1-1/2 years, then woke up, and no one sectioned you?

 

[unusally alive]

so about a year and three quarters ago i {partially} committed suicide and i have been in a coma for over a year and a half or so {rough estimate} and now im 20 struggling i just found out im trans and i couldn't be worse off mentally so expect another attempt from me any who turns out you`re partially awake but cant walk move talk or anything while in a coma i now have pretty bad brain damage and during my coma i heard a lot of hateful mean things also i had a very long time to think and now im even more depressed than before the coma also i also have to deal with occasional seizures any who and also my parents are now abusive to me when im near them and my family generally hates me

could you please elaborate a bit more on the experience you had while in the coma? how did time pass by for you? Did you know you were in a coma? Is it comparible to sleeping, what about dreams?

 

[willitpass]

You mean you attempted to kill yourself, failed, ended up in a coma for a 1-1/2 years, then woke up, and no one sectioned you?

After a year and a half with what sounds like moderate brain damage, what good would sectioning do? I'd imagine there's probably some sort of time limit, and especially if the brain damage is significant enough to alter personality and memory, I can't imagine sectioning would accomplish anything. If you're in a coma for a week and wake up intact it'd make sense, but after that long.

 

[Justnotme]

God. It's totally fucked up. I'm really, really sorry. This story is too unbelievable. I'm in huge shock
Are you disabled now? Can't you walk, move your arms and legs?
Do I understand correctly?

 

[bwerner]

Damn.how is this possible, doesn't the brain die after 10min of blood circulation cut,now I'm afraid to try partial hanging, there's no "second chance"for me if this is unreliable,no sn,I'll be left a living vegetable forever,I can't live with the aftermath of ctb with family.
So basically the "method" that some people wrote about here wasn't safe,gosh,but how did the night night fail,hell, how did it even work
I guess there was enough pressure to cute oxygen partially.how much time it took you to pass out out after using the tape

Having second thoughts now on Night Night method or at least strangulation with a ratchet strap. Very discouraged. On the other hand, the gorilla tape idea always seemed less than ideal for night night.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

After a year and a half with what sounds like moderate brain damage, what good would sectioning do? I'd imagine there's probably some sort of time limit, and especially if the brain damage is significant enough to alter personality and memory, I can't imagine sectioning would accomplish anything. If you're in a coma for a week and wake up intact it'd make sense, but after that long.

I don't know. Didn't know they had time limits on it. Maybe after all that time and money to save you they would think they needed to force psychiatric help on you to try and make sure you dont do it again. IDK.

 

[Whatever♡]

Having second thoughts now on Night Night method or at least strangulation with a ratchet strap. Very discouraged. On the other hand, the gorilla tape idea always seemed less than ideal for night night.

Idk man..this shit should've not been our concern, it's not like dying is a privilege

 

[annointed_towers]

How did you join on June 8 2023 if you were in a coma?

 

[abchia]

Did you know you were in a coma while in it?

 

[suffering_mo_7]

so about a year and three quarters ago i {partially} committed suicide and i have been in a coma for over a year and a half or so {rough estimate} and now im 20 struggling i just found out im trans and i couldn't be worse off mentally so expect another attempt from me any who turns out you`re partially awake but cant walk move talk or anything while in a coma i now have pretty bad brain damage and during my coma i heard a lot of hateful mean things also i had a very long time to think and now im even more depressed than before the coma also i also have to deal with occasional seizures any who and also my parents are now abusive to me when im near them and my family generally hates me

Do you mean you were in a coma for about half a year because you posted in October 2023,? Sorry to hear about your failure. Someone found you or your method just wasn't good enough?

 

[Abyssal]

I hate to be suspicious like this, I'm sure if you are telling the truth that this may hurt your feelings, but this doesn't line up with my idea of the Night-Night method. Could you tell us more about the brain damage? Anything you can tell us about how you failed?