Becoming more mentally stable tl ctb

[divinemistress87]

Anyone else trying to become more mentally stable just so they can be able to plan to ctb more effectively?

 

[Bear1234]

Yup lol figuring out that its better to just try to stay neutral and not think about the stuff Im leaving behind like family/friends, small joys but rather the relief of what I won't have to deal with anymore. And theres so much I won't have to deal with if I CTB.

 

[Fakefriendhate_Maxx]

Did you try antidepressants already ? This worked for me and helped me to combat my depression, combat my melancholy and significantly increase my motivation. In particular, the more modern SSRI and SNRI antidepressants, that are nowadays usually prescribed can (proven) increase suicidal behavior, especially at the beginning of treatment. Could be something for you. Are you in treatment somewhere? c:
Is alcohol perhaps an option ? I need alcohol to deal with the guilt I feel towards my family and friends, and to plan exactly when, where and how I do it. Will need drugs or alc too when writing my farewell letter. Didn't began yet unfortunately...
Btw. one can be suicidal without beeing depressed - think about it.

 

[divinemistress87]

Did you try antidepressants already ? This worked for me and helped me to combat my depression, combat my melancholy and significantly increase my motivation. In particular, the more modern SSRI and SNRI antidepressants, that are nowadays usually prescribed can (proven) increase suicidal behavior, especially at the beginning of treatment. Could be something for you. Are you in treatment somewhere? c:
Is alcohol perhaps an option ? I need alcohol to deal with the guilt I feel towards my family and friends, and to plan exactly when, where and how I do it. Will need drugs or alc too when writing my farewell letter. Didn't began yet unfortunately...
Btw. one can be suicidal without beeing depressed - think about it.

I've been on a tons of different antidepressants. The new one is just giving me more energy lol. Alcohol is great until the hangover the next day

 

[LostSoul1965]

Anyone else trying to become more mentally stable just so they can be able to plan to ctb more effectively?

Yes! Energy too. I feel so mentally and physically drained all the time.

 

[divinemistress87]

Yes! Energy too. I feel so mentally and physically drained all the time.

Same!

 

[mexican_patty]

I am trying every day, but I can't stop thinking it's useless if I'm CTB anyway.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Oh the irony.

 

[Fakefriendhate_Maxx]

Hmmm... then it's better to plan your scd step-by-step. All at once is too much, especially for your own death. I think, iwill do so... Every day or every week a little bit.

 

[Ligottian]

I've always read that when you finally make up your mind to CTB, you become more calm and stable. Are you ready to check out? I must say, if your icon is really you,, you are a beautiful woman.

Best wishes whatever you plans.

 

[divinemistress87]

I've always read that when you finally make up your mind to CTB, you become more calm and stable. Are you ready to check out? I must say, if your icon is really you,, you are a beautiful woman.

Best wishes whatever your plans,

Thats Lagertha from tv show Vikings :)

 

[tsykoais]

it's actually the best way to do that. suicide is a decision that should be very heavily thought out and planned out so you don't end up with things like brain damage, permanant disability/disfigurement, or being forcefully locked up in some mental institution.

 

[divinemistress87]

it's actually the best way to do that. suicide is a decision that should be very heavily thought out and planned out so you don't end up with things like brain damage, permanant disability/disfigurement, or being forcefully locked up in some mental institution.

Exactly and especially with Sn takes so much prep work