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You'll just put yourself through another unnecessary suffering in the form of addiction. You're already suffering, why increase it and lose your mind in a mad world that already tries to steal your sanity. Your sanity and self-control are some the most important things to hold on, or else you'll just get lost in this world.

It's not worth it.
 
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saomao

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Jun 12, 2019
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You'll just put yourself through another unnecessary suffering in the form of addiction. You're already suffering, why increase it and lose your mind in a mad world that already tries to steal your sanity. Your sanity and self-control are some the most important things to hold on, or else you'll just get lost in this world.

It's not worth it.
Bcs I'm already lost my sanity, my self, my sleep, my brain, my life,my future, my health, my peace of mind, my dignity, my job, my body, my happiness, I'm suffering more than a junkie without be one and bcs I can't defeat si but heroin can
 
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Aug 17, 2018
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Bcs I'm already lost my sanity, my self, my sleep, my brain, my life,my future, my health, my peace of mind, my dignity, my job, my body, my happiness, I'm suffering more than a junkie without be one and bcs I can't defeat si but heroin can
Your post actually makes me think..
I can't defeat my SI neither and I'm horrified at the idea of growing old, having dementia, etc...I'm still young now, my lifestyle is very healthy, which might mean I will prolong this shitty life....
Maybe I should start smoking or smth... Maybe drugs later... I would like to self-destruct somehow before I become very old. I mean old age is like a prolonged agony anyway..why not just shorten it, right?
 
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saomao

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Your post actually makes me think..
I can't defeat my SI neither and I'm horrified at the idea of growing old, having dementia, etc...I'm still young now, my lifestyle is very healthy, which might mean I will prolong this shitty life....
Maybe I should start smoking or smth... Maybe drugs later... I would like to self-destruct somehow before I become very old. I mean old age is like a prolonged agony anyway..why not just shorten it, right?
If you are healthy why to do that?
 
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Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
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If you are healthy why to do that?
To shorten my life.
Let's say '-' means a neutral year or period of time and '*' means a period of time filled with suffering.

1. Normal life:
------*---*---*----*---*-------*----*-*-*-*-*-******* (sickness associated with old age and death)

2.Life when getting sick as an adult (with terminal illness):
---*--*--*-*-***** (sickness and death)

3.Ideally it would be this:
-------* (suicide)

or even better:
4. Not existing


But given that I have a high SI... wouldn't nr 2 make sense?
The only exception would be if the suffering caused by a terminal illness would be of higher intensity than that caused by a slow natural 'healthy' death. A big unknown.
 
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Uh, why would you instantly kys after 1 period of 'suffering'?

Maybe because they'd be so wise to know that the next time they suffer will be a lot worse and they choose to avoid that. I wish I was that wise.
Would have CTB in elementary school.
 

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