Venting because I tried to die

[meiherasoru_]

The only time I try ctb was when I was 14 years old,The last straw was when they broke up with me and I got really depressed, so one day I couldn't take it anymore and I tried to... well, die. I tried to hang myself, but I untied myself in the end because I chickened out. Nobody knows this except for a friend I haven't spoken to in a long time
Sometimes I think about doing it again, but I'm stopped by the fact that I'll probably rot in hell with my grandfather
Besides, deep down, I'm afraid of dying. I don't know what will happen if I try to do that again. Will I go to heaven with my cousins, or will I go to hell with my grandfather idk
I don't want to think about that either, to be honest.

 

[eternalpace]

I don't want to turn this into a religious forum… but I will suggest that if you're worried about going to hell because of your suicide, I would suggest that all sins are forgiven and CTBing won't send you to hell.

Again, not trying to promote religion… I just don't like seeing people worry needlessly about CTBing.