FreedAtLast
Member
- Apr 12, 2022
- 6
Been suicidal for a whole decade now, each time I got close to going through with it I ended up backing out cause I was still holding on to a sliver of hope. Not anymore.
I'm finally at an ideal situation that I can easily do it without being found. I can spend days, even a week home alone without seeing a single person and I can easily afford the method (SN). My mother already had meto in the cabinet too so I'm more than ready.
I just ordered SN for the second time. The first time a few months ago, the delivery process was becoming too complicated and I was having second thoughts since the situation I was in wasn't ideal for me to do it anyway so I ended up telling them to return it.
My reasons to ctb are just being tired of existence and all the bad things that come along with it. And now understanding that no matter how hard I try to improve my life the void will always be there (unless I was completely brainwashed into thinking all this is amazing, makes sense and has a purpose)
Catching the bus to nonexistence either this weekend or next week when I have everything ready and the timing feels right.
I'm finally at an ideal situation that I can easily do it without being found. I can spend days, even a week home alone without seeing a single person and I can easily afford the method (SN). My mother already had meto in the cabinet too so I'm more than ready.
I just ordered SN for the second time. The first time a few months ago, the delivery process was becoming too complicated and I was having second thoughts since the situation I was in wasn't ideal for me to do it anyway so I ended up telling them to return it.
My reasons to ctb are just being tired of existence and all the bad things that come along with it. And now understanding that no matter how hard I try to improve my life the void will always be there (unless I was completely brainwashed into thinking all this is amazing, makes sense and has a purpose)
Catching the bus to nonexistence either this weekend or next week when I have everything ready and the timing feels right.