Back from Hospital

[M0nolith]

Hello, this is my first time on here in the past month. I had gone to my therapist and actually opened up about my feelings. Where did that get me? Thrown right into the mental hospital where they continued to push stupid "lessons" and coping skills on me. I don't believe it will help, and in turn it probably won't. My psychiatrist then told me that he wouldn't discharge me unless I did 3-6 weeks of group therapy, 4 hours a day. Holy shit, it has been the most boring and tedious process. I believe I still have a week to go and the place hasn't taught me anything that I didn't already know.

Only thing that has changed is my medication, and that I'm no longer abusing xanax.

I still have the same mindset and same beliefs. I don't understand why they won't just let me have peace. It's my life, I should be able to choose what I want to do with it. Especially if living is so painful and uncomfortable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Hospitals sound like awful prisons to me, I would always see it as being a bad idea being so open about wanting to die as sadly we exist in a society that punishes suicidal people by locking them up, it's really so inhumane how there's a lack of acceptance towards the right to die but sadly it's just the reality. None of us should have to suffer against our wishes, we are all destined for nothing and nowhere but to die anyway so we should always have the right to choose when we leave.

 

[Darkover]

psych wards are terrible place to be i was last in one in 2018-2019 for 6 months, all we did was take cocaine and weed the whole time i was there thats how i got introduced to cocaine was in a psych ward