Attempting to CBT today

[lwlaiet8887]

Hello, I'm finally attempting to CTB and I should be successful. I'm planning on either boofing or injecting the 1.5 of heroin I have. Too tired to write a long post but obviously if I don't keep an update then I'm gone. Eating some food and then cooking up what I have. There's no one around to revive me so if all goes well I will die in relative peace. It's a cold fucking day and I've had enough of my body, mediocrity, and boredom with my life.

I apologise to anyone I unfairy insulted on here I'm just a miserable cunt who hates life.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

I wish you the best of luck and a peaceful journey.

 

[avaruus]

Make sure to inject the heroin quickly, i've heard that people pass out before they manage to inject it all.
Goodluck :)

 

[haibane]

Goodluck and i hope u will find peace

 

[fadedAnon]

i'm so sorry that your life has come up to this moment hope you have a peacefully journey But if you have a change of heart remember you are not alone

 

[lwlaiet8887]

I'm probably going to boof it because I suck at IV. I've heard that if you're unsuccessful it can potentially turn you into a vegetable but I'm unbothered at this point. I've tried every service I could possibly have for help and don't see much happiness in my future. I'm absolutely distasfied with life. May take me an hour or two before I update again since I want to eat and clean some shit beforehand.

I will update with a screenshot when I'm ready.

 

[cscott]

Hello, I'm finally attempting to CTB and I should be successful. I'm planning on either boofing or injecting the 1.5 of heroin I have. Too tired to write a long post but obviously if I don't keep an update then I'm gone. Eating some food and then cooking up what I have. There's no one around to revive me so if all goes well I will die in relative peace. It's a cold fucking day and I've had enough of my body, mediocrity, and boredom with my life.

Be free like the wind. I look for tomo or weekend

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, best of luck with your plans.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck! I hope you find peace! Safe travels.

 

[Stormy Raine]

I completely understand your desire to end your suffering. I hope your plan goes well and you are finally at peace Thanks for leaving us a blueprint of this goes well. Like someone already stated, if you change your mind, we will be here either way!

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish on your journey.

 

[not_telling]

Hope you have a comfortable ride, and that you find your peace. Best of luck, OP.

 

[lwlaiet8887]

Sup. I'm administrating it now. I've said pretty much everything I wanted to say about myself on here so if you're curious enough look through my profile you can learn about me if that interests you. Hopefully I die since I've had more than enough of this trudging through the mud. Bit tragic really as I wish things could've been different but they weren't!
Can feel it doing things I'm a bit sedated.
My stomach is swirling and I'm a bit sedated. If I somehow survive this then I'm taking it a sign to soldier on
Taking a smaller dose I made as a back up
My heart rate is increasing and I'm feeling very sedated.
Very fast heart rate and relaxing sedation
Lots of euphoria and I'm feeling sleepy. I have some opiate tolerance so there's some potential for me to survive. Heart is racing like crazy and I'm stuck flat on my bed.
Lots of euphoria and I'm feeling sleepy. I have some opiate tolerance so there's some potential for me to survive. Heart is racing like crazy and I'm stuck flat on my bed. Mild stomach pain

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A lot of people thought I was exegariging about the state of my body so here's a picture of me. It has been fucking awful being constantly cold, boney, physically weak and having the body on old man at 21 yo, nothing fits me, people treat me like shit. Not sure if I'm going to die the symptoms are persisting. It's mostly just mild euphoria and sedation. My hips are extremly narrow, I have no ass, my bones are very thin, I can barely gain weight without literally spilling over. Physical labour hurts and I bruise very easily. I was healthy my whole life I just have fucked genetics. I'm a healthy weight also. The link is set to auto expire so no worries about that.

 

[avaruus]

How are you feeling now? Did you take it all?

 

[lwlaiet8887]

How are you feeling now? Did you take it all?

Yes I'm just very sedated with a slight buzz. I don't know of it's actually going to kill me. I hears that some of it turns to morphine if boofed so that's a possibility. I took just over 1.5 grams and cooked and administrated it very well. I've IVD successfully before but my whole forearm swelled up so I think I'd rather take the more peaceful option. I'm one of those people with a very high drug tolerance naturally so in not sure if it'll be enough but I bought the highest quality H I could think. It's pure and uncut stuff from Afgahn.


If it does kill me then this is an extremly peaceful way to die.

 

[avaruus]

Yes I'm just very sedated. I don't know of it's actually going to kill me. I hears that some of it turns to morphine if boofed so that's a possibility. I took just over 1.5 grams and cooked and administrated it very well.

That is a very heavy dose even with tolerance, it should atleast make you pass out.
Anyways, fingers crossed! :)


Is your heroin #3 or #4 by the way? i wonder if that makes a difference

 

[FilthyFlint]

Towards the horizons we all shall go, one more departure from a seeker of peace

 

[lwlaiet8887]

I may be fine but right now I'm very sedated I have very high drug tolerance. I can akak down psychedelics, alcohol, benzos, with little to no repercussions and I only weight 60k as of recent

 

[mushroommamma]

Good look pioneer. See ya at the BS on the other side

 

[lwlaiet8887]

Becoming more sedated and listening to this gem

 

[avaruus]

Becoming more sedated and listening to this gem

That is a banger, that is indeed a fitting song for leaving this existence.

 

[lwlaiet8887]

Becoming sleeper and more disorientated.


Losing my train of thought. If anyone has some question please do ask me as it may be last time on here and I'd like to speak with some people.
I'm hallucinating a bit

 

[avaruus]

Still here?
How are you feeling, are you nauseous?

 

[lwlaiet8887]

Ask me somethings please. I'm gradually becoming slower, it's harder to breathe, and I'm hallucinating.
#

Still here?
How are you feeling, are you nauseous?

Yes I am.

 

[avaruus]

Ask me somethings please. I'm gradually becoming slower, it's harder to breathe, and I'm hallucinating.
#
Yes I am.

Atleast it's working :)
do you believe in afterlife of any kind?

 

[SpiritualDeath]

Are you still here?
Hope you don't experience too much discomfort and may you find peace.

 

[nicotine_goblin]

Good luck man, i hope everything works out as planned or that you at least don't have any major consequences

 

[Clasrink]

Goodbye and goodluck

 

[avaruus]

I hope you're at peace now.

 

[lwlaiet8887]

Still here just way harder to concentrate at all and am very sedated.