I was wondering if anyone had any advice for dealing with aftermath of attempte ctb.
In the past two months I've had two attempted ctb (and a half hearted one). The harm from them I was able to deal with discreetly and no one knows about them. Right after my latest attempt I phoned three people - and no one picked up. Since my latest attempt I've had an odd feeling about it, like it's weird that I tried to do that yet no one in my life knows. Contemplating how different things could be currently if either had succeeded. Seems I'm always just waiting for my next attempt to succeed.
I would like to ask- how did you feel after failed attempts? Any wisdom or knowledge abou coming to terms with failed ctb? Or the inability to talk to others about it?
Thank you x
In the past two months I've had two attempted ctb (and a half hearted one). The harm from them I was able to deal with discreetly and no one knows about them. Right after my latest attempt I phoned three people - and no one picked up. Since my latest attempt I've had an odd feeling about it, like it's weird that I tried to do that yet no one in my life knows. Contemplating how different things could be currently if either had succeeded. Seems I'm always just waiting for my next attempt to succeed.
I would like to ask- how did you feel after failed attempts? Any wisdom or knowledge abou coming to terms with failed ctb? Or the inability to talk to others about it?
Thank you x
