Help attempted CTB; alternative methods for weak heart

[girlsfoodgear]

hey all,

i attempted to CTB in march by taking a pretty hefty overdose of sleeping pills (diphenhydramine) and antidepressants (fluoxetine) washed down with wine. almost succeeded, i had a heart attack and seizure but was taken away by paramedics called by my partner before the medicine could do its thing.

just wondering if there are any relatively similar methods i could use next time, that take advantage of the fact that i have a weak heart due to illnesses/addictions? i was unaware of everything during that time, even whilst i was conscious, so i'd like something reliable that could potentially be played off as a result of my anorexia or as an accidental drug overdose and make me blissfully numb to everything happening. i just want to sleep. (UK hospitals/MH services are a joke btw, they let me discharge myself immediately after this lol - not that i wanted the help but god damn is it difficult to accept that nobody does actually care)

i do like the idea of SN but i currently have no place i could get it delivered to that wouldn't be intercepted. i'd rather leave as little trace as possible - i get my antidepressants on prescription and sleeping pills OTC at the same time, so it seemed quite easy, but i need something to hit quicker to reduce the chances of being found.

maybe this is a cry for help as well, but having lurked here for a while before posting, i know i'm understood here.

 

[mehdone]

It surprises me that you came close with that combination.
The ld50 of diphenhydramine is ridiculously high, and an overdose is generally very unlikely to succeed.

If one already had a heart issue, depending on what it was, stimulants would probably be the way to go- but still, unlikely. Medications that most of us have access to are just not likely to do the trick. Some hard drugs like fentanyl will, but, this is not a thing you buy in a local drug store- but could be played off as an accidental OD.

 

[girlsfoodgear]

It surprises me that you came close with that combination.
The ld50 of diphenhydramine is ridiculously high, and an overdose is generally very unlikely to succeed.

If one already had a heart issue, depending on what it was, stimulants would probably be the way to go- but still, unlikely. Medications that most of us have access to are just not likely to do the trick. Some hard drugs like fentanyl will, but, this is not a thing you buy in a local drug store- but could be played off as an accidental OD.

i think the sleeping tablets just knocked me out for all of it; it was the antidepressants that caused the heart attack, coupled with a daily-use cocaine addiction and damage to my heart from anorexia. i'd considered a coke OD, but my tolerance is so high that idk if it'd do as well as expected.

 

[Scythe]

If avaliable try yew poisoning, it's mostly painless and the cause of death would be cardic arrest. I tried it before, but I got a low dosage so I failed. It's not an ideal time to try it though, the yew bush is more poisonous during winter months. You need to simmer it for 30 minutes, then boil it with a ~15% alcohol to water solution.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

caffeine poisoning?

 

[tpboy]

you need the china white if you can source it.

 

[derpyderpins]

I'm thinking of throwing everything at it at once. Fluoxetine, buproprion, ritalin, sleeping pills, alcohol... Pass out face up so I'd choke on the vomit... Maybe wedge myself in so I can't roll over.

Gunshot is right there and easy... Just don't want to leave a mess or be disfigured. I'd rather fuck up my insides if I'm going to fail.