At what age in your life were you happiest and by how long have you survived this period?

[noctiva]

As the title says:
At what part in your life where you happiest? How did the happiness end?
By how much time have you survived/ do you plan to survive this period in life?

For me, I was at my happiest between 31 and 33. Never knew what I missed before, so I was blissfully ignorant and survived at life, but between 31 and 33 I was truly alive, which was taken away from me and now I am being forced to adjust to mere survival again. But I can't survive anymore, knowing what being alive felt like.
So far, I've survived by 8 weeks, I have minimal hope left for the future I desire so I will stick around a bit more, but I am prepared and ready to go, gotten everything needed and I am mentally prepared.

How about you?

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I think ages 18-22 was my happiest time. I was in a happy relationship, in college no real adult responsibility yet. I had so much potential and the everything going for me. I had mental problems but nothing like I have now and my physical health problems had not started yet. I had also not gone thru most of the horrific abuse and trauma yet. I was also happy as a child until age 12 purely out of "ignorance is bliss". As a child I was so unaware of how cruel the world is.

It has been almost 6 years since I have been truly happy. I honestly can't believe I have lasted this long. I kept thinking it will get better and things will change but it never did it only got worse. And now my last hope that I had has left me.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Has to be when I was a kid. Maybe 7? Idk but it was in my childhood.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

Has to be when I was a kid. Maybe 7? Idk but it was in my childhood.

Me too but I know it did not last for long.....

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

My happiest time was until the age of 12. Maybe 14, that's when I still had hope. So 6-8 years ago.

 

[Ko9]

I think it must be pre-preschool so maybe 2? I guess 16 was okay when I had a couple of ''friends'' and fucked off from my parents house.

 

[Sweet Release]

There was a time when I was 20 when everything seemed so wonderful!
I had finally gotten over past trauma and I won an award at college!

It wasn't long before I suffered my first psychotic episode though and fucked everything up.
Still 20 was a good age.

 

[Astral316]

I was 8 in '96 when I still had friends, close family, a thin body... I played sports, super Nintendo and Gameboy were epic, idolized Sting in WCW, went to the beach twice a year, etc. I had a lot of potential. I fell far short of it in the following two decades, though.

 

[Sweet Release]

I was 8 in '96 when I still had friends, close family, a thin body... I played sports, super Nintendo and Gameboy were epic, idolized Sting in WCW, went to the beach twice a year, etc. I had a lot of potential. I fell far short of it in the following two decades, though.

I am sorry that you haven't been able to to realise your potential.
Yeah there are lots of things I thought I would do with my life too but I don't think any of thats going to happen now.
I don't mean to be making this about me I am just saying that I can relate to what your saying.

 

[notjustyetagain]

i was at my happiest aged 4-6. truly carefree, discovering the piano, my parents hadn't hit their alcoholic nadirs. it's been 30 years. everything changed when i was 6 and i was never the same again. conversely, my worst time was at the end of my alcoholic years ~10 years ago. just horrific. i can't relate to either period now, and i'm grateful.

 

[Mr2005]

Was happiest up to and including the age of seventeen then made a terrible decision that cost me six years and been living with it for nearly ten. Come next year that was half my life ago. I don't really know if I want to see it or if there's any point

 

[Empty Smile]

I think from 3 or 4, up until I was 11, it was a pretty decent life. As a little kid I would always be outside in the dirt, playing with my little cars. Once I hit 12 or 13, it all changed. Had very few friends, was alone most the time, and as my mid teen years arrived, depression and anxiety kicked in and it's been downhill ever since.

 

[Moonicide]

16-17?
I had my first love, which was so intoxicating at the time as first loves go.
I was still inspired, creative, hopeful about the future. I even wanted to go to an art school, dabbled in graphic + web design.
There was so much youth and life there, you know?
All of that is gone.

 

[lizinha]

5-10
11 is when I started to self harm and 12 was when my suicidal thoughts crept in.

 

[Arvind]

missing any happiness since 2017

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Probably around the age of 25-26. Everything in life just sort of clicked around that time for me. It's been a steady decline since then with few things slowing it down.

Now I'm at my lowest point in life. But it can always get worse and it probably will. So I'm sure if I survive much longer I'll look back on today and be like "I remember the good old days."

 

[Vanity]

prior to turning 9
Now im doing better,not good by any stretch of the imagition but better.

 

[ninthhokage]

I would say my childhood up until 12 years old. I was so happy and full of life. I wish I could go back to those days.

 

[FaceToFloor]

Up to 11-12 for me as well. At least in elementary school I had a few real-life friends, after that not one. It was a pretty huge difference between being able to hang out at least sometimes and being in my room all day after school.

 

[Woodnote]

I can't remember ever feeling truly happy. But yet I'm still here hoping someday I'll feel it.

 

[134340]

I was happiest between September 2018 - July 2019 (20-21). I don't know why exactly, I just felt good. I felt alive, like my existence meant something. I wasn't self harming or thinking about dying hardly at all. For some reason, around early August of this year, that all imploded and I went back to a place worse than I've ever been. I've only outlasted that by about 4 months.

 

[Now_And_Then]

From when I was born until I was about eleven


After that hell broke loose

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

When I was about 5-6. Definitely before 7.
I had a normal childhood up to that point - loving parents, living in my country, preparing for my school, everything was as it should have been.
At the age of somewhat-below-7 my father sold all of our belongings, his parents, his everything, and we moved to Israel because he happened to be a Jew.
Everything went to shit from then and onwards.

 

[Bumblebee]

From 20-24 i met my fiance and he gave me the best four years of my life. The happiest memories that i needed.its a shame he didnt meet me like 4 years earlier because maybe it would of been early enough to have saved me

 

[Wayfaerer]

In all of my adulthood? Either the first 4 months of being 18 or the spring of last year which lasted approximately 2 months. Other than that? Before I was 12 and even moreso before I was 8.

 

[throwaway123]

I can't remember ever feeling truly happy. But yet I'm still here hoping someday I'll feel it.

This.

 

[StillWaiting]

Never achieved anything in my life.
Didn't care about everything until I become depressed

 

[Unsurebaker]

21. Came crashing down a year or so later in October 2018. Shame since he was the reason I wasn't sad, depressed, suicidal for the first time in my life. Now I find myself here. Worse than before. Fuck him.

 

[MissNietzsche]

The only year I was happy was year 13. Before that, I was bullied at school. After that, my eating disorder had progressed too much and I was fat. I've been suicidal since 17; I'm 21 now. I have no idea how long I have. Could be weeks..could be decades..

 

[NitriteAnatomy]

What is this 'happiness' you all speak of? Is it magic?