IQLESS
Member
- Oct 25, 2021
- 23
At times I really ask myself 'Am I clinically insane?'. I am an extremely horrible person, so save your sympathies. I have questioned if I am a narcissist or a sociopath, but honestly I don't care at this point.
Just about a week ago I told my mother I would kill her and that I was going to put a bullet into her brain with a glock and also said more horrible shit. The reason for this? She cared for my well-being. Yes you heard me, I did this simply out of being annoyed and I haven't apologized since. I continue to blissfully live off her money and in her house. I really thought about killing her, I thought about what would come afterwards. I thought about being put into prison or a psych ward and what my friends and other family would think of me.
I just have so much hate welling up inside me. I hate everyone. I tell suicidal people to kill themselves because I want to for no reason, I manipulate people for self-gain, I do horrible shit to engrave it into myself how bad I am. I'm fucking rotten and from every forum I have posted this kind of shit I have gotten only validation. You keep telling me you are sorry for my mental state, why? Despite lack of empathy I still have some, I have loving friends and parents that people would kill for. Tell me I am shit, bring me down to earth, you fuckers can't keep consoling me, It's sick, the shit I just told you is like 1/10 of the absolute revolting shit I do. I need to be put down like a rabid dog, I'm unpredictable. I could do whatever the fuck because this world is like a video-game to me and I'm begging to die. Who fucking knows what I'll do, I could shoot up a school, I could rob a bank, fucking tell me I am horrible and that you hate existing on the same planet as me. Don't tell me that you are sorry you sick fucks, I'm disgusting in every way possible. Beg for a creature such as me to be sent to hell. I don't deserve anything good yet I feel sorry for myself. I hate myself so much and I hate everything. Fuck this shitty world, I hope everything suffers and burns.
Just about a week ago I told my mother I would kill her and that I was going to put a bullet into her brain with a glock and also said more horrible shit. The reason for this? She cared for my well-being. Yes you heard me, I did this simply out of being annoyed and I haven't apologized since. I continue to blissfully live off her money and in her house. I really thought about killing her, I thought about what would come afterwards. I thought about being put into prison or a psych ward and what my friends and other family would think of me.
I just have so much hate welling up inside me. I hate everyone. I tell suicidal people to kill themselves because I want to for no reason, I manipulate people for self-gain, I do horrible shit to engrave it into myself how bad I am. I'm fucking rotten and from every forum I have posted this kind of shit I have gotten only validation. You keep telling me you are sorry for my mental state, why? Despite lack of empathy I still have some, I have loving friends and parents that people would kill for. Tell me I am shit, bring me down to earth, you fuckers can't keep consoling me, It's sick, the shit I just told you is like 1/10 of the absolute revolting shit I do. I need to be put down like a rabid dog, I'm unpredictable. I could do whatever the fuck because this world is like a video-game to me and I'm begging to die. Who fucking knows what I'll do, I could shoot up a school, I could rob a bank, fucking tell me I am horrible and that you hate existing on the same planet as me. Don't tell me that you are sorry you sick fucks, I'm disgusting in every way possible. Beg for a creature such as me to be sent to hell. I don't deserve anything good yet I feel sorry for myself. I hate myself so much and I hate everything. Fuck this shitty world, I hope everything suffers and burns.