princeseadove
wannabe angel
- Mar 4, 2025
- 87
I can't breathe right now. I'm crying and crying befause I can't die. I can die, vit it's for another 7 months. 7 months vs 30-50 years of more pain is a steal. Like it's a good deal. But right now I can't handle it, I have been boiling up, so upset. I can't handle lies anymor I can't handle being ghosted and treated like this iver and iver and iver sgsin OF COURSE I DONT FUCKING TRUST YOU. YOU LIED AND LIED AND LIED. AND YOURE SICK OF ME. OH MY HOR. I am tired of feeling this way I genuinely need to die I need to pass away. I can't handle it. I can't I cannot. I won't be getting any help, who has the patience to handle à socially awkward autistic person w so many issues I can't. I can't true abyone anymore. I can't I cannnot. Lied again and again. It's the same consistency. I AM TIRED. Okay. Okay. I am tired. I don't want anymore promises I don't want anymore gifts or apologies, YOU DDINT EVEN FUCKING CARE ABOUT APOLOGIZING ANSEL U DIDNT. Just keeping it all in to please everybody else befause nobody wants a Debby downer or a negative Nancy I still want to have company even if there is no kove. I still want to be kind and make people smile even if they don't care about me. Everybody knows I am going to kill myself, and nobody cares anymore so I don't want anyone to mourn me I want to go awsy. I just want all this pain and ugliness to go away. I want it all to go away. I want it all. I can't talk about my feelings, I can't talk about what's inside. It's all lies its all lies it's all lies there is no improvement ethers is no hope. There is nothing for me at the end, it's just detahX death. Is what I need. I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I cannot PLEASE GOD PLEASE JUST KILL ME. I don't want anyone to mourn me PLEASE I DONT WANT YOY TO MOURN ME
