I discovered ASMR after some traumatic stuff happened in 2016, stuff that also open old wounds. I found it helped me physically to get through it.
Now, though, as things seem to get worse, I ...how do I put it...I use it as a substitute for a peaceful pill. It lulls me to relaxation and loss of consciousness into a deep sleep. I even imagine that they're whispering me to sleep forever, especially as the whispers get quiter and quieter, and I can barely hear the voice anymore. A pity it doesn't work like that, but if I can't go to sleep and not wake up forever now, ASMR is like a consolation prize.