Story Ascension

[Viro_Major]

What about life ?

(Not meaning about hassling work)

(Neither about studies you couldn't finish)

 

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As due, as giving back after members who contributed to put me in the right track of believing with openness : @Sensei @dandan @Quarky00 @Aap @Brick In The Wall @Jumper Geo @BleuNuit @K-O @BlackPoppet
Here's a summary of some of the usages of most of natural and legal ingredients, so readers can get derive some inspiration with ideas.
Some will react at these tracks by considering them gimmicks, but you'd be oh so wrong. This route is really a pandora box. When you open it, it becomes fascinating how these left behind components that exist around us in different states can make the difference, not only about one symptom but generally towards multiple health systems at once.
As always, due your own diligence and never follow guidances blindly.

NB: if addressing your condition isn't listed, you shall research it cause there are likely several solutions at disposal, for what they're worth to explore

NB2: might compile a similar list but for mild, barely if at all harmful (if disciplined consumption) illegal stuff (only magic truffles/shrooms are here present), once I develop some experience. For now, I consider myself a rookie in the field

edit: I don't know why some links extends with a snapshot and others don't when they appear to be the same type. I formated the resistant data (noticing limitations) like I could.

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Alpha-GPC (Choline precursor)
Acetylcholine Supplements: Benefits, Side Effects, and Types
What Is Choline? An Essential Nutrient With Many Benefits


Aromatherapy with essential oil of lavender
Lavender Essential Oil for Sleep: How Effective?
Lavender for Sleep: How to Get Quality Shut-Eye, Naturally: How to Get Quality Shut-Eye, Naturally
A Love Letter to Lavender

Ashwaghanda

9 Proven Health Benefits of Ashwagandha

Ashwagandha is a medicinal herb that has been shown to have powerful health benefits. This article reviews 9 evidence-based benefits of ashwagandha.

www.healthline.com

What are the benefits of ashwagandha?
Drink "Moon Milk" with Ashwagandha At Night to Lower Stress, Improve Sleep
Does Ashwagandha Improve Thyroid Health?
Ashwagandha Dosage: How Much Should You Take per Day?


Bacopa Monnieri / Brahmi
7 Emerging Benefits of Bacopa monnieri (Brahmi)
Herbal Remedies for ADHD


Berberine

Berberine — a Powerful Supplement with Many Benefits

Berberine is a compound extracted from several plants. It has many health benefits and may help protect against several chronic conditions.

www.healthline.com

4 Natural Supplements That Are as Powerful as Drugs

Some supplements can have powerful effects. Here is a list of 4 natural supplements that are just as effective as pharmaceutical drugs.

www.healthline.com

Bioperine / Piperine (black pepper extract)

11 Science-Backed Health Benefits of Black Pepper

Black pepper is more than just a kitchen staple and may offer various beneficial effects. Here are 11 science-backed health benefits of black pepper.

www.healthline.com

Is Black Pepper Good for You, or Bad? Nutrition, Uses, and More

Sometimes called the "king of spices," black pepper has been a culinary staple for thousands of years. This article takes a look at black pepper, including its benefits, side effects, and culinary uses.

www.healthline.com

11 Science-Backed Health Benefits of Black Pepper

Black pepper is more than just a kitchen staple and may offer various beneficial effects. Here are 11 science-backed health benefits of black pepper.

www.healthline.com

Why Turmeric and Black Pepper Is a Powerful Combination

Turmeric and black pepper each have anti-inflammatory and disease-fighting qualities. This article tells you why combining turmeric and black pepper enhances these effects.

www.healthline.com

Cold shower

Cold Shower Benefits for Your Health

www.healthline.com

Cold Shower for Anxiety: Research, Efficacy, and More

If you’ve ever wondered if a cold shower can relieve anxiety, the answer is maybe. We’ll discuss the research.

www.healthline.com

Cold Shower for Testosterone: Facts and Myths of Cold Showers

Cold showers aren't necessarily going to change your life with the turn of a faucet. Learn about the true and unproven benefits of cold showers, such as the claim that it can boost testosterone in men.

www.healthline.com

Contrast shower
Cold Showers vs. Hot Showers: Which One Is Better?

Fenugreek
Fenugreek: An Herb with Impressive Health Benefits
Fenugreek for Breast Milk: How This Magical Herb May Help With Supply
Can Fenugreek Boost Your Testosterone Levels?
Diabetes: Can Fenugreek Lower My Blood Sugar?
Are Fenugreek Seeds Good for Your Hair?


Garlic
11 Proven Health Benefits of Garlic
Foods with Healing Power: The Benefits of Garlic
What Are the Uses, Benefits, and Side Effects of Garlic and Honey?
4 Natural Supplements That Are as Powerful as Drugs
How Garlic Fights Colds and The Flu
8 Tips to Get Rid of Garlic and Onion Breath


Ginkgo Biloba
12 Benefits of Ginkgo Biloba (Plus Side Effects & Dosage)
Ginkgo Biloba: Health Benefits, Uses, and Risks
10 Home Remedies for Vertigo
Herbal Remedies for ADHD
Ancient Answers to Erectile Dysfunction


Gotu Kola
Everything You Need to Know About Gotu Kola
Herbal Remedies for ADHD
Gotu Kola: The Cure for Varicose Veins?
Have Dry, Sensitive Skin? Cica Cream Will Be Your New Favorite Skin Care Product


L-Citrulline (L-Arginine precursor)
Should You Take Citrulline Supplements?
L-arginine: Benefits, Dosage, Side Effects, and More
L-Arginine to increase sperm count and semen volume: reviews & benefits

5 Reasons Why L-Arginine Improves Fertility in Men and Women

Why L-Arginine supplementation is suggested to improve fertility in both men and women. From improving sperm and egg health, to increased libido and more...

natural-fertility-info.com

5 Ways Nitric Oxide Supplements Boost Your Health and Performance
5 Ways to Increase Nitric Oxide Naturally
Are L-Citrulline Supplements a Safe Treatment for Erectile Dysfunction?
4 Watermelon Rind Benefits


L-Theanine

What You Should Know About the Benefits and Risks of L-Theanine

Studies suggest that L-Theanine may improve sleep and reduce and anxiety, but before trying it, learn its possible benefits and risks.

www.healthline.com

Bipolar Disorder and L-Theanine

www.healthline.com

Nutmeg
8 Science-Backed Benefits of Nutmeg
Can You Get High on Nutmeg? Why This Isn't a Good Idea
Nutmeg vs. Tree Nuts: What's the Difference?
Drink "Moon Milk" with Ashwagandha At Night to Lower Stress, Improve Sleep

Omega 3 EPA & DHA (vegan source available as algae oil)

What Are Omega-3 Fatty Acids? Explained in Simple Terms

Omega-3 fatty acids are healthy fats that you must get from your diet. They have various important roles in your body and provide many health benefits.

www.healthline.com

17 Science-Based Benefits of Omega-3 Fatty Acids

Omega-3 fatty acids are incredibly important for your body and brain. This article lists 17 science-based health benefits of omega-3s.

www.healthline.com

How Omega-3 Fish Oil Affects Your Brain and Mental Health

While fish oil is typically praised for its benefits for heart health, it also has incredible effects on brain and mental health. Here's all you need to know about omega-3 fish oil's benefits for your brain.

www.healthline.com

12 Foods That Are Very High in Omega-3

Omega-3 fatty acids are incredibly important for health, and it’s best to get them from whole foods. Try these 12 foods that are high in omega-3.

www.healthline.com

Panax Ginseng
7 Proven Health Benefits of Ginseng
Korean Red Ginseng for Erectile Dysfunction
Supplements for Fibromyalgia

Propolis (bee glue)

The Benefits and Uses of Propolis

Propolis is a compound produced by bees thought to fight infections, heal wounds, and more. Learn how it’s used and what the research says.

www.healthline.com

Propolis - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

Rhodiola Rosea

7 Proven Health Benefits of Rhodiola Rosea

Rhodiola rosea has been used for centuries to treat anxiety, fatigue and depression. Here are 7 health benefits of rhodiola that are backed by science.

www.healthline.com

Schisandra

Schisandra: Benefits, Side Effects, and Forms

We’ll explain how Schisandra may benefit depression and other health conditions.

www.healthline.com

SSRI - selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor - antidepressants :

SSRIs (Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors): What Are They?

SSRIs are a type of antidepressant. Learn about these commonly prescribed drugs, including side effects, how they work, and the pros and cons.

www.healthline.com

High Doses of Antidepressants May Raise the Risk of Self-Harm for Kids and Young Adults

Drugs to Treat Bipolar Disorder

Medications for bipolar disorder include mood stabilizers, antidepressants, and anti-anxiety drugs. Learn the side effects and benefits.

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Managing Antidepressant Sexual Side Effects

Sexual side effects like erectile dysfunction are common complaints of taking antidepressants. Learn what to do to manage the side effects.

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How to Last Longer in Bed
Antidepressant Use Linked to Weight Gain Even Years Later

Antidepressants for Binge Eating: Know the Facts

www.healthline.com

7 Ways to Lose Weight Gain Caused by Medication

Here’s a list of several medications that cause weight gain and seven ways to keep that weight off.

www.healthline.com

Can You Overdose on Antidepressants? Symptoms, Treatment, and More

Antidepressants are used to treat symptoms of depression, chronic pain, and other mood disorders. But can you accidentally overdose? Are they safe?

www.healthline.com

The Dangers of Abruptly Stopping Antidepressants

There any many risks associated with stopping antidepressant medication without first consulting your doctor.

www.healthline.com

What You Need to Know About Switching Antidepressants

* Fluoxetine (Prozac)

Fluoxetine: Side effects, dosage, uses, and more

Fluoxetine oral capsule is a prescription medication used to treat conditions such as depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), eating disorders, and panic attacks. It comes as the brand-name drugs Prozac and Prozac Weekly, and as a generic drug. Learn about side effects, warnings...

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Prozac vs. Lexapro: What to Know About Each
Prozac Overdose: What to Do
Antidepressants Such as Prozac Can Cause Intestinal Bleeding
Prozac Improves Autism Traits in Mouse Model

* Paroxetine (Paxil)

Paroxetine: Side Effects, Dosage, Uses, and More

Paroxetine oral tablets are used to treat mood and anxiety disorders. It’s also available as the brand-name drugs Paxil, Paxil CR, and Pexeva. Learn about side effects, dosage, warnings, and more.

www.healthline.com

Depression Medications and Side Effects

Learn about the most frequently prescribed antidepressant medicines and their most common side effects.

www.healthline.com

* Escitalopram (Lexapro)
NB: newer generation than the previous 2, supposedly bringing less side effects, it also comes with a lesser safety profile about heart failures - warnings have been published

Antidepressant citalopram heart safety warning

“Safety warning over Britain’s most common antidepressant,” The Daily Telegraph has reported. “Doctors have been told to lower the maximum dose” for all patients, the Telegraph continues...

www.nhs.uk

Escitalopram, oral tablet

What are the side effects of Lexapro?

If your doctor prescribes Lexapro for your depression or anxiety, the drug may cause side effects. Learn what to watch for.

www.healthline.com

The Effects of Mixing Lexapro and Alcohol

Both Lexapro and alcohol affect brain chemistry. So is it safe to take the two together? Learn the effects of mixing the drug with alcohol.

www.healthline.com

Lexapro and Weight Gain or Loss: What You Need to Know

Some antidepressants can have an effect on your appetite. Read about Lexapro’s effects and how they relate to weight.

www.healthline.com

How to Wean Off Antidepressants

Weaning off antidepressants can come with some side effects. Learn how to taper off these medications safely.

www.healthline.com

Saffron
11 Impressive Health Benefits of Saffron
Saffron Tea: 5 Benefits and How to Make It

Shisandra
Schisandra
Herbal Medications and Prescription Drugs Don't Always Mix

Stamet's protocol / stack (microdosing psilocybin with a twist) : cocktail of psilocybin + Lion's Maine + B3 Niacin (nicotinic acid), named after the mycologist Paul Stamet

Microdosing Psilocybin Mushrooms with the Paul Stamets Stack

Learn about the Paul Stamets stack for microdosing and why he believes it will help usher in the next quantum leap of human consciousness.

thethirdwave.co

Pure Nootropics - Buy Cognitive Enhancement Supplements

Pure Nootropics has been a leading vendor in nootropic and cognitive enhancement supplements since 2013. Buy our products that are tested for quality & purity. Highest Quality Nootropic Products at the best prices.

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Turmeric (preferably to take with Bioperine)

10 Health Benefits of Tumeric and Curcumin

Turmeric is a traditional Indian spice with a powerful compound called curcumin. Here are the top 10 health benefits of turmeric and curcumin.

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Can You Use Turmeric to Help Treat Depression?

4 Natural Supplements That Are as Powerful as Drugs

Some supplements can have powerful effects. Here is a list of 4 natural supplements that are just as effective as pharmaceutical drugs.

www.healthline.com

Why Turmeric and Black Pepper Is a Powerful Combination

Turmeric and black pepper each have anti-inflammatory and disease-fighting qualities. This article tells you why combining turmeric and black pepper enhances these effects.

www.healthline.com

Turmeric vs Curcumin: Which Should You Take?

Turmeric contains many plant substances, but curcumin is the most powerful. This article looks at the benefits of and key differences between turmeric and curcumin, and how to supplement with them.

www.healthline.com

Valerian
How Valerian Root Helps You Relax and Sleep Better
Valerian Root Dosage for Anxiety and Sleep
4 Potential Side Effects of Valerian Root

Vitamin B3 Niacin (nicotinic acid, NOT Niacinamide)

Niacin (Vitamin B3): Benefits, Dosage, and more

Niacin (vitamin B3) is a very important nutrient for your body. It has many health benefits, along with several side effects if you take large doses.

www.healthline.com

Niacin and Depression: Using Vitamin B-3 to Treat Depression

Many people boast the benefits of vitamin B-3 for treating depression. We'll explain what science says and how a niacin deficiency may be connected.

www.healthline.com

Is Niacin Flush Harmful?

High doses of niacin can cause niacin flush, which appears as red skin that may itch or burn. This article explains what this is and whether it’s harmful.

www.healthline.com

16 Foods That Are High in Niacin (Vitamin B3)

Niacin, or vitamin B3, is an essential nutrient, which aids your metabolism and nervous system and which you must obtain through your diet. Here are 16 foods high in niacin.

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Vitamin B12 (for the vegans, otherwise, skip)

How Vitamin B12 Benefits Your Health

Vitamin B12 is an essential nutrient that plays a vital role in keeping you healthy. Here are 8 ways that this vitamin benefits your health, based on science.

www.healthline.com

Vitamin B12 Foods: 12 Great Sources

Vitamin B12 is an essential nutrient your body can’t make, so you must get it from your diet or supplements. Here are 12 foods that are high in vitamin B12.

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How Much Vitamin B12 Is Too Much?

Vitamin B12 plays many crucial roles in the body. Some think taking megadoses is best for their health. This article reviews how much vitamin B12 is too much.

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Signs and Symptoms of Vitamin B12 Deficiency

Vitamin B12 is an important water-soluble vitamin that many people are deficient in. Here are nine signs and symptoms of vitamin B12 deficiency.

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Vitamin D/D3 (preferably to take alongside vitamin K2)

Vitamin D 101 — A Detailed Beginner's Guide

This is a detailed article about vitamin D and its health effects. Vitamin D actually functions as a hormone, and deficiency is incredibly common.

www.healthline.com

Vitamin D: Benefits, Sources, Deficiencies

Vitamin D is involved in bone health and your immune system. You may be wondering about vitamin D benefits and how much you need. Learn more about vitamin D and your health, as well as what happens when you get too much and how much vitamin D you need.

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Is Vitamin D Harmful Without Vitamin K?

Vitamins D and K are crucial for your health, but some say vitamin D is harmful to those low in vitamin K. Here's a look at the science behind this claim.

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Combination Vitamin D3 and K2: Game Changing Benefits

Supplementing vitamin D3 and K2 comes with all the benefits of vitamin D and vitamin K, but also some unique health benefits that are only unlocked when these two vitamins are used together. New research is revealing this game-changing pair of vitamins and their effect on our hearts, our bones...

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What Vitamin D Dosage Is Best?

Vitamin D is important for optimal health, but many Americans are deficient. This article lets you know what dosage of vitamin D is best.

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6 Side Effects of Too Much Vitamin D

Vitamin D is very important for your health, but it is possible to get too much of it. Learn 6 side effects of taking too much vitamin D.

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Vitamin D Deficiency: Symptoms, Treatments, and Causes

Vitamin D deficiency is common in Western countries. Learn more about the symptoms and causes of vitamin D deficiency, as well as how to treat it.

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Vitamin K2

Everything You Need to Know About the Vitamin K2

Vitamin K was initially discovered as a nutrient involved in blood clotting. There are two forms: K1 (in plant foods) and K2 (in animal and fermented foods).

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Water

7 Reasons Why You Should Drink More Water

Being dehydrated can have negative effects on your body and brain. Here are evidence-based benefits of staying hydrated, like weight loss.

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Why Is Water Important? 16 Reasons to Drink Up

Not only does water make up most of your weight, it’s involved in many important functions. See how water improves your overall well-being.

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How Drinking More Water Can Help You Lose Weight

Drinking water can help reduce appetite and make you burn more calories. Several studies show that water can help you lose weight.

www.healthline.com

What Are the Benefits of Drinking Hot Water?

Drinking hot water is a great way to stay hydrated, and it might have extra health benefits. Learn about 10 possible benefits of drinking hot water here, along with the risks.

www.healthline.com

Alkaline Water: Benefits, Side Effects, and Dangers

What's alkaline water, and why is it raved about in the health industry? We explain if it’s safe to drink, what the research says about alleged benefits and more.

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How Much Water Should You Drink Per Day?

Drinking enough water can help you burn fat and increase your energy levels. This page explains exactly how much water you should drink in a day.

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How Much Water Should I Drink?

We share the latest research, tips on how to get enough water, what to eat for hydration, and why it’s important to get your daily amount.

www.healthline.com

Overhydration: Types, Symptoms, and Treatments

Overhydration, or drinking too much water, is a potentially deadly condition. Learn about causes, symptoms, treatments, and more.

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To avoid : BPA
What Is BPA and Why Is It Bad for You?

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Conclusion: the secret sauce
How to Hack Your Hormones for a Better Mood
What Are the Benefits of Hugging?

I started berberine but I've had to stop.
I plan to do my own ad hoc glucose tolerance test seeing as I'm not likely to get one any time soon. Not very clinical, but i can do a decent approximation and it should give more of an idea of my body's response to glucose more than a blood sugar test.
IF berberine does effect my insulin sensitivity, then I don't want to be on it when i take the test.
Unfortunately, I drank the last bottle of Lucozade when the tonic water ran out.

 

[Viro_Major]

@Underscore kid ! ^^ No wait, I bet the glucose OD is what made your brain come up with the idea
I'm curious how you plan to organise that homemade testing, if you care to share your hillbilly process ! Sounds intriguing

 

[Viro_Major]

Can't stop !

Touch-up : Fenugreek (at 50% Saponins) - props to @SuchAStrangeWorld for the encouragement

Please have mercy on me about breast milking. Don't want to consider a sex change just yet.
Accordingly, I will be underdosing it at 2 thirds the recommended intake

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Morning :
* 5:30am, wake-up
* contrast shower
* Andractim cream (on prescription), 5mg
* herbal adaptogen powder complex of Ashwaghanda (KSM-66), 300mg + Rhodiola Rosea (3% Rosavins & 1 % Salidrosides), 200 mg + Schisandra berry (200mg) + green tea (120mg) + L-Theanine (80mg) + Matcha green tea (1100mg), Ceylon Cinnamon, as warm latte drink with coconut milk
* Ginkgo Biloba, 15000 mg
* DHEA, 50mg
* monday + wednesday + friday, hallucinogenic truffles (illegal), about Maakali strain, 1g, 10 weeks on (cause freshness) >> 3 weeks off (cause tolerance)
* Lion's Mane (NGF - Neuro Growth Factor - Hericenones), 2x 425mg
* Gotu Kola, 1000mg
* vitamin B3 Niacin - acid nicotinic type (flush effect), 1x 50mg, except on monday/wednesday/friday then 3x 50mg
* L-Citrulline, powder 3g
* experimental evening drink preparation : water 460ml + heaped teaspoon of valerian root - 2g ? + honey + alternating between fresh crushed garlic or lemon balm on&off, let it rest cold infuse for the day
* secret weapon
* until 8am, entertainment + meditation
* water (glass bottles, not plastic), 730ml

Day / work :
* as much as possible spent outside (balcony / nature / traveling), in the fresh air + sun (equipment: portable 4G antenna + MiFi domino + multi screen laptop & tablet with sun protection caps + trackball)
* pre-work preparation : mental visualisation exercices
* closed / locked environnement without disturbances
* bluetooth enabled closed headset with noise canceling
* gaming glasses (blue light filter)

Afternoon :
* preferably in advance of physical activity
- Propolis, 1x 1000mg, on tuesday/thursday/saturday/sunday
- L-Citrulline, powder 3g
- ZMA, 2x 500mg
* water, 730ml

Sport :
* tuesday + thursday + saturday/sunday, High-Intensity Interval Training (/rarely, cardio effort)
* after, plant protein blends (alternating enhancers: Turmeric & Bioperine, omega seeds, botanical essentials / Boswellia Serrata, electrolytes, enzymes, probiotics-bacterias), 33g with almond milk & smoothie
* water, 730ml

"Afterwork" :
* Panax Ginseng 50:1 80% Ginsenoside, 2x
* Brahmi extract 50:1 50% Bacosides, 780mg
* bio saffron w/ 2% safranal & 3% crocines, 30mg
* Fenugreek at 50% Saponins, 2x 500mg
* monday + friday, Tadalafil 20mg

Evening :
* 10:30/10:50pm
- Turmeric with 95% Curcuminoids & Bioperine for assimilation, 500mg
- Omega 3 DHA + EPA from algae oil, 2x 400mg
- Alpha GPC, 2x 300mg
- only the days unexposed to the sun during 15+ minutes partly naked, vitamin D3, 4000 IU + vitamin K2 mk7, 125 mcg
(- vitamin B12 (with Bioperine), 1500mcg, if period dominated by vegan diet)
- L-Citrulline, powder 3g
- reading
* 11:40pm
- evening drink prepared in the morning
- aromatherapy, drops of lavender essential heated w/ candle & applied behind the ears, on the cheeks, forehead & ankles
- eye mask
- water, 460ml



Reminder that I should get back on track about the consumption. Cause I've been reallyyyy flexible about my laziness to be dedicated the past 2-3 weeks.

 

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@Underscore kid ! ^^ No wait, I bet the glucose OD is what made your brain come up with the idea
I'm curious how you plan to organise that homemade testing, if you care to share your hillbilly process ! Sounds intriguing

I thought you might be curious. I've still to refine the methodology. It's a bit tricky as it's not in a clinical setting, only uses a home glucose meter and I don't think I can take a finger prick test as many times as I'd like to make the results sturdier, compared to blood drawn at intervals from a canula. Once I get it sorted, I'll post the methodology.

 

[Viro_Major]

Big lungs, or is it a tumor ? Nah, just seriously poetic.

 

[Viro_Major]

I now go through moments where I freak out that I won't live eternally like a vampire, and blame myself for all the time lost, the opportunities missed, and the hurt I self-inflicted in the past, out of will.
Is this normal doctor ? Anyway, it sure looks like fine recovery Hip hip hooray. I knew life was full of surprises but to this extent, it's one of the most unexpected one
Now even doubting how much I even deserved messy parts of my life before ? Have I been fully responsible of my trajectory ?

Sublimation program launched

(Have you noticed how even their basic walking is stylish ? Or how a look is almost more meaningful than a movement ? It's all concentrated in the intentions)

I have set myself a crazier than crazy schedule in terms of demands. But I'm not struggling to provide auto-determination, I've passed a milestone. It flows naturally by noting a self-prophecy can unfold after it is projected forward. Can't wait to complete the program, life will be good, finally (even better since I've known the other side of the mirror). Why all the wait ? How is it that I already feel this promise ? There can be a lot of enjoyment to pursue quests in itself. I hope that when I'm done fixing my life and set myself on new landmarks, I won't fall into a void of nothingness. Am I getting distracted ? One can always wonder.
Anyway, now my little secret is to launch tons of mini projets in parallel. I appreciate the fact of seeing lots of leads asserting themselves in front of my eyes and no longer knowing where to fix my attention. It gives a sense of being filled with exhausteness. I think it comes with the security of always having something positive moving forward to hold on to, even when a grain of sand seizes another element's machine or hits an obstacle. It is a kind of very comforting taking over and bringing balance

 

[Viro_Major]

During an argument with anger (carried away, bless, shit happens ), I received the comment I could be obsessive. I firmly disapprove I am, definition wise speaking. However, I'm ready to admit I'm a little stubborn and quite determined. In french, it's called "having a hard head" or head strong.

I would like anybody to prove me that in our modern societies you have the luxury to be conciliatory when everybody is really self absorbed and putting up a fight against his/her neighbour, without noticing or through neglect.

Sorry, at this stage of consciousness of the human kind, it's just false and an illusionary advice to give that we can lean back to rest, dropping all defences and still stay safe or just alive with integrity respected. When you're being hit or meet non-sense, there is a necessity to punch back harder, and send the signal to the universe it's him who will bend since you learned how to be inflexible. At least exceptionally when it stands as the viable way out, otherwise acquiring flexibility may be the largest quality in order to deal with life. There's nothing else that matches letting go the control of its randomness

 

[Viro_Major]

These dancers directly speak to my mind. We have a lot in common.

edit : thank you for the ones who share they are set on a hopeful on-ramp after reading about experimental cures. These simple comments make it all worthwhile

Just realised that I no longer believe too much in combating harm but rather in inspiring benefits

 

[Viro_Major]

Advancing is no problem. However, advancing while facing small issues which pile up in count is the real drag in energy. Without these stops, it could almost be effortless. Gosh, I can't wait to have solved most problems. Patience patience. Months of time are to be expected. There will never be a full freeing until death but an about safe place with relief must be manageable. I also wish to offer these guarantees to the ones who will enter my life so they can be graced a walk in the park. It's not only about me but broader.

 

[Viro_Major]

These aliens among us = What about life ? Pt. 2

Snow is arriving soon. wOOt !

(Neither talking about the family who assassinated you mentally)

(nor about the lover who betrayed you with a knife on the back)

 

[Brick In The Wall]

These aliens among us = What about life ? Pt. 2

Snow is arriving soon. wOOt !

(Neither talking about the family who assassinated you mentally)

(nor about the lover who betrayed you with a knife on the back)

Fucking gnarly stuff, our snow season just started at the nearby resort and I'm dying for some time off to hit the slopes! Snowboarding is literally the ONLY thing I enjoy about winter.

 

[Viro_Major]

Haha unlike you, winter is my all-around favourite period. Maybe you're going outside more than I do (gardening and just activities) so you don't enjoy to freeze your balls and the gloomy darkness. For me, it represents the best memories of my lifetime when I still had a family in which I felt integrated young. I just dig it. My nightmare would be to live at a flat land with no seasons. I actually adore the elements and the more raging and apocalyptic they are. Same for the sea, I can only cope with the oceans, with waves and even better, tempests if available. I hate the boring sceneries like a perfectly flat sea with tourists and clear blue sky without clouds. It makes me want to hang lol Night summer nights or late afternoons are enjoyable though when the temperature and silky air are just perfect.

Anyway, snowboard... it's my youth, more than skate. I'm not good at both but enough to enjoy myself. The last time I hit the slopes was 5 years ago, can you believe it. Just once and before it was 4 years before. It comments the long time stop of my life and the withdrawal I went through. The last time I hit the best resort and discovered they had a lift which is taking you to an off-track mountain ! It was unexpected (a first time - I realised it once at the top) and I was so happy I almost cried while descending the powder in a wild scenery. I was shouting my excitement aloud. Nevermind the avalanches lol so yeah, man, I will fancy it in some weeks :) the ski season here is short, it doesn't snows that many times

 

[Viro_Major]

Fuck. My friend who helps me with documents let a deadline pass. Now I need to wait 3 months to continue any steps (bank, health, driving). I'm really bummed ! I hate to be dependent on someone who isn't dedicated as much as I am :///

 

[Viro_Major]

So, about the replacement of my driving licence that I declared as lost, it was supposed to be done within 2 months. Suprised that at 2 months & 3 weeks I had still no news, I just called to be told that there was again a problem with the documents of my friend, same rejection than with the bank. Ok
The thing is that their dumbass process has not been smart enough to consider emailing me there was an issue with my files after depositing them.
Don't give me an atomic bomb now, or I could nuke my homeland

 

[Viro_Major]

So I won't get the renewed driving licence and the home-car one until 6 months now. 3 months for my friend to react due to the constraint of a 3rd party company, plus 2 months for the administration, plus at least 1 month to pass new exams to expand upon it. What a bummer. But that's typical of life, isn't it. Don't expect too much, too quickly, or you'll get burned. Patience is such a virtue that shouldn't be overlooked. This proves to be difficult for me since I enjoy for things to speed up. But the best teacher about self-development is in front of us. We can self-regulate by not running away from confrontations, as simple as that.
My target remains to be completely back on my feet for july 2021, so it remains manageable, I'm on schedule

I lost 2 more kgs without noticing. This encourages me to accompany this movement to seal the deal of having lost 20 in ~1 yr. With just a little sport, the goal is around the corner for soon. I regret to not have kept photos of the progress and of when I looked like Shrek and scared myself with pity. It would have served as a reminder that "impossible is not french" for the next challenges.
I'm not about running for trophies but I'm also more and more aware why I'm doing efforts, before I wasn't seeing reasons. Until achievements don't flow your way, it's difficult to feel benefits from the inside, in concrete.
So, among all, there's to accept yourself after you made an agreement that you're the first person in charge to respect yourself. Guess what, the process could be ...fun, as summed up as discovering someone new in you and becoming your own surprise. Give it a go, the movement may make you addicted ?

Woke up by receiving props from the CEO of CTemplar

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It feels funny to receive credits from a stranger with an active role when you almost never worked for somebody else in your life (once, 1 month in my case) and each and every of my actions were driven solely by conviction or passion, when not both when the times were hard and making me doubt of the freewheel (free will ?) choices.
It's not an embarrassment per say but I really am not someone who likes ties. I need air and a lot of room to exist and develop myself. I appreciate the confidence given but at the same time the shade of responsibilities is ...not really pressurising cause I've learned to live under some stress and cope with it, but I always fear that external expectations have the potential to become invalidating, but I need to realise most of this weight felt is about something new for me of handling relationships. I'm just lacking training. I have accepted to move forward since we seem aligned by close principles and I have in mind it won't be subordination bonds but collaborative ones. Until now, I contributed without rewards and I would continue the same nonetheless. I'm not even tactical about making a point. Rather trying to not pollute my intentions always with factors that are artificial, and seeking money is one. But that became rather easy for me since for the core of what I do, I had to learn to be mostly dettached

Looking back, I have never prostituted myself to fit in the society. Rapidly stopped to make compromises I was asked to provide. However, I'm conscious I also started with a few spoiled conditions (west EU born, in a loving family before it exploded, single child without real money issues and later some savings due to inheritance of my father dying abruptly young) that helped me to separate, so I'm not according myself full props, just bits.
With time and without plans, I found a continuum in all my activities, from financial stuff (traditional and modern), to internet security and privacy as an interest when I begun to stand up as a whistle blower once I witnessed injustices in the financial space I was evolving in, to seizing opportunities, like understanding offshore loopholes after my expat experience that initially started by constraint (ran away to save my life), and obviously vouching to protect fundamental rights (self-determination is one)
In conclusion, I'm in a position to line up ideas and now participate humbly where my trust applies. It feels great. The coherence really does.

A lot of persons - I was one of them - are traumatised by the obligations of closed paths that are imposed onto them. That is, get good grades as a formatted slave, study far, get a job by staying on straigth tracks. Especially, please oh please, watch out for errors ? That's a joke. It's not the end of the world if you've interrupted your schooling or if your resume is messy. I admit it will turn out to be when you don't make steps on the side... It's not obvious but there's an escape in the duty to take some freedom from a trap you've slipped in. Isn't the most harm you can be victim of about staying in boxes ? I believe it's true in general. Spread your wings and be bolder. Your ambition will never be crazier than forcing to make a circle plot enter into a square hole. It doesn't make you a condemned misfit to stick out of the norms. Take a chance towards more originality ? You'll meet like-minded people along the way and won't be alone eternally. Support will chime in when and where you don't expect it.
Instead, I'd say, have the guts to do what you like, it's the only way you'll be dedicated and consequently master your fields. The rest could fall into places naturally. To generate a career you don't necessarily have to abide by the rules. The modern life is so unstable anyway that it cannot be led by projections so better do none and follow your instincts. Plant seeds as foundation then wait for the wind. As a whole, stay clear of judgement, but that begins at your level. If you don't want to work but become a perpetual traveler or start a family, do it. But that's only my 2 Monero

Unrelated, today I have a meeting call anticipated with the leader of the association who ignited my hope 5 months ago, the one which is dealing with the PFS syndrome. I have set it to share my progress since it's very convincing. Before, we would already agree on main principles at "how to cure". It's somebody open-minded that I appreciate. She lost her son to suicide and therefore knows what suffering is about, yet it didn't make her fall but remembering love, fight for others instead, which is grand.

 

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"I'm not worried about you leaking" LOL sorry, made me chuckle.

This all sounds really encouraging.

 

[Viro_Major]

There will come a day when this news will shake us with tears ! Bring in the diapers so many reasons to stop before the finish line, ah!

 

[Viro_Major]

Almost didn't take my treatment since 3 days, was too busy. Tonight I feel like shit like I could slip into depression. Huge drop in mood. Weakness spotted. Alarm sign activated. I feel even lazy to start again

 

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Almost didn't take my treatment since 3 days, was too busy. Tonight I feel like shit like I could slip into depression. Huge drop in mood. Weakness spotted. Alarm sign activated. I feel even lazy to start again

But you will start again, because you are relentless. Maybe take it a little slower...

 

[Viro_Major]

But you will start again, because you are relentless. Maybe take it a little slower...

I need to be serious. When I drift with disappointment or ache, my tendency is to let go. The fall can be quick. That's the dangerous part I need to control with efforts. But before I didn't have a parachute, now I can.
Here I have stopped cycling. I will resume. Just the promise of the abyss makes me anxious. It's like an old daemon friend is visiting and is not welcomed

 

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Just the promise of the abyss makes me anxious. It's like an old daemon friend is visiting and is not welcomed

That my friend, I am all to familiar with.

 

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I'm occasionally asked about Andorra which appears intriguing as an unknown micro country of 80,000 inhabitants. Or, how to move to Europe ? Well, Andorra is a very welcoming entry point which is accessible. The immigration laws here are open and rather easy. It's a pragmatic country where common sense is vastly. The main condition is the ability to show you will sustain yourself financially and that's it. In concrete, the most common residency permit is for active people: either if you find a job (employers can seek a foreigner after 15 days at failing to get a local resident for the task - and they cheat by inventing special requirements if it helps to find nobody suited) or if you create your own one through a company (the setup process costs about 6k for expenses, 3k for social capital and 15k as a government deposit for the residency acting as a guarantee that is not lost but refundable Once you leave)

Consequently, a main characteristic of Andorra is that its population is very diverse and in fact the andorran nationals are a minority in their own country (about 30%). The spanyards dominate in proportion, then you find the portuguese people - both nationalities get the most job offers due to the languages spoken here - then the frenchies and all the rest (you find many south americans, russian, phillipino communities, more). Very eclectic. On the streets, you hear many languages spoken at once. It's possible to get by in everyday life in catalan, spanish, french and somehow portuguese. Most andorrans speak a minimum of 3 languages, not counting english (they generally suck at it).
There are 3 school systems (french - dominant, hence 70% speak french since the youth is formatted), spanish, andorran. After high school graduation, they generally live to France or Spain to finish the studies (there is only one university locally but limited in courses, and only a few private schools)
2 concurrent postal systems (ES & FR) cohabit. Until recently, the mail used to be free inside the country, but most people don't need it since it's so tiny, it's just easier to meet people.
The housing market deteriorated recently, with less choice available and higher prices but if choosing a remote valley out of town, it's still affordable. Before, so many empty goods, you could negociate -30% discounts on rent easily. For instance, on my building, we must be 5. Nobody lives on the same level, few neighbours.
Err what else ?
Very safe country... zero crime. You could let the door open or items on the roof of the car, it won't be stolen.
Okay health system. Took the spot of highest life expectancy in the world, not good for downers waiting to die lol
maybe due to no stress daily life, altitude and whatnot, absence of conflicts - not even an army.
Fun fact, the president of France is co-prince of the principality... the other co-prince is a religious figure from the nearby county from Spain. Due to this reference, money games were forbidden for a long time. It changed and the 1st casino will open shortly. The politic climate is mostly centric. Homelessness is forbidden... you don't see begglars on the streets. Work insurance is almost non-existent but just as is unemployment to compensate. Still, in case of trouble, it's handy to know some friends or family. If you cannot afford to sustain your needs, you're invited to leave the country (harsh but makes sense with logic - they want a functioning economy/system - unless you're a passive resident who paid half a million € to lock your seat). Solidarity is present though as a village place, it's easy to get on point help with reason and immediate validity. For instance, the president can be talked on the street and in case of question unanswered, a lawyer will contact a minister in an unbeatable time for clarification.
The administration is almost non existent (a breathe! hassle free) and confidence still applies - if you file your taxes, they won't ask for proofs. Actually, until 5 years ago, there was no tax (now a maximum of 10%, but 0% can be achieved via a holding at 1k per year). They only discovered the job of accountant in urgency not long ago with some complaints and hostility lol it's still very lax to comply on anything. After all, they are historically a population of smugglers who used to traffic by feet and horses across the mountains.
Tourism is the dominant sector, followed by banking, then construction, agriculture not any longer - they still cultivate tobacco the most, which is a curious sight.
Pharmacies sell you most everything without prescription (except benzos and hypnotics as rare exception)
Not really lacking entertainment except maybe cultural events. Largest ski domain of the Pyrenees mountains. However, they're huge in traditions and the social life is quite developed, which is their strength. They turned a mountainous only country as a liveable place. Infrastructures are good overall. The national mantra is: "The union is our force. Touch us if you dare" and the local mascot is a bear.
Catalan is the official language, unique occurence worldwide.

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[Viro_Major]

An idea is growing in me, which could be, to tour my SS friends...
You know that home-car licence, I do it principally in memory of my deceased father's dream he didn't fulfil to spend his retirement this way but to tell the truth, in the first place I'm really doing it without a purpose next in mind lol I don't really know why I'm passing it. It's only about unlocking a mean which could serve an opportunity I'd have yet to invent. The only thing I have in mind is a sort of quest. How could I get closer to my father to reunite some way with him ? :( I have not been thinking enough of him. I lost him too early. I miss him. So.
What better purpose that mimic my father by dreaming at something at my turn ? It doesn't have to be reasonable. I mean. In all cases, there's rarely a point in predictions ? when you make serious plans, they never happen like you forecast them. So why not be unserious, it can't go wrong worse. It may even surprise for the better.

So I'm planting this seed today, just because I like tales: maybe I can rent a home-car in the future and use my SS friends (the ones I sense a degree of safety with, not the creeps ^^) as excuses to visit european countries (Sorry, no boat licence and lost the flight one as outdated lol). There's no better to discover a place than be immersed with local people. This sounds like a fucking plan which could turn as a massive adventure. And I bet a fulfilling one, at least unique.
Hum, the "Catch the bus" may turn as an unexpected twisted reality in the end, away from the norm lol "Catch the bond" ? "Catch the beasty love vibrations ?" You name it, I don't care exactly
Let's reverse the odds by taking U-turns. Dudes and dudetes, this would make a neat documentary to edit and pass on, a mix of recovery and feeding suicidal ones with some concrete warmth lol

hummmmmm. yeah. Starting already to think about where it would lead me to get lost. Right now, it could consist of: Netherlands, Bulgaria, Spain/Morroco, UK, Spain, Israel (ok maybe not lol barely realistic), Sweden ? (in disorder). So exciting. I'm not sure I can handle it. It would also require me efforts since I don't estimate to be a "social butterfly".Then, it would even convert into self-development. A training against some of my fears.
Certainly, the main decision lies in the fact I want to be capable to be this open, even if I don't make it, entirely or even partially. Let this unreal motivation be a drive. It will help to pass steps and obstacles all the more with conviction.

 

[Viro_Major]

Hum nice surprise. My buddy finally pulled out of his magic hat a - supposedly - valid document.
Now I can trigger and follow a few procedures again, starting from scratch like I had not advanced, which is true, I only entertained the different services with claims and bitching
Resuming to launch bank account, health care protection, driving licence exchange after loss. Since I changed my planning upside down this weekend for something otherworldly clustered for the next months (little choice, need to push with efforts on turbo or the situation essentially stands still), the alternate driving licence will wait for sometime next year.

 

[Viro_Major]

Relaunched everything that was on pause.

I've refined my plans. After I've retrieved an official existence in France, I plan to reapply to Andorra as an active immigrant around september to be set by the end of 2021. This will depend on my capacity to generate revenues (as largely doable as fuckable, outcome essentially based on my focus and concentration) and on top, I'm going to need to find a cover, that is to create an activity from scratch that I don't need because my main one (speculation on own funds) is not recognised as a proper job but considered as patrimonial strictly, and therefore not qualifying for residency permit, since they ask for a commercial duty. For the goal, a few options could be more or less valid, but I need to think that it doesn't overfloods me with constraints and have it run autonomously. So either something idle that doesn't require efforts, or something that really runs with benefits but delegate the task. This last idea would be more ambitious. I've never managed anybody but me but I'm not against the idea as long as it doesn't turn into a mess. It's hard to be confident in strangers. I've made some contacts who proposed to team up at stuff like online marketing but I can't do it if I don't like the person or if I'm not comfortable with what's deployed. For instance, I hate the real trading because I don't have the heart and the internal weapons to exploit a crowd in the open in a capitalistic way, I only tolerate to do it against entities who know and accept the rules in advance. I'm more disturbed by real life businesses which are scam implied but not revealed, than competing for robbery versus those who accept to play a game by default. Overall, it then feels like less of a betrayal and a bad action to mankind, and again, it's not the entire truth, but incomplete.

 

[Viro_Major]

As a wasted vampire, eating a lot of fresh garlic (on buttered toasts) lately and I suppose it may be even more efficient than Berberine about weight loss on me

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Lol sidenote, now I've got no problem to swallow capsules 10 by 10 when they're small ! Training... ^^