princessdepression
justlikeyou
- Dec 2, 2021
- 27
These days, nothing is in its right place for me. Even death. It used to be I felt no guilt ending my life, now guilt swells in my chest and I wash it away with alcohol. Ever since I got out of the hospital my family is ignorant to the fact that I'm still drowning and giving up, for I do act very well.
Everyday I wake up to my regrets, and they torture and taunt me. I'm full of despicable secrets, ones I'd never share. And at the age of 19, I am fully exhausted. How does one live with their own burden? Or even expect it respectable to even tell a soul that burden, burdening them as well? There is no way out. I am trapped in hell and I will be trapped in hell when I leave here, I am so devestated. I am so lost. Someone anyone, please, I wish you could take the pain away.
I beg for love and sweetness to come to me on a daily basis, the kind of love that makes you focus on nothing else. I'm tired of being drunk alone, being depressed alone, wishing for human touch. Wishing for someone to treat me like a fragile object, caress my head and say I'm here. But there is no one. I am trapped alone. No one to die for me or me for them, no one to die with me or let me tell them of my wish for death without making them panic and look down on my selfishness. Why am I still here when it's so painful
Everyday I wake up to my regrets, and they torture and taunt me. I'm full of despicable secrets, ones I'd never share. And at the age of 19, I am fully exhausted. How does one live with their own burden? Or even expect it respectable to even tell a soul that burden, burdening them as well? There is no way out. I am trapped in hell and I will be trapped in hell when I leave here, I am so devestated. I am so lost. Someone anyone, please, I wish you could take the pain away.
I beg for love and sweetness to come to me on a daily basis, the kind of love that makes you focus on nothing else. I'm tired of being drunk alone, being depressed alone, wishing for human touch. Wishing for someone to treat me like a fragile object, caress my head and say I'm here. But there is no one. I am trapped alone. No one to die for me or me for them, no one to die with me or let me tell them of my wish for death without making them panic and look down on my selfishness. Why am I still here when it's so painful