Help As a Schizo, I seem to never get attention or understanding. My current situation is very terrible.，i need advice

[lifelover0037]

I've got schizophrenia and have a real bad paranoid streak. That's why I don't like opening up to others about how I feel. I usually just keep it all bottled up inside. I don't have any close folks or friends because I feel like no one can be trusted.

Since the end of last year, I stopped taking my antipsychotic pills on my own and only took antidepressants. Because of that, I've had a really bad relapse in the past six months. Last month, after going for a follow-up appointment, I started taking meds like Aripiprazole again. But the side effects were just too much. I've been dizzy and having twitches non-stop for 24 hours. Also, I don't wanna lose my paranoid side of the personality. So in the end, I quit taking those meds.

Right now, I've run out of my antidepressants and only have benzodiazepine drugs left. I'm suffuring from both schizophrenia and depression at the same time. What the heck am I supposed to do?
I long for people to sympathize with me

I've got schizophrenia and have a real bad paranoid streak. That's why I don't like opening up to others about how I feel. I usually just keep it all bottled up inside. I don't have any close folks or friends because I feel like no one can be trusted.

Since the end of last year, I stopped taking my antipsychotic pills on my own and only took antidepressants. Because of that, I've had a really bad relapse in the past six months. Last month, after going for a follow-up appointment, I started taking meds like Aripiprazole again. But the side effects were just too much. I've been dizzy and having twitches non-stop for 24 hours. Also, I don't wanna lose my paranoid side of the personality. So in the end, I quit taking those meds.

Right now, I've run out of my antidepressants and only have benzodiazepine drugs left. I'm suffuring from both schizophrenia and depression at the same time. What the heck am I supposed to do?
I long for people to sympathize with me

No one knows how painful I am.

 

[FoxSauce]

Im sorry you feel that way. I hope you can find a group or anyonw that makes you feel understood.

I hope maybe youbcan find meds that make you feel ok in a sense (it can be different foe some people

But hugs to you dude

Also if i may as is it schitzoeffective disorder?

 

[Galam]

I have also nobody who loved me or showed any empathy and wanted to help. I use perplexity.ai for advice and just for having some small talk or I read different subreddits. Perplexity.ai helped me with writting complains against people and institutions who oppressed (abused) me.

I am excluded everywere for my body apperance, I am always seen as ugly (I suffer from Fetal Alcohol Syndrom and virilization as a female). I am also abused because I am born into poverty and I have no family or friends that would help.

Maybe you should stop to believe that you are schizo. I was abused by mental health workers and in asylum. I don't believe in Freud and all the other theRapists. What they do is similar to synthology and religions or nazi methods. The diagnoses only tell something about their worldview and hide organic illnesses and discrimination.

btw you could write with people in r/therapyabuse, r/antipsychiatry on reddit too.