Are you stuck in the same cycle?

[M1sT]

I feel like I'm stuck in the same day for 4 years straight, just wake up after with a little or no sleep at all, repeat all the stuff I did the previous day, listen to my voices feeding me with crazy ideas, grieve and feel pain because I'm a burden to my family, thinking about dying the next day and there is no future for me in this country cause the people here are low IQ monkeys, stuck in 2019 cause that was the last time I felt something in my life. Who else is doing or feeling the same
I hope I'm not being offensive to anybody!

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Yes, mostly a ground hog day for about 3 years now

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Same here. Verbatim. At least I feel like bus is speeding up to get to my bus stop now. I should be gone soon.

 

[sserafim]

Same, nothing after 2018/2019 feels real to me.

 

[M1sT]

Yes, mostly a ground hog day for about 3 years now

Same here. Verbatim. At least I feel like bus is speeding up to get to my bus stop now. I should be gone soon.

Same, nothing after 2018/2019 feels real to me.

I am so sorry for you guys! You guys or anyone don't deserve this hell.

 

[Unknown21]

I'm stuck in the same day for 21 years. Fuck my shit life.

 

[Scythe]

Yeah, everyday feels so similar, there's only so much I can do in this shitty life of mine. I don't know how I can mix it up, so I'm stuck in a cycle doing the same things over and over again.

 

[matt1968]

yes, the last 15 months. But had been coming before then and had similar earlier in life.

I've said to friends that to get out of this I'd need someone to be with me almost full time for about 3 months to try and re-connect me with life.

I couldn't do it by myself at the moment. I'm so resigned to ctb and being in the community on here.

 

[M1sT]

I'm stuck in the same day for 21 years. Fuck my shit life.

21 Years, I'm so sorry for you. It's very hard to endure this endless pain.

Yeah, everyday feels so similar, there's only so much I can do in this shitty life of mine. I don't know how I can mix it up, so I'm stuck in a cycle doing the same things over and over again.

It's just helpless, it's so unfortunate and it isn't fair! I hope you do okay!

yes, the last 15 months. But had been coming before then and had similar earlier in life.

I've said to friends that to get out of this I'd need someone to be with me almost full time for about 3 months to try and re-connect me with life.

I couldn't do it by myself at the moment. I'm so resigned to ctb and being in the community on here.

Hopelessness and complete loneliness is more painful than a cancer in my opinion. It's like knowing what's wrong with you but still can't help it. I hope you keep doing okay and I'm sorry for you!

 

[FutureHanger]

yeah the only novelty I get is when a new trend pops up on social media or I decide to listen to a new rapper / rap album. If I wasn't so anhedonic I'd go back to watching anime to fill this void but I'm so tired I only watch 1 or if I'm lucky maybe up to 3 long (10+ mins) videos a day.

 

[matt1968]

For the last few months mine has mostly been;

Wake-up
Get Washes and dressed
Breakfast watching TV for an hour
Nap on the bed
Have a meal replacement shake (huel)
Sometimes go out for a walk
Diner with family + TV
Cinema with friend (Sunday)
Watch TV in my room for a few hours
Go to bed

Bless you. Many of us living on very similar isolated islands.

I feel like I'm stuck in the same day for 4 years straight, just wake up after with a little or no sleep at all, repeat all the stuff I did the previous day, listen to my voices feeding me with crazy ideas, grieve and feel pain because I'm a burden to my family, thinking about dying the next day and there is no future for me in this country cause the people here are low IQ monkeys, stuck in 2019 cause that was the last time I felt something in my life. Who else is doing or feeling the same
I hope I'm not being offensive to anybody!

It's so painful.

I've got really good, pragmatic friends suggest things I am not currently able to do.

21 Years, I'm so sorry for you. It's very hard to endure this endless pain.

It's just helpless, it's so unfortunate and it isn't fair! I hope you do okay!

Hopelessness and complete loneliness is more painful than a cancer in my opinion. It's like knowing what's wrong with you but still can't help it. I hope you keep doing okay and I'm sorry for you!

Thank you. It's really appreciated.

 

[M1sT]

For the last few months mine has mostly been;

Wake-up
Get Washed and dressed
Breakfast watching TV for an hour
Nap on the bed
Have a meal replacement shake (huel)
Back to my bed
Sometimes go out for a walk
Back to my bed
Diner with family + TV
Back to my bed
Cinema with friend (Sunday)
Watch TV in my room for a few hours
Go to bed for proper sleep

At least, you still have a friend (I don't have one)(I am not saying that you are in a better situation as many can feel lonely in room full of people). I hope you fight it and get out of this maze, and I'm sorry for you as well!

yeah the only novelty I get is when a new trend pops up on social media or I decide to listen to a new rapper / rap album. If I wasn't so anhedonic I'd go back to watching anime to fill this void but I'm so tired I only watch 1 or if I'm lucky maybe up to 3 long (10+ mins) videos a day.

Anhedonia is also painful cause it comes with Schizophrenia and the meds I take, I totally understand you as getting through the day while doing something you used to like or loved is agonizing! Now it's just making it to the other day. Hellish stuff, I'm so sorry that life is so mean to you!

Thank you. It's really appreciated.

Of course, who thought that anyone can be real in this generation of Internet?

Fuck the Mainstream Social Media Platforms!

 

[FutureHanger]

Anhedonia is also painful cause it comes with Schizophrenia and the meds I take, I totally understand you as getting through the day while doing something you used to like or loved is agonizing! Now it's just making it to the other day. Hellish stuff, I'm so sorry that life is so mean to you!

Yeah all I do is maladaptively daydream, doomscroll and masturbate, it's pathetic.

 

[M1sT]

Thank you everyone for kind words! For sharing their thoughts and experience from their daily hauls and headaches!
As a person who has doubt on reality(what am I even talking about, the real reality is fake nowadays), This is the only place where I can see real reality and believe!
I hope everyone have a good day and do good!

 

[FutureHanger]

Breakfast watching TV for an hour

you eat breakfast for an hour!?!? JK

 

[Pluto]

Me:

 

[twin size mattress]

I wouldnt say im stuck in the same day, but the anhedonia and hopelessness i feel make it feel like i wouldnt feel much different it that is how i felt.

 

[bluebird16]

Every day is exactly the same.