Discussion Are you scared of dying?

[Dark days]

I am not scared of dying, but do fear physical, emotional and after effects. As well as the 'build up' process, anticipation, waiting and if there are complications or the desired outcome is not achieved.
Mixed emotions, if that makes sense. Some of these factors (among others) are causing delays.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I am not scared of dying, but do fear physical, emotional and after effects. As well as the 'build up' process, anticipation, waiting and if there are complications or the desired outcome is not achieved.

This pretty much sums it up how I feel about it I don´t want to ruin my parents lives hense "the after effects" and am afraid of complication like if there will be pain or if I somehow survived but death itself no I don´t fear that or in a sense I might since I desperately hope this is just a dream/nightmare/Simulation and when I kill myself I wake up in the paradise that was/is my childhood but I most likely will just seize to exist.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I have mixed feelings about it, but that is only because I am afraid of what might happen after I am dead. Will there be nothing, or will there be an angry, thug-like god waiting to torment me forever for not stroking his ego? I really don't know. For me the fear comes from religious indoctrination that happened in my childhood. Even though I don't believe in the teachings of the Christian religion anymore, that fear of hell is still there, since it's hard to get rid of whenever I stop and think about the process of dying.

Also, I worry that I might be reincarnated and end up living in this shithole of a world over and over again. Ceasing to exist would be preferable, but since no one gets to find out what happens until after their brain has fully shut down, I never will know until I go through it. Not knowing is what scares me, but I suppose that when I'm ready to ctb, I will find enough courage to make that discovery, without worrying about the consequences.

 

[lanitoasmr]

I worry about my mother and if my suicide method will be painful

 

[highlyvolatile]

I'll say mixed feelings also. While i'm ready to die. The whats next part of it really keeps me up at night. If there's just nothingness that'd be fine albeit a bit disappointing for me. If death is like sleep I'd like that. But I'm not necesarilly afraid of death. I guess its just fear of the unknown or whatever. Only the dead can tell us what awaits us after we take our last breath. I do worry about what my family will endure but I wont be around for it. So thats ok.

 

[Jumper Geo]

I suppose just frightened of the unknown, I keep telling myself all living things die so I am just bringing it forward, then if I see an old horror film which was filmed before I was born, I just sit there and imagine how easy things was back then, I wasn't here.

 

[AlreadyGone]

No. I can't be afraid of something that is guaranteed to happen either now or later.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm fucking terrified.

 

[jimbob1000]

i'm not scared of dying, just the pain it takes to get there

 

[tireddreamer]

I'm afraid of botching my death. My method is has a very high chance of success but still, nothing is 100% foolproof.

And I do fear an afterlife, even though I think it's unlikely. I don't believe there's a chance of any religions being true, it's more a worry that there's some kind of reincarnation.

 

[s1mplem3]

I'm not scared to die, I'm scared to be alone.

 

[Ghost2211]

I used to be, but every time life kicks me in the lady balls i'm a little bit less afraid. I think the most recent hit took all the fear away. Now I just have to wait for the time to be right.

 

[Oyoy]

I'm scared of living. I'm terrified of living to dye. I am petrified of wasting time.

 

[gnomeboy17]

My only fear is if it doesn't work and I get admitted and everyone worries about me and treats me differently... Would make my life worse

 

[Why you?]

I am absolutely terrified.

 

[Nem]

It is what it is, I think when push comes to shove, any fear of death gets pushed aside. When life becomes a complete shit show, then the need to ctb overcomes the fear
Peace/hugs

 

[Epsilon0]

If I wasn't, I wouldn't be here typing this answer.

 

[TVO90]

Not really.

Living a life in pure bitterness is scarier. When your spirit, soul, dreams has already left but your body is still roaming the earth.

If the only thing that keeps me alive is being afraid, I'm sorry but that's just not good enough of a reason for me to live.

 

[toomuchtimetodie]

I am not scared of dying, but do fear physical, emotional and after effects. As well as the 'build up' process, anticipation, waiting and if there are complications or the desired outcome is not achieved.
Mixed emotions, if that makes sense. Some of these factors (among others) are causing delays.

Sure makes sense to me.
To quote Cormac Mcarthys book Sunset Limited "i long for death, real death."
I'm terrified of dimensions and concepts like time and space etc. But realize that had i never listened to a podcast or had internet access id have likely never heard and educated myself of such things/theories and wouldn't have had a problem offing myself at all id have just got it done.

 

[Notabadguy]

I'm scared of failure in the attempt of CTB, I'm scared of pain, and above all I'm scared of ending up in bad shape due to a failed attempt.

The only, but extremely important, mixed feeling about CTB, for me, is the harm that I know that I'll inflict on my loving parents. I'm 39, but they are the most important people in my life. They are marvellous. But I have issues, and don't want to carry on. I want to CTB peacefully, CTB is a personal question.

 

[frostedreef]

My greatest fear was the feeling of my self-aware consciousness ending into nothingness until I read the following:

Facts to Calm Your Fear of Death and Dying

Your assumption that dying will be a scary, unknown experience is incorrect. You probably already know what it feels like to die.

www.psychologytoday.com

 

[lizinha]

I'm scared of the process while dying

 

[danilion]

I'm scared of the process while dying

Me too. This is my greatest fear. It seems like a complicated process when you are planning it. That is when the panic hits me. But I still want to go, so I have to keep planning and hope that the process doesnt make me back out. That scares me a lot. Backing out.

 

[Crows]

I'm afraid of everything dying entails. I'm hoping to make peace with it before I ctb.

 

[Oyoy]

Petrafied

 

[AcornUnderground]

I'm also afraid to be a corpse, which of course isn't logical. But my body being lifeless and taken to the morgue for an autopsy....even being cremated, all terrifies me.