Discussion Are you leaving a note?

[KolechiaPurple]

Im back and forth about leaving a note. I've heard that leaving a note rarely helps the family members you left behind but on the other hand, it feels shitty leaving without a word. I think I might just leave a little message about how much I love them but nothing more. What about you guys?

 

[ArtVandelay]

I'm going to leave one. I have a rough draft I've been working on, but it's hard to decide how much detail I should go into. I'm trying to explain it as a rational decision, without placing blame on anyone or sounding too whiny. If it doesn't help family members, then hopefully it will at least save the police time and resources they would be wasting on a death investigation.

 

[Tabbyql]

I will be leaving a note, with a full explanation it's just a case of trying to prevent it becoming a novel.

 

[DepressionsAHo]

Im back and forth about leaving a note. I've heard that leaving a note rarely helps the family members you left behind but on the other hand, it feels shitty leaving without a word. I think I might just leave a little message about how much I love them but nothing more. What about you guys?

In my most desperate of moments, I've no desire to leave a note, but eventually that goes away so right now I'm struggling between the one I have currently and cutting it all down to two lyrics, two lines. Simple, effective and probably cruel to leave them with no explanation

 

[CelebrateWithMe]

I suppose that it will be shock for some people so note with short (but direct) explonation should be helpful. I want to avoid any misinterpretation or blaming someone for my action. Without any personal letters ("goodbye, love you" etc.), just simply answers.

 

[Anonymous6657]

No I had wrote a note and then decided not to commit suicide, but then my mom found it and told her entire family and everyone else in her proximity and I've lost everything since then. If she wouldn't have found the note I might not be ctb, but now I'm 100% doing it now. Don't care anymore at all.

I have no actual connections with anyone at all so there is no reason to leave a not imo.

 

[iwannaendme]

No I had wrote a note and then decided not to commit suicide, but then my mom found it and told her entire family and everyone else in her proximity and I've lost everything since then. If she wouldn't have found the note I might not be ctb, but now I'm 100% doing it now. Don't care anymore at all.

I have no actual connections with anyone at all so there is no reason to leave a not imo.

Gosh, what did she told you when she found it?

 

[Anonymous6657]

Gosh, what did she told you when she found it?

She tried to put me in counseling/mental hospital, etc. but I said no and just ignored and she would try to hold me and tell me everything was going to be alright. Just go away. Everyone tells you to do it, and she has even tried/threatened to kill me at some point, but god forbid you actually try to do it. Suddenly you aren't a useless sack of garbage and everybody just wants the best for you.

 

[tiggles2000]

I have a note typed and printed. It is only about 1 short paragraph explaining that I have been considering this for a long time and no one is to blame

 

[Escaper Boy]

I don't think I want to write note for my family. I dislike them for many reasons. But, I'll certainly write a proper goodbye thread when I ctb, together with a farewell poetry I write for myself. SS is my true family now. I don't want to leave without saying goodbye.

 

[TAW122]

Yes, I am leaving a note (if and when I do CTB) as that would explain my reasoning behind my CTB and also seek to comfort those around me. Whatever and however they choose to interpret it, that I cannot control so I don't try to dread about that. If they choose to be sad, angry, upset, then that is beyond my control and quite frankly irrelevant after I'm dead (I won't be around to witness it).

 

[Lobo64]

No note, was never married, no children, no brothers, no sisters, all 2 grand'pa and grand'ma are no more here, my father died in 1982, I still have my mom, she's 85 and sick she can't get up alone from the bed or go to the bathroom and that's the reason why I'm still here.

 

[JadedGray]

Yes, I left notes during all my past attempts. I never know what to really say and usually just write a 1 page note that morning. I usually just write about how unhappy life has made me and that I don't hold any ill will towards them (my parents). It also helps to avoid any kind of police investigation, even when it looks like an obvious suicide. Interestingly enough, I've read that most people don't leave a note, but that might be due to it being impulsive instead of planned or just lack of energy.

 

[Garyjd]

I'm thinking of going with a video note, at least then the cops cant try to blame others and also I think it would be an easier way to describe my reasoning and that maybe things can be explained and understood better. My family will be hurt but I dont think that is avoidable.

 

[lost in my mind]

I'm thinking of going with a video note, at least then the cops cant try to blame others and also I think it would be an easier way to describe my reasoning and that maybe things can be explained and understood better. My family will be hurt but I dont think that is avoidable.

I thought about it as well but I kinda scared it could be more dramatic and traumatic to watch me talking and crying while I am no longer exists . Idk

 

[Garyjd]

I thought about it as well but I kinda scared it could be more dramatic and traumatic to watch me talking and crying while I am no longer exists . Idk
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It's kind of a sensitive topic, I dont know either

On my last attempt I didnt leave a note because it was on impulse, I was so close but I was found unconscious and put on life support and I'll tell you when I woke up I was screaming mad. My point anyway is that I dont know what would be a better note or if anything at all

 

[lost in my mind]

On my last attempt I didnt leave a note because it was on impulse, I was so close but I was found unconscious and put on life support and I'll tell you when I woke up I was screaming mad. My point anyway is that I dont know what would be a better note or if anything at all

I know that for me, not leaving a note will be more devastating just because I never share my family about whats going on with me (I'm in hospital and being cared) so leaving them like that could leave so many question marks and more guilt...

 

[Garyjd]

I know that for me, not leaving a note will be more devastating just because I never share my family about whats going on with me (I'm in hospital and being cared) so leaving them like that could leave so many question marks and more guilt...

Definately a good point

 

[brbr]

I feel like shit for hurting my parents and my family. The least I can do is justify myself and tranquilize them.

 

[Gorgon]

It's turning into a book

 

[marcusuk63]

Yeah ," Sorry but my plans did not work out how i wished , even the £500k i have managed to squirrel away for my escape from society will just sit there getting gathering dust " .....I have not got £500k but it will take their minds off my death trying to find it lol

 

[Youthanasia]

Yes, "Good job". Simple, objective, not too salty.

 

[lost in my mind]

Yeah ," Sorry but my plans did not work out how i wished , even the £500k i have managed to squirrel away for my escape from society will just sit there getting gathering dust " .....I have not got £500k but it will take their minds off my death trying to find it lol

Lol but it's sad

It's turning into a book

Mine too

 

[Donewitheverything]

If I did CTB, I at least owe the ones around me an explanation. I wouldn't want anyone to blame themselves for my choice. A note would be perfect, in this case.

 

[temp1234]

I wrote like a rough draft, but then my hand hurt. Lol. So I've been actually thinking about leaving a cassette recording of what I want to say to everyone. I guess it'd also be a nice thing for them to have because they'd be able to listen to my voice. Or maybe it'll make it worse for them? I'm not quite sure, but leaving a recording is definitely on the table for me.

 

[BridgeJumper]

Yeah, one thats over 5 pages long lol

 

[BACONF]

Im leaving a note for my friends (the ones they truly loved me) and note for my family who are the biggest assholes I've ever meet that and I dont want a catolic funeral crap. Just burn me and use me as feftilizer at least I will be finally useful.

 

[secondtimesthecharm]

I'm undecided thus far. If I do, I'd likely only leave one for my mother, as she's the only person I truly feel bad about leaving behind like this. I also did text notes to my closest friends before my last attempt, which is a big part of why it failed, so I can't chance it again.

There's a spiteful part of me that does want to mail something to my ex, so that he knows that I'm dead. Can't help but want to twist the knife a bit from beyond the grave.

 

[Koal]

I'm not going to be leaving a note, at this point I haven't got anything to say anymore.

 

[blanketyblk]

i said it before in another post like this. no point leaving a note. everyone i care about has already checked out. all that will be near by body, will be a copy of my will, my drivers license and my lawyers phone number who will take care of everything. that's it.